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i haven't forgotten about the spy x family 30 day challenge, i'm going to answer it here at the end of january. i'm excited! huge text dump, and then february will be all about art! 🥰

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Spy x Family 30 Day Challenge

Day 7: Best moment for you?

Okay, again, very difficult question for me to answer. There are so many moments that speak to me, that touch me, that describe the essence of this story so well.

However, I'll go with the scene that definitely sold me in the story.

And that's the moment Twilight gets ready to punch Swan in episode 4.

I was already enjoying the anime up to that point, and was already convinced I would continue watching on. But this moment absolutely sold me regarding Twilight's character. It was the proof that even though he tried to tell himself that none of this matters, it's all for the mission, they're not a real family... he actually did care about Anya and Yor's feelings and was ready to kick ass to protect them.

I remember the shock I felt in those seconds as Twilight was lunging at Swan. This instinctual moment, where his spy discipline was screaming at him to stop, could have been the decisive moment that made the entire mission go up in flames. And yet, the priority was retribution at Swan for hurting the others' feelings. The humanity pushed through and Twilight's real character and principles shone out. Because as Swan kept jabbing at Yor and her role in the family, Loid almost snapped at him, but then pulled himself back. Then Swan not only had the audacity to ask Anya - a literal child - a very inappropriate and openly provocative question, he also belittled her for crying about the loss of her mother. Which, yeah, a child crying about their deceased mother is very much a huge trauma trigger for Twilight, Swan belittling her about it only pushed him over the edge.

So yeah, in a few words, this scene not only proved how much Twilight feels compassion for others and feels in general, it also proved that he's ready to do anything to defend anyone whose feelings are being hurt. And that is not only an important moment for the story, it's also an important moment for me. It tells me the story puts human emotions first and that it really cares for humanity, and caring for other people and their safety, both physical and mental and emotional, is an idea that we always need to remember and prioritize.

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wow

heavy mission

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THERE. that's the context! my twiyor royal au idea 😭

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This is my Secret Santa gift for Katty on The Writers Discord Server.

The prompt is "the Forger family in a snowball fight" ❄⛄

I think I forget how to make one-page comics 🤡 help 💀

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what if they just laughed at the absurdity of it all

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just a little twiyor au 🤲

(i may have gone wild- i really want to draw more of this royal au!)

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Wedding

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White🤍

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APT.

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🍵💖🌸💓 🖤💣🌑♣️

🍧🌈🍭🩷 ⛓️🎱💀◼️

🌷💗💞🦄 ☠️🕸️♠️🖤

💖🌸💘🌺 🖤💣⚫🌑

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twilight is such a classic Tortured Male Protagonist. yknow. gripping the bathroom sink and staring into the cracked mirror. sunken eyes. always exhausted. can't admit he wants affection even to himself. can't tell anyone what's hurting him. hot

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i love tumblr so much because people comment on things that no one else does- such as how cute it is to see okarun and loid geeking out. and like- SAME. SAME, i love it. that's why i drew it. I THOUGHT IT'D BE CUTE TOO 😭♡

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Spy x Family 30 Day Challenge

Day 2: Favourite character?

Very predictably, Twilight. I am not immune to the broody protagonist who pushes his feelings away until they start spilling out of him.

One of my favourite things to do with fiction is literary analysis. And Twilight's character is full of juicy details that are begging to be analyzed. The whole way he works as a character while lacking an identity is so compelling, because whether he likes it or not, whether he realizes it or not, his true feelings and motivations manage to bleed through. And I just love finding all the moments and all the ways that this happens.

Also, as a character in general he hits a lot of my blorbo buttons: emotional backstory that motivates his present actions, a deep empathy and care for humanity (that he'd say he doesn't show himself but it's something he values and fights for), potential for Great Whump, and of course the Sad Eyes™.

Lastly, I'm not sure if it's because I've developed some writing experience over the years, but when it comes to writing fanfic, Twilight has not only been the most compelling of my blorbos to write, but also the one I "get" the most, the one I've felt the most comfortable writing in comparison to other characters. He's definitely not the easiest! Especially when you want him to not only realize but also admit to himself that he's grown feelings for his family. But I feel that this challenge is part of his charm.

Overall, he's interesting, deep, emotional, and very very very inspiring. Absolute delight of a character to analyze and to love. Mwah.

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i've always thought twiyor falling in love would never go down the "oh *blush* i think i love her..." route but rather:

twilight staring at the traces of blood on his hands (from the shipwreck of code: white) and wondering about the other possibilities. what if that falling debris hit anya's head instead? and then he realizes the responsibility he's held over these people's lives for so long now- and how much he cares for them.

wait, he cares for them? well of course, any human would.

twilight trying to separate himself from his "family" doesn't become just a source of pain, but heartache. he realizes he's become emotionally attached. but twilight isn't allowed to have emotions like that. it's just guilt. he doesn't feel things like heartbreak.

and yet, yor is the same, but different. when twilight tries to tell her that the contract might end soon (he can't keep putting anya in danger), she can't imagine her life without her fake husband and daughter. but she can't be selfish. so she'll ask the question innocently, no alcohol needed:

"why can't we get married for real?"

and then... twilight freezes. thinking about the arrangements he'll have to make with WISE, and just his life in general. his life as loid forger. what does that life mean to him? nothing. it's their lives that mean the world to him.

and thus, they become an inseparable couple, because he'll figure out a way... a way to keep his family safe with his own two hands.

twiyor falling in love, not in a "sudden realization and rush of butterflies and heart beating fast" kind of way but the way in which they choose. where he chooses to pick up an apple tart from the bakery, and she chooses to learn how to knot a tie. where he chooses to steer her away when he can tell a conversation is making her uncomfortable, and she chooses to ground him when she can tell his mind is wandering far away. where they both choose to sit on the couch together instead of going to bed an hour early. where he will choose to take Anya to the park so she can rest, and she will do the exact same thing the very next day.

because love is an action, love is a choice.

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twiyor falling in love, not in a "sudden realization and rush of butterflies and heart beating fast" kind of way but the way in which they choose. where he chooses to pick up an apple tart from the bakery, and she chooses to learn how to knot a tie. where he chooses to steer her away when he can tell a conversation is making her uncomfortable, and she chooses to ground him when she can tell his mind is wandering far away. where they both choose to sit on the couch together instead of going to bed an hour early. where he will choose to take Anya to the park so she can rest, and she will do the exact same thing the very next day.

because love is an action, love is a choice.