idkanymoretbhmylove

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{Tumblr User: @poetryatmost (x)/ Charlotte Eriksson, Empty Roads & Broken Bottles: in search for The Great Perhaps/ Franz Kafka, from The Diaries of Franz Kafka, 1914-1923/ Anne Sexton, Live or Die; from 'Imitations of Drowning'/ Emily Dickinson, from "No crowd that has occurred" (Poem #515), Complete Poems of Emily Dickinson/Franz Kafka, from The Diaries of Franz Kafka, 1910-1913/ Tumblr User: @poetryatmost/ Listy Tamtego Lata, from Letters of Summer Past/ Carlie Hoffman, from "High Bridge Park," published in Gulf Stream/ Alex Dimitrov, from "Love," in Love and Other Poems}

[idkanymoretbhmylove]

Just fuck me to sleep please. I crave that so much.

[idkanymoretbhmylove]

Saturday February 16th at a hotel bar. I hugged you twice. I wanted to kiss you… but I knew I couldn’t. I wanted to never let go. I wanted you to hold me in your arms. I can tell you understand some of my emotions. You said you didn’t want be bad anymore.. and I said me too, I said I was happy when you said it, because I too always felt bad after doing it. The truth is I cried so hard when you told me, I had gotten ill and everything was awful.. but I do agree with you. I do want to be good as well. Truth is I think I want to spend a life time with you.

[idkanymoretbhmylove]

You’ve engraved something.. not sure what..but something on me. I cannot call it love, but I cannot say we were strictly friends. I have so so much love I could have given to you. I have you parts of me that no one else ever had access to..and I don’t know why? What was it about you? Was it simply the fact you were the hottest guy to actually notice me? I’m not sure.

[idkanymoretbhmylove]

Chocolate and ice cream is my favourite dessert. Your eyes, your curls, your dimples. The way you laugh. The way you lingered for one my second when I said good bye. I have a feeling you didn’t want to let me go then. I will pray for you, forever.

[idkanymoretbhmylove]

February 16th will forever be engraved into my heart and soul. For it was the last time I will have ever seen you. I pray it wasn’t.. but life has its ways. Will I ever be able to find someone like you ever again? The one time I genuinely find someone so attractive, beautiful with wayyyyy too much chemistry.. is the time you cannot be mine. Why is it so unfair.

[idkanymoretbhmylove]

I wanted to tell you I got tickets today. I couldn’t.. funny how getting the one thing I wanted for so long, and I remember telling you how I will do, how it will be the greatest day.. and I’ll tell you.. but I couldn’t. Today was the realisation of loss of a friend, not a lover, not my nemesis.. just loss of a friend. Someone I used to be able to call. To nothing.

[idkanymoretbhmylove]

Mary Oliver, from “We Should Be Well Prepared”, Red Bird

[idkanymoretbhmylove]

Said this so many times, my suffering didn’t make me better, I simply suffered .

Jane O. Wayne // Kate Jacobs

[idkanymoretbhmylove]

We are not friends. You are not my friend.

How do you think I fit with you?

Laughs

What will happen? We stop when you leave. Ah.

What are we? What are we doing? What are you?

You’ve seen so many beautiful things.

Yes I’ve seen you.

We have an attraction for each other.

All we’ll have left is good memories.

Good night xxx

[idkanymoretbhmylove]

Is it bad that I’m starting to want to pray to have you? My heart is starting to request the impossible. It’s time to let go.. I can’t have you

[idkanymoretbhmylove]

The way you hold me, the way you keep going and going.. you don’t stop

[idkanymoretbhmylove]

Can I be yours? We can’t right ?

[idkanymoretbhmylove]

I want to remember every single second of my time with you but my memory only allows to hold onto so much. I want to feel you on me again baby please.

[idkanymoretbhmylove]

Kissing you on the bus good bye.. you holding my hand when asleep. You hugging me so tightly and looking into my eyes with mischief and care. Kya horahhe?

[idkanymoretbhmylove]

Your mouth, your body on top of me, slowly doing it

[idkanymoretbhmylove]

Your sweet sweet affectionate touch, constantly touching me.. now matter how little or even when you are sleep you touch me in some way, even by our toes and holding my hand whilst sleeping, and squeezing me when I’m cold.. woaw you’re made out of a movie/book of how touching you are.