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literally just quit here two weeks ago this is targeted

I call this the "I hate dollar tree" collection

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please learn how to code

like, if you're bored today, and not doing anything,

learn a little bit of coding please

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they should invent water for men

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FITTED TO WHOM

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how to make a tv head.... with pictures!

This will all be under the cut and I will explain in detail and with what NOT to do. I haven’t seen very many good tutorials anywhere or lack in detail. I will help you save money and get it right the first time!!! uvu 

PLEASE read before you buy anything.

Keep reading

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ignore this djjfffnnf

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i don't like denying a system's existence. i never want to invalidate somebody's experiences and i don't want to sound rude or insensitive. but this? this fucking hurts. it genuinely hurts. this is what people see when i say i have OSDD. this is what people think of when i tell them about my disorder that is a direct result of neglect and abuse. this is what people think and knowing that makes me want to die.

for context. people got mad at her for saying the n-word. her excuse is that she has, and i quote, "split personality disorder" and her "second personality" who's name is ever so racistly fucking LAQUISHA is black and therefore can say it.

keep in mind that this is the same girl who takes pictures of kids with progeria off of google and claims they're her child as a means of making fun of them.

the fact that people in the comments of this video found it even remotely funny just goes to show how horrible the representation of DID in the media is. to think that it's some lighthearted disorder that you can just make up in your head that has no effects or consequences and makes you absolved of all punishment.

this is disgusting. this is absolutely fucking disgusting.

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you know those shitty box TVs that you had as a kid that made that super high pitched ringing noise whenever it was on? have you ever got up real close to it and smelled/licked it (i was a strange child. don't question it). that's what my dissociation smells like

So there was this huge syscourse on another blog that I need you opinion on. What does dissociation smell like to you? Someone said it smelt like mint extract but I said it smelt like jasmine.

Well look at that! We made it back to the topic of my blog XD

I think it would vary from person to person since everyone experiences it differently. I don’t really smell anything, it’s more of a feeling. Like I feel all fuzzy, in both a way where I feel all tingly and I feel like static.

Yeah that made total sense.

However my friend, Paris is their name, has synesthesia and they say that it smells like rain and wet wood, whatever that’s supposed to mean. 

And tf?? There was syscourse over the smell of dissociation??

Well, I mean, not the weirdest thing I’ve heard today.

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early to bed early to rise

burger king meal with burger king fries

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ignore this i have brain worms

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adding again onto fictionkin: Aizawa (BNHA)

Jyushimatsu (osomatsu-san)

Mothman (arguably factkin/otherkin, tbh its just up for interpretation)

Friend Bear (care bears)

i don't factkin but if i did i would probably factkin Orville Peck

long overdue kin list

mostly for discord servers n shit 

disagree if you want but please dont say anything rude? i do this for fun and for coping. 

click the headlines for the categories to see the definitions if you are unaware!

Otherkin:

~Dragonkin

~Angelkin 

~Bunnykin 

Fictionkin:

~Sodapop Curtis (The Outsiders)

~Jade Harley (Homestuck)

~Edd (Eddsworld)

~Noya (Haikyuu)

~2D (Gorillaz)

~Tokoyami (BNHA)

~Bakugou (BNHA) (Questioning)

~Denki (BNHA)

So far that’s all my kins that I have. 

Please no hate, don’t RB with negative comments. I’m literally not hurting anyone. 

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hi i need an emotional support bird

please donate if you can :3

gf.me/u/ys7w4x

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Not to be annoying but y’all have got to stop making callouts saying people are faking DID when it’s intensely clear that you don’t fully understand the disorder, yes even if you have it. Frankly you can’t know if someone is faking, no matter how fake they seem to you, but some of you say shit like “I know they’re faking DID because one of their alters formed after age 9″ which is … so incredibly nonsensical and yet that callout post got thousands of notes. Just admit you’re not an expert and stop trying to diagnose or undiagnose other people through the internet.

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my abuse story (obvious trigger warning)

“When you see someone through rose coloured glasses, all those red flags just look like flags,”

I met him via my friend, Elizabeth. She was always nice to me, I would call her mom all the time and she would call me her son. We weren’t very far apart in our age, she was about 14 at the time, whilst I was 11. 

One day, I got a notification from deviantart; someone had started watching me (a watcher on DA is the same as a follower on Instagram). I watched him back and he commented on my page. I remember it clearly, “I honestly thought you were going to thank me for the watch”. We started talking and eventually he sent me a note (basically an email on deviantart; like a DM), I forgot exactly what it said but he was friendly and we started to get to know each other. His name was Xavier, he was a 15 year old from somewhere in the US, I honestly can’t remember where. I told him my name and age and such, and we bonded about as much as you really can in one night.

After this was the first red flag. We had talked for one or two nights, and he told me he wanted to tell me a secret. I told him he could tell me, but he pulled the first card out of many: the kms card. He said, “If you tell anyone, I’m killing myself.” This shocked me, I was newly out of 6th grade, closer to elementary school than high school, and I don’t want to be responsible for somebody’s death. I told him I wouldn’t tell anyone, and after him saying he would kill himself if I told anyone again, he finally told me. “I want to sit on my best friend’s face”. He knew I was way younger than him, yet he still told me this. I told him that it was fine, and I asked him who it was. He was still secretive, and then revealed that the friend... was me. Me, the 11 year old little boy. Me, the boy who had a girlfriend and he knew it. 

This was one of many creepy vaguely pedophilic remarks he had said to me. He told me he had a crush on me, he said that he wanted me to be his foot slave. And to add to that, I asked him what it was and he said that it was someone who would lick and suck his toes and feet on command. I was shocked and terrified, and I asked Xavier why. He said, and I quote, “Because you just seem so obedient and willing.” At this point, I should have said “fuck you, creep” and blocked him on the spot, but instead I kept talking to him. At one point, I got another note from an account I didn’t know. Xton96. They told me that they were Xavier’s adoptive sister, Chloe. Chloe informed me that Xavier suffers from multiple personality disorder and that if he does anything wrong or bad, it isn’t his fault and I shouldn’t be mad at him. He had never mentioned Chloe before or after this, ever. He always talked about his other siblings.

Eventually, he stopped being friends with me because he had a falling out with Elizabeth and didn’t want to talk to me anymore because I’m friends with her. 

But oh, no. No, no, no, this isn’t the end.

After doing some digging, I found out that Xavier was somewhat close with some other friends of mine. Specifically, Luca. Luca was much smarter than me, calling him out on his manipulation tactics and basically trying to protect me from him. This infuriated Xavier. Eventually, I made amends with him and we began talking again. He acted the same, for months. I was about 12 at this point, and he was still 15. This was the point where we started calling on Google Hangouts, and I heard his voice for the very first time. 

This 100% should have been the point where I left, and I know I’ve said this before and I’ll say this again as well, but I was ignoring every red flag that was screaming in my face for me to leave. That wasn’t the voice of a 15 year old. It sounded like how I can only describe as a cave. Dark, deep, endless, eerie. That man was not 15. 

To this day, three years later, I do not know how old he truly is. I knew how he looked at this point as well, and I can still describe it in detail. He was a bigger guy, with scraggly facial hair and glasses that looked like they hadn’t been cleaned in months. His hair was curly and greasy, reaching down to his ears. If you were to look up “Neckbeard” on google, he looks mostly like that. Every time I mentioned Luca on call, he would get angry with me, telling me not to say his name around him because he hated Luca.

I haven’t mentioned until now, but he ALWAYS demonized me for my disorders. He would yell at me and get angry at me for not understanding his odd social cues, even though he knew full well that I am autistic. He constantly made me feel horrible for feeling sad or empty when I was talking to him, because he said he saw it as him “not being good enough for me”. Yet, he expected me to baby him. Almost daily he would pull the “I’m killing myself” card or the “I’m leaving forever and not coming back” card, only to come crawling back to deviantart and google hangouts not more than an hour later for comfort.

Eventually, I saw these red flags and decided to stop talking to him.

But his behavior intrigued me greatly, so I decided to run a little experiment. I wondered if he only did that to me, or if he was like that to everyone. So I decided to make a fake deviantart account. Vincent was my name, or more, my persona’s name. I posed as a 13 year old boy, too shy to show his face or call, but confident enough to show a self portrait. I shared the account with my then-boyfriend, so that he could see the extent of what I had gone through. I talked often about my friend Alex (my then-boyfriend’s persona) and for a while, he believed my facade. He acted exactly the same to Vincent as he acted to me. Taking advantage of this shy little boy, and this time, I could see through the lies. I could see what he had done to me, this time fully aware of it.

 Eventually, I decided that the jig was up. I revealed myself to him. He was infuriated that I had led him on. We talked still, for a few months after that. He constantly wanted to know who he was talking to, he lost all trust towards me. All the time, he would ask “who am I talking to?” When I told him it was only me, he got angry, violent almost, asking again, “who the fuck am I talking to?” This went on until he eventually either believed me or gave up trying to make me “tell the truth”. Honestly, it was hell. He had become rude and cruel, not caring about anyone or anything. He always spoke like he was a character in a John Green book or something, using big words and existential phrases. Pretentious as fuck. I eventually told him how I felt, and that I wasn’t going to be his friend anymore. He expressed how much he didn’t care, but then I told him that I was going to make a post just like this one, talking about how shitty he was. THAT’S when he cared. That’s when he apologized. He knew what he was doing all along. 

And that was that. I haven’t spoken to him since. I found out the whole “multiple personality disorder” thing was a complete and total lie to try and manipulate me. I also found out that he had done something similar to one of my other friends, except this time, he told him he was 13 rather than 15. It was just all very sketchy. 

I hope he finds this. I hope he knows who I am. I hope to god that he gets the worst fate imaginable. 

To all those who have been abused like this, or who have had worse abuse, or have had abuse that wasn’t even as bad as this, I want you to know that you can recover. You can get better. I still haven’t shaken the daily thoughts of him from my head, even almost 4 years after the fact, but one day, I will get better. One day, hopefully, I’ll forget he even existed.

There is so much more that this man had done to me, but that would have made this post just way too long. I hope this helped open some eyes or help some people realize some things. 

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(The United Kingdom’s National Health Services Gender Identity Clinic(s) gic.nhs.uk)

Trans positivity for all trans people

We are all valid

We are “trans enough”, despite what anti-science bullies and non-professionals say.

If you have days where your dysphoria is light? Still valid!

Don’t have dysphoria at All? Still valid! Dysphoria and Incongruence are different, you don’t have to feel any distress at all.

All of us. Just because we’re valid, that doesn’t make others invalid.

We all are.

Our experiences are recognized by the scientific community. Don’t worry, you’re not alone. Your experiences are real.

{I keep my sources linked in my bio, I have three links there, check them out~!}