iamjunebug

[iamjunebug]

The pain never goes away.

[iamjunebug]

I dream of you whenever I miss you.. and I miss you every single day, it’s hard to sleep.

[iamjunebug]

Today, I just want to die.

[iamjunebug]

I’ve been loving you for 11 years now.

[iamjunebug]

I live with this pain everyday of my life, it has become a part of me.

[iamjunebug]

I look happy on the outside but my heart is dying everyday.

[iamjunebug]

I should stop watching romantic movies. They make me miss you so bad it hurts.

[iamjunebug]

I miss you all the time it’s insane. I got used to this shit everyday of my life, I didn’t know it’s even possible.

[iamjunebug]

I miss the fireflies you used to give me.

[iamjunebug]

It’s hard to sleep because I’m tired to have the same nightmare night after night.

[iamjunebug]

I dream of death more often than before it frightens me.

[iamjunebug]

I didn’t think I can die over and over, until I’m dying again now.

[iamjunebug]

I don’t know what to do with my life. I’m stuck. I’m doing everything to not go crazy, but I feel like I’m going insane every single minute of this sadness.

[iamjunebug]

“She watched the stars collapse knowing that like her, they held onto their light for as long as they could.”

— Wilder (via perfeqt)

[iamjunebug]

A true sad love story...

A torn heart gives you a different kind of confidence. Something that endures self-disrespect and all the odds. It’s never easy but it’s easier than bearing a broken heart that kills you every second you think of it.

The truth is, when you’re in love and in pain at the same time, you never think of what you look like anymore. You don’t care of what others perceive of you. You will just mind your feeling that’s hurting, almost dying because of what you endure. It’s unbearable that you’d rather choose to look like a fool. It’s the sad truth. You would do things you didn’t even think you can do even in your wildest dreams. You’ll patiently wait in vain no matter how long it takes. You’ll be willing to carry the load rather than think a lifetime of what could’ve been. You see, it’s the reality of it. If you’ll love a person more than you’ll love yourself, it’s going to end tragically. If you don’t leave a piece of yourself to yourself, you’ll be surprised that one day, you’ll end up not even knowing how it happened, or when, or if it’s real. You’ll be left alone, with questions that even the person you poured your love all over with won’t be able to answer. 

You see, love isn’t a fairy tale. It’s a cruel thing that if you don’t know how to handle, it’ll eat you alive and leave you breathless. A perfect love isn’t real. Definitely not as real as when you’re already feeling the pain when that love leaves you.No matter how patient you’ve become because of it, there’s no guarantee that it won’t hurt you. 

People love as much as people leave. Love is a choice as much as pain is inevitable. 

[iamjunebug]

[iamjunebug]

Is it normal to feel like I’m going crazy every waking moment of my life without you?