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im so tired of this.

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One day Alex is on his laptop working on the script for his magnum opus Marble Hornets when he hears a camera shutter. He glances up, brows furrowed in confusion, to see Jay taking pictures. He looked so perfect in that moment, so blissfully unaware of the world. Lost in the movie's world, lost in his passion. Jay smiles sheepishly and takes one last picture before putting the camera down.

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Tim listens to Shania Twain

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Usually with Jaylex Jay is the little spoon but sometimes Alex likes being held and treated like the special boy he is

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The lack of sarah reid content in this fandom is heartbreaking she's an icon she's a legend she is the moment

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GET JAY OUIT OF HERE HES A DICTATGOR

people are just throwing around words huh. im not a dictator, i am simply just better than everyone else. i have everyone at my fingertips and it feels amazing. but im not a dictator, im just better than you and you're jealous. its natural, its okay to be jealous. stop trying to take it out on me so much.

-mod jay📷

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Woah what happened to the guy before me. Glad i missed that drama. Phew.

-The operator

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reblog if you either eat at least one of the following:

toilet paper

drywall

pineapple on pizza

human skin

pussy

but no one is able to guess which

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Good Luck Babe is so Jaylex-coded. If it came out in the the 00s Jay would cry in his bed while listening to it

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did you slay today

I never let any day go unslayed 💅

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do me a solid and just reblog this saying what time it is where you are and what you’re thinking about in the tags.

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Frowny faces remind Tim of Brian too much

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RIP Brian Thomas you would've loved Ram Ranch

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I was thinking about jaylex angst last night as I often do and

Jaylex where Jay is so in love with Alex and he thinks about him all the time but Alex doesn't know. Alex gets with Amy and introduces her to everyone, wraps an arm around her shoulder and kisses her cheek.

That night Jay is in bed sobbing, his hand gripping his shoulder and trying to replicate Alex's hand but he's touched Jay's shoulder before platonically and it doesn't feel the same and it isn't right and he just sobs harder and presses harder until he has a nasty bruise on his shoulder and it aches. He puts two of his fingers in his mouth and wets them with saliva and probs against his cheek with the spit-slick fingers like it's Alex's spit and he's kissing Jay's cheek. But he isn't. And Jay gives up and buries his face in his pillow while he reaches under his bed for his hidden stash of Alex photos he looks at to self regulate.

But looking at Alex only makes it worse. His eyes behind those glasses, those lips, his voice, the way his eyes lit up when he talked about his interests. Amy was going to see that and more. It wasn't fair.

Jay tries to put his fingers in his mouth to wet them again but his sobs have only gotten worse and with each deep wail this fingers jab into teeth and gum so he gives up, not even bothering to clean off his wet fingers. And he just mumbles Alex's name while looking at the pictures and lets the salt into his wound. His head hurts from crying so much and never in his life had he felt such heartbreak and he tries to say Alex's name but nothing can come out.

Eventually Jay finds the strength to put the Polaroid pictures down on his bedside table. He leaves his bedroom in his dorm room, a thin dribble of drool leaving the corner of his lip while wearing nothing but a baggy black shirt and some oversized Pokémon boxer shorts. He walks over to the kitchenette and his roommate is in there too. He mumbles something about "good luck with girl problems" before leaving Jay alone. Jay pours himself some refreshing water and leans against the cool marble countertop.

Alex would make it all better.

When Alex talked to Jay every day and called him his best friend and smiled at him like there was nobody else Jay felt different; like his skin was put on the right way for the first time in his life. And now that comfort and joy and admiration had been torn from him before he ever had the chance to savour it. His voice warbled Alex's name one last time before he took a sip of water. He wanted something stronger than water. His roommate had whiskey or beer or something, right? He couldn't be bothered to ask. He just sat down on the floor and thought about Alex instead.

Alex would make it all better.

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I just got described as an "ad hating commie" by someone because I said a minute of youtube ads is unpleasant. fully spent 5 minutes arguing and defending youtube ads. insane stuff

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bring back tumblr ask culture let me. bother you with questions and statements