iamrchelle

[iamrchelle]

You are a strong woman. You are beautiful. You are amazing. You do not deserve to be treated as an option. You deserve to be a priority. You only deserve consistency. You do not need to chase love. You do not need to beg for affection. You do not need to beg for time. You only deserve the best because you are awesome. Keep smiling woman! #longpost

[iamrchelle]

Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worst kind of suffering.

Paulo Coelho, By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept (via hplyrikz)

Clear your mind here

(via hplyrikz)

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This one is enough.

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[iamrchelle]

I know I’ll always love you, I just learned it has to be from afar.

Nobody wakes up and thinks today will be the day they say goodbye to someone they love. It’s never like that. In fact, we tend to spend a lot of time forcing something to work so we don’t have to say good bye. However, every once in awhile we get pushed to a point where we have to decide what’s best for ourselves and unfortunately, it can include saying goodbye.

I know for me, it was similar. We spent so many hours talking. I had never met another human being, especially a man, who I enjoyed sitting and talking with like I did with him. I remember the first time we had date; it’s a group date but twas super enjoy. We were lost in each other’s company. Something I had never experienced before.

Soon enough, we spent close to every hour we could together. We went to dinner, movies, watching your game, food tripping, and that’s just to name a few. We shared things with each other we never thought we could. I understood you and you understood me. You always knew how to make my day. I remember the day you surprised me on Vday, bouquet of flowers was delivered at my work. You was always trying to get me to go to new restaurants and sometimes we end up with your favorite resto and eating unlimited pizzas. We just spent the day talking and enjoying each other.

I remember the night we’ll go home you kept asking me about what was going through my head because I was being so quiet. I may have said nothing, but in reality I was just thinking about how badly it was going to hurt when it all came crashing down. I knew deep down we weren’t meant for forever but that didn’t stop me from loving you with everything I had.

We continued this roller coaster of us for nearly six months. You had made me feel so disrespected, but, I realized at that moment it was me that didn’t respect myself. If I respected myself, I would have walked away so much sooner instead of accepting the treatment that was given to me.

You see, you once brought happiness when I saw darkness. You were the reason I smiled in the morning. You made me feel special and as if I was worth something to you. However, between my fears and your wanting more, it turned toxic. I found that where you once brought light, you now brought sadness. You haunted me and I knew you were going to be the man to break my heart again.

I realized that being around someone who made me feel so low, was not the kind of people I needed in my life. As hard as it was, it was the best decision I have ever made.

[iamrchelle]

The One Who Walked Away.

The world needs to understand we cannot handle every single thing around us, that people do things for a reason, and leaving someone will never be an easy task. When I was in love, songs on the radio made sense. For the longest time I was the happiest girl alive, but who knew that being too happy would cause boredom?

It was the same thing for three years, I felt like I was on an endless cycle, and got so used to everything that I wasn’t having fun anymore. We were three years into the relationship, why would we give up now?

I was more scared on letting down everyone around me that I was neglecting my own feelings. It would hurt him and our relationship even more if I just stayed. My heart and mind wasn’t at the right place. I owe him that honesty because he deserves the all the love and affection in the world.

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Yeah, it did hurt you when I left you, but did it dawn on you that it also hurt me? I wish that you broke it off instead of me because I don’t want to think that it was my fault why things fell apart permanently.

A part of me that still believes we are meant to be together and in the far future we would meet again, but a part of me also believes that I made the right choice in ending things. Things are confusing, but one thing’s for sure: I love you, unconditionally.

[iamrchelle]

6th Wednesday. (at Our Mother of Perpetual Help)

[iamrchelle]

I Don’t Want #RelationshipGoals

When I meet the right person I don’t want everyone to know about it at first.

I want it to be a part of my life I can quietly tuck away. A part of my life people don’t have to know about. The part of my life I can just have all my own.

I don’t care about being Instagram or Facebook official as long as we are our own definition of what is real.

I don’t need flowers sent to my office that I Snapchat immediately, showing everyone what a good boyfriend he is.

I just need to know he’s good to me and treats me well.

I don’t care if we follow each other on anything at all. Because I won’t need to like something to show I support him and all he does.

I don’t need him to comment on pictures I do post telling me I’m beautiful if that’s something he’s saying every day.

Needing validation through social media shows an insecurity within myself and my relationship. I don’t need to be texting him every minute of every day. I just need to be confident enough in him and us to know that I’m the only one he wants.

I don’t need some kiss at midnight to prove that the person standing next to me is the one I might want the rest of the year.

I just need their time. I need their attention. I need their effort.

I don’t need some social media accessory to get a few more likes because the memories that matter most are the ones undocumented.

I don’t need relationship goals or a series of pictures taking everyone along with us. I just need someone real. I need someone honest. I need something raw.

I need to know love is more than what we’ve made it out to be in a generation where the goal is to be in a relationship.

My only goal is to be in the right relationship. A relationship that makes me better. A relationship that makes me more honest. A relationship that pushes me to become the best version of myself.

And when people look at me and say I’ve changed, the only relationship goal I need is someone who has made me change for the better.

Credits: kirsten Corley

[iamrchelle]

The most beautiful feeling in the world is to have someone who has seen your worst side and stayed.

untamed-feelings (via wnq-writers)

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Early as 4 in the morning we gathered at Starmall to join the biggest color run in the South.

#ColorManilaRun

[iamrchelle]

Be honest about your intentions with everything. You never want to build any type of relationship on lies. That foundation will always fail.

Unknown (via deeplifequotes)

[iamrchelle]

"A sweet friendship refreshes the soul." — Proverbs 27:9 (c) @jeffreymartin93 (at AgusOs,Indang,Cavite)

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Summer feels. 👙👒 (at Camayan Beach Resort and Hotel)

[iamrchelle]

Thank you for all the love. ❤❤❤

[iamrchelle]

Undecided!

I can't think what's best for us. Urgh. Hate this feelings. 😢

[iamrchelle]

February 23, 2016