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i cannot overstate how life-changing actually seeing all of this in an official canon comic was for me back when it dropped 🥹

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When they love each other so much they fell in love twice with the same person even without their memories

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Genre : non canon queer friends to lovers ships with betrayal side trope a.k.a my favorite trope ever

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Me watching heroes

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"i am going to love you so much you will love you too"

i am literally always thinking about tenrose and how much they loved each other. he burnt up a sun just to say goodbye to her. she loved him so much it changed him as a being. he was literally never the same after her. she looked at him and said i am going to love you so much you will love you too. and he looked at her and said i love you so much and if someone as good as you can love someone like me maybe i am worth saving.

and they still had to let go of each other

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not to get deep but like i feel like the reason why ninerose/tenrose/tentoorose are such god tier pairings is like. there is something so unbelievably profound about how devoted the doctor is to her. he took her to see the universe. he sent her to safety and when she came back for him, he died for her. he regenerated into her ideal partner because he was literally so obsessed with her. he told satan she was his religion and if he believed in anything he believed in her. he cried when they were separated and spent years telling his next two companions about her because he desperately didn’t want to replace her. “that name keeps me fighting.” he was shot by a dalek when he was running to see her again and smiled through it for her. to avoid changing again he created tentoo and he knew that he was going to leave her with him. he knew that tentoo would give her the life she wanted, and the life he always dreamed of having with her. her happiness is what mattered to him most and that is so……. sexy

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Fake Relationship (For Cover) vs. Real Relationship (Dating/Married)

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I have more chuck thoughts

Specifically about s3 this time

Spoilers btw

Okay so

S3 was my favourite season for a While. Now it’s kinda joint with s2 but I still think that s3 might actually have some of the best narrative arcs

(Also has one of the few miscommunication plots that I actually like)

But just. That arc with Sarah and shaw

Y’know the one

Where Chuck is tryna become a spy (and I’m sure a partial reason for that is so he can be with Sarah)

And meanwhile Sarah is watching the man she fell in love with going further and further down a path she’s come to hate

I mean it’s established in the first two seasons that Sarah kinda doesn’t like being a spy anymore

And Chuck is doing stuff like putting assets in underground bunkers (something that was threatened against him multiple times in the first two seasons and was something he genuinely feared happening and he just did it to someone else)

And then he has to kill someone

And I feel like that’s kinda the tipping point for both of them

Because he can’t not. He’s come this far and this is the last step

But Sarah can’t deal with it

(And it doesn’t matter that he didn’t because everyone has to think that he did because Casey isn’t a spy anymore and it would be a Problem if ppl found out it was him)

But then Shaw takes Sarah.

And Chuck can’t flash because he’s too emotional.

But Shaw is gonna kill her and she can’t fight back coz she’s basically paralysed at this point.

And so Chuck shoots Shaw

And I love the little scene afterwards. Where he shoots and then he stares at the gun like he can’t believe what he did. And it’s not quite clear what he’s thinking but he seems almost… horrified by himself

And god I love it

The build up is literally so perfect

He won’t kill anyone. He refuses to. He almost fails his red test, even knowing what’s at stake if he does because he just… can’t kill a person.

Until he does.

(And yes it does then get undone later and he makes a different call that time and I’m kinda conflicted on whether I like that or not. Coz on the one hand, “no thanks, I’ve already done that once before” is a Great Line and I enjoy the meaning behind it. That he can’t bring himself to do it again. But on the other hand, I kinda wish that he’d actually had to live with the choice that he made in a way?)

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BLONDE HAIRED GIRL X DARK HAIRED BOY STAYS SUPERIOR

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Okay I’m still stuck on the fact turner’s parents were assassins and we just got the cliffhangers of cliffhangers bc the same person who trained his parents is gonna train him ???? Like can y’all imagine what season two would be like I’m literally losing my mind like this show cannot be gone

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The way I wish people would understand Nikolai better, that they’d see he isn’t just another love option for Alina in the books, if they’d just read his duology.

There’s a reason Alina and Nikolai’s friendship is so good, and why platonic besties fits them so much better than lovers.

Nikolai is lonely - he doesn’t have real friends. He has Tolya and Tamar, but they’re more like his guards at the point that we meet them (becoming more like family as the story progresses). 

And just think about it. Think about being in Nikolai’s shoes, KNOWING you have to marry for politics. Marry someone you barely know, might not even like, and then be tasked with spending all your free time with them and make babies with them, etc. 

It’s scary, right?

In Alina, Nikolai found a FRIEND. He found someone he could talk to, who he genuinely enjoyed the company of, and who seemed to like him back. If he has to marry someone he doesn’t love, at least it could be someone he sees as a friend and can tolerate (and vice versa). The foundation was there, and sure, maybe in time, feelings could develop. 

Of course, we all know Alina didn’t see Nikolai that way, and even Nikolai is aware that Mal is the one she loves. But that didn’t bother him, because, again - Alina was a friend. Versus marrying a stranger who might try and backstab him one day, it’s a whole lot better, right?

The thing about Zoya is that Nikolai doesn’t even realize he’s fallen in love with her until he’s faced with the prospect of losing her and not being able to tell her how he feels. This happens twice - in KoS AND in RoW.  

In Zoya, it’s not only friendship he finds. He finds a likeness, a comradery, a sense of duty he respects and emulates. He finds he loves her company, never wants her to leave, and he also feels safe in her presence. Zoya supports Nikolai in a way others don’t - she truly believes in him. As king. Someone she trusts with the most precious thing to her - Ravka. 

Zoya also has no qualms with voicing her opinions to Nikolai - King or no, her tongue is as acerbic as it is with anyone else. She tells it to him as it is, even if it pisses him off at times. But he values that about her - that there is no pretense with Zoya. At the same time, he knows there’s layers to her that she hides - he’s always wanting her to tell him a story about herself, to which Zoya says he’d have to earn it. 

It isn’t until the night before Nikolai faces Elizaveta that he comes to understand what his feelings for Zoya are, and even then, he’s skirting it a little. After Zoya tells him the way she protected the baby tigers, Nikolai surmises that if it weren’t for his sense of duty, Zoya would be the queen Ravka needs. 

But more importantly is the end of KoS - when Nikolai faces the potential of dying, he and Zoya share a very tender moment that brings to the surface things they haven’t said because they’re too afraid to. The idea of goodbye, of a finality, spurs Nikolai into realizing all he wants to do is have her in his arms and hear what it is she would have said. 

This is why it’s so important for Nikolai as a character to understand what his feelings were for Alina vs Zoya - one was a friendship, a kindness most have never shown to an affection-starved boy longing for more, and the other is autonomy of choice and love. Nikolai being willing to sacrifice everything to finally confess that it is Zoya he wants is selfish of him, but it is also the first time in his life that he’s put his own feelings first. He has fallen in love with Zoya to the point of forsaking his duty if it means being with her - where a future is not worth fighting for if it means he’s faced with losing her. 

THAT is part of his character arc. The acceptance of love, of learning the difference, and maturing through it. A character that started off with ambitions of the crown, and whatever it took to get there, to a humbled character who realizes he may not be the best choice anymore, but that he can still find happiness regardless. 

And no amount of fanfiction or derailed TV show nonsense will ever replace the beauty in such a simplistic yet unique storytelling arc. 

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just imagine after gert died before he found the time machine, he visited the algorithm to see her

#i'm not fine #gertchase

Marvel’s Runaways | 3.02 “The Great Escape”

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“Forgive me if I don’t talk much at times. It’s loud enough in my head.”

— Unknown

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Sofia Carson and Nicholas Galitzine PURPLE HEARTS (2022)

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Kate : *breathing*

Anthony : 👁️👄👁️

I fear, in fact, that he does not look at me often enough.

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ISFP women of television;

introverted, observant, feeling, prospecting.

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#it’s about the yearning