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A Series: A Figure of My Imagination

To Speak

I keep coming out here to speak to you. Lighting up way too many cigs just to look at you. I hear you speaking, to everyone else, But me. Every word you speak is truth. The way you talk with your hands, Put your hands in mine. Iʼm tied up, Way too tied up, To even approach. Be my baby, my coach. Iʼm inspired to write on my phone, Because thatʼs what I see you do. I hear you say from afar, Actions speak for themselves. And the way I want to act, Is to kiss you And watch you react. I donʼt know you, but itʼs a fact, That, Iʼm into you. Donʼt know if Itʼs true, But Iʼm into you.

No Denial

I wanna call you baby, Make you my lady. I want your eyes to smile, As if thereʼs no denial. Cotton candy skies, Always catching me by surprise, Her eyes. Please take me on a ride. Love drunk, Itʼs got me in a funk. Foolish I am, To want to hold hands.

Ride or Die

Beauty begins with the inside, In whom do you confide? A ride or die Or a stranger in disguise. Iʼm having trouble recognizing The misleading eyes And the big man in the sky. In which where do I reside? Hidden notes we keep, Hidden beneath wet sinks. Your words I seek, I open the note and sneak a quick peek. A smile arises, What lies underneath the pen, A disguise. You canʼt run, You canʼt hide... Iʼm on your side.

Run

And when the morning comes, I watch you run. Damnit, I canʼt handle it. Youʼre way too caught up, When I thought I was. Maybe we will talk again, Probably when weʼre buzzed. All I want is for you to come to my house, I need not a spouse, I need to simply show you what Iʼm about. I want to share space with you, And not when youʼre on cue. I want you to see me in a different hue, Iʼm not kneeling at your pue, Just want to be hanging out with you. I donʼt want to be one of those possessive people, Just want to invite you into my steeple. Backing off, No hard feelings. This heart is going to need some healing.

Untitled

Dear god, Iʼm in love with someone who doesnʼt know who I am. So here I stand, Or here I drink, To stop think.

Limelight

I donʼt want the limelight or the fame, And I donʼt wanna play the game. I just wanna write and not feel insane, I donʼt want to point fingers or have anyone to blame. I guess I want to be plain. But whatʼs plain when your soul shines in kaleidoscopic colors? Itʼs like, I want my soul to be discovered and at the same time I want it to be covered. I want to be in the background on the stage. I want to be let out of this attractive cage, And I wish always to turn the page. But my pages have run out, And Iʼm stuck wondering what this life is all about. Iʼve been fighting with myself, And therefore, Iʼm left in ill health. I feel like a drug addict, Going thru a detox. Screaming and crying in pain.

I swear Iʼm sane.

I Wish

I wish I didnʼt tell you that I love you. I wish I didnʼt tell you that I love you because when my heart turns blue itʼs not you that loves me too. And when you make your way into my head, when Iʼm lying alone in my bed, I wish I didnʼt touch myself. I wish the idea of you didnʼt make me cum, I wish I didnʼt tell you that I wanted some because all I do is watch you run. I wish I didnʼt invite you over to my home, You thought all I was trying to do was make you moan, When in reality i wasnʼt trying to bone, I was just looking to get to know you And not over texting on the phone. It doesnʼt matter too much because you never came over anyway And all I wanted to do was toss a football and play or maybe even pray, And what you do not realize is the weight of the words you say. That Iʼm special, that you miss me, that you want me, But forget about it all that, Iʼll see you on Monday. I wish I didnʼt get you a present for Christmas. Itʼs like, I didnʼt realize in between you and I was an abyss. And maybe Iʼm reading too much into this, But you get the jist. Iʼm just in line waiting wondering where I am on your list. And I promise you this, I donʼt have resentment and I donʼt have clenched fists. Itʼs just I love you And I wish you never knew.

Everything

I gave up everything for you And I now realize youʼre not worth giving everything up for. I wish so badly I could have taken your tongue on a tour But it seems as tho your heart may be at war In my head, Iʼm wondering if only I wanted to score, And it seems as if I wanted more, But what for? What for? Youʼve had my heart on a lure. And what you do not know is that itʼs you that Iʼve given up everything for. Iʼll miss you..at every bit of my core. Because itʼs you that i adore. Iʼll miss you and what stand for. I wish you had wanted more. I wish you hadnʼt been so unsure. I thought you were my cure. And I question why you didnʼt want to explore. I hope you know that youʼre the last person that I would want to ignore..

But it seems like the time to let you go so I can soar. Didnʼt want to slam the door I wanted more, I wanted more.

Say so

And if you cared so much why didnʼt you say so? Why didnʼt you say so before I had to go? You never gave me a chance to know you and little did you know that broke my heart in two. Was I supposed to stay around? When you didnʼt answer my calls did you just expect that we would create a relationship banking on seeing each other around town? It was never my intention to let you down, You quickly became my queen with a crown, I adored you. The way you stared and the way you pretended to care. And I question Was it genuine? In this case, I guess neither of us win.

The Curb

Throw me on the curb, Watch me be disturbed. Feelin like Iʼm misunderstood, Got my heart perturbed. Got to starin at everyone else but me. Hope you’re free. With this fame, Iʼm not the one to blame, Hope youʼre free, hope youʼre free And with a lack of vulnerability And with an ego as big as the sea With your whisky and tea Itʼs never me youʼll see, Hope youʼre free, hope youʼre free Forever youʼll remain a mystery And itʼs not something that I envy Itʼs you that holds the key And itʼs me who pays the heart fee Iʼll probably never be Who you want to see, For I am me, And therefore we will never be we.

Attention

People like attention, I get it, Youʼre one of them. I donʼt mind too much, Except that you use me as a crutch. Honestly, It leads me into a fuss. Iʼm into you and all you do is turn my heart blue. I know, I’m only one and for you there is more than a few. One plus one is two And I guess Iʼm not what youʼre into. People like attention, I get it. We may not fit. I get it, I get it. But Jesus, you make my heart lit. So here i sit, Waiting in anticipation, All I want you to feel is emancipation. But without communication, Thereʼs hesitation. Donʼt keep me waiting, Donʼt keep me waiting.

But Shit

Iʼm into you, but shit, Iʼm nothing but background music. You like me around but Iʼm not someone thatʼs going to make a large sound So, Iʼll continue to be into you; But I donʼt know if itʼs you that feels oh so brand new Because itʼs getting old, The connection without the follow thru Maybe itʼs me that youʼre simply not into. Wish you would tell me instead of making me sit on this bench and wait for you. I thought I grew but being into you only makes me grow backwards.. itʼs okay, Iʼm used to this, it feels like something Iʼve always knew. That love isnʼt enough And to me that breaks my heart, It just doesnʼt feel just.

2a.m

When 2am hits, Itʼs only you I think about. I resist reaching out, Itʼs you that has the clout. And I miss you. And I donʼt know you. And it doesnʼt make sense. All these men are fools. And all these women... Yeah, I play it cool, But itʼs you I want. I love that I donʼt play a front. Itʼs you I want. And I wish I could reach out to you. But for what? I want to strut. But you crack my heart, You crack my heart. Youʼre tearing me apart. But why? Iʼm fucked up because you donʼt give me shit back, Only when you have to play. And fuck, I want to stay, But Iʼm done with the play baby. Just wanted to be your lady.

Baby, Go Crazy

Why is it you that Iʼm into? Leaving the ones I love and Pursuing you. But why must I choose for love to die. When you don’t give a fuck if i cry.  

Always ready to love, But baby, Youʼve made me go crazy.

Fetch

Throw me a bone Youʼre the only one who makes me feel pretty much unknown. And I want to call you over the phone, But you leave me with nothing, Feeling alone. And so I tell you I miss you, And you say you miss me too, But let me down harder, Donʼt get back to me Especially if you know you have the key, To my heart. Throw me a bone And watch me fetch, If I throw it back, Is it my heart youʼll catch?

Done

Not sure why Iʼm into you, In person we vibe. Outside. You hide.

Slip

Give me your hand Or let me slip. Iʼm tired of all this in between, Bullshit. If you have feelings for me And me with you, Why are we separated in two? I hope this isnʼt about color. And my mind feels like itʼs becoming covered Painted And tainted With emotional abuse For every I love you Comes with crumbled up notes With no antidote. And although itʼs warm baby, Youʼre going to need a coat. Because your heart is so cold And this feeling is getting old, Iʼm appreciative that you donʼt do what youʼre told. But in the relationship role, I donʼt want you to fall in this hole, To me (and to most) you are gold And I know your heart isnʼt here to be sold, And Iʼm trying to be bold,

But cards are all in, Donʼt want to fold. Give me your hand, Or let me slip. What is it that you donʼt get?

Sometimes

So sometimes, I think about you. The way you look at me, The way I want some. Iʼm not out here just for a run, And maybe, I see you as magic But really youʼre just a crush Because I canʼt have it. And you ask me what you can do, And I think thatʼs so very sweet of you, But whatʼs best is if you let me know, Youʼre not about it, So I can lay my head down to rest Instead of dreaming of your touch and caress. I must confess You make my heart beat out of my chest And you make my head a mess And if this is all just a test..I wonʼt think of you any less.. Iʼll continue to hold you high, And Iʼll think about you every night, And when I have to, Iʼll fight off the thoughts of you, And itʼll make my heart turn deep,

dark purple and royal blue. Just like a disease, Tunnel vision, The heart has no choice, no decision All it can see Is you and me and ...you and me... I hope this lust will not be mistaken for love. And if it turns out to be love, You know I thank god above.. Ashes to ashes, Dust to dust. It is a must, To turn this heart into a vehicle for trust.

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She asked me to write a poem about her falling asleep with melting ice cream in her hands. This is the poem.

charlie everett

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My question is...Is it called stealing if you pick flowers from other peoples yards and set them in a vase on your living room table? I call it beauty.

charlie everett

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I asked her about her favorite thing in life. She said, "flowers." I asked her what her favorite flower was. She responded, "Ice Cream Flowers."

charlie everett

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My mom got me pink roses for my 27th birthday. And of course, they were beautiful. I couldn't wait for them to open their petals, undress and show me their heart. Instead, they died before they ever got the chance to bloom. As I looked at them, I decided to peel open their layers with my hands. Each petal was incredibly soft and I'm not exaggerating when i say, they were silkier than silk. When i finished opening the last rose, I stared in awe as a miracle was created.  The seemingly dead roses lived...just for a couple of days longer, but they opened up long enough to see the light.  My point is...some people just need a little guidance to blossom into the fullest expression of themselves.

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