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ok, i’m planning to put this up. sorry about all these buttons, just figuring everything else out.

does anyone want a wincest community?

there technically is one but as of posting it’s private and it has like 12 people in it.

so is that something anyone wants? im thinking about making one but does anyone want in, and if so, what do you want added/restricted?

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I don’t know how many boys follow me, but I gotta bet there’s some. I just wanna tell y’all to be careful.

Abusive girls exist and what they’re doing is seen as like “badass tough don’t take no shit” but your girl should not hit you. Ever.

She should not demand for you to hand over your phone to look through.

She should not yell at you and humiliate you either alone or in front of people.

She shouldn’t make you distance yourself from your friends or family.

She shouldn’t scratch you or twist your arms.

She should not call you names.

She shouldn’t tell you ‘she’ll kill herself if you break up’

These are just a few examples of abuse and it’s just seen as okay when girls do it and god knows I’ve fallen victim to it a few times, but you shouldn’t have to.

Never worry about not being in a relationship. If they’re worth it, they won’t hurt you.

No one has the right to hurt you.

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sorry thinking abt Dean in the finale saying BABY brother. Not younger brother. Not even little brother which would’ve worked fine. BABY BROTHER. THAT WAS HIS BABY GUYS STOP.

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we need more abdl/infantilism of sam winchester. he is a baby. he needs to be padded and onesied up with a paci in his mouth and his big brother needs to care for him because he isn’t allowed to do anything on his own. it is sorely lacking in this fandom

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are there any kinks or fetishes that do justify like some sort of psychological evaluation or other moral judgement or are all of them okay

I need you guys to understand that just having a kink is completely morally neutral and not a cause for alarm. please for the love of god learn the difference between getting horny about something unusual and actual harmful behavior. crucially, the act of being horny by itself is not a behavior that can cause any harm to anyone. the cause for concern is when someone is acting in a way that is harmful or otherwise unsafe for themselves or others.

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what if i said wednesday is now officially the samwena day. samwena wednesday. what then

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like this post if you prefer canon wincest (their dynamic is power imbalanced & unhealthy, dean is obsessive & possessive over sam and craves control in their relationship, if they ever had sex with each other, dean would prefer to top) over fanon wincest (sam wanted to fuck dean since he was a teen, sam is predatory towards dean, sam has all the control within their relationship and dean submits to him, dean is a bottom)

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I’m disappointed in you this season, Sam. You are sitting on a GOLD MINE of childish humor.

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anya is the oldest sister in some capacity for sure

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the fact that when the wraith poisons dean and he starts losing his mind, it manifests as pure anxiety and he gets quiet and nervous and mumbles to himself alone in a corner. opposed to sam, who gets angry and defensive and violent... that always makes me crazy. underneath it all, dean is all pent up fear and sam is all pent up anger.

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rewatching s1 and in ep3 w*ndigo, dean makes a joke about not bringing provisions into the woods just to pull out a bag of peanut butter m&m’s and stick with me here, it’s why the later seasons’ “goofy dean” loses me

this moment is clearly a joke but if you think about it too much, it also makes some sense; a family size bag of peanut m&m’s is calorie dense and even the high sugar is good to keep you moving which they need on an overnight hunt. it also shows how due to their upbringing, they’ve had to eat lower quality food, things they always had access to that was cheap and also in bulk

what does dean eating ghost pepper jerky then tipping water on himself exist for other than to be a cringy joke? what does smelling old chinese food, testing to see if it's still good then shaking his head with cabbage hanging out his mouth when it isn't serve? it's just to make him look stupid and contrast sam's healthy/clean diet (and superiority but that’s another conversation) which has always existed but it used to be nuanced and natural

we see dean as a child give up the food he wanted to eat so sam could eat it. (“i’m sick of spaghetti-os,” “you’re the one who wanted them,” … “i want lucky charms!” “… there’s only enough for one bowl and i haven’t had any yet!” proceeds to give them to sam, 1x18) we know he hustled and stole food to ensure sam ate. (“so, what’d he take?” “get this- peanut butter and bread.” 9x07)

we also see throughout the early seasons dean teasing sam about his salad or healthy choice while he eats some form of burger or other fast food (or notably, cheerfully eating prison food that sam won’t touch, 2x19). it's typical sibling teasing but it also shows that it isn't new for sam to eat like that and for dean to know he eats like that

sam being picky isn't just a character trait they chose for him, it's a result of how dean raised him; he raised him to like and want healthy food and be food secure enough to reject food he didn't want

but dean eats anything he is given and seeks out unhealthy - cheap, plentiful, filling - food

he is the opposite of picky to the point of it being a consistent bit; they show him multiple times eating when it's socially frowned upon to do so eg. questioning a grieving victim when they're trying to be discreet (1x14, 2x15, 2x18)

a similar moment to the chinese food is in 4x19; dean wakes up in the car while sam brushes his teeth outside and is hungry. sam says there's a sandwich in the backseat, dean smells it and recoils bc it's an old tuna sandwich. the moment is funny on its own but it also exists as a comparison of their lives to adam's; he has a loving mother, goes to school and importantly, a steady stable childhood

it’s a joke with a purpose

it also supports dean's food insecurity; he wakes up and is immediately hungry, enough to complain about it and seek out food before anything else

dean is always hungry bc he never has access to nutritionally rich foods bc he got used to using the money he earned to buy sam's more expensive food. he got used to his cheaper, denser foods and grew up with (and continues to live with) intermittent access to said foods. think of how long it takes to drive from one state to another; how many hours it can take to see another town that offers food, if you arrive at a reasonable enough time for anything to be open. also think how they can’t keep any food beyond what fits in an esky; nothing that needs defrosting, nothing can be heated up. it’s bags and jars and take out for as long as they can trust it

then they get the bunker which has its own kitchen

dean even describes himself as "nesting" when he decorates his room, something he hasn't had since he was four years old, and he uses said kitchen to cook a burger from scratch that he is proud of. he is food secure for the first time in his life and it shows in how often he cooks for both himself and sam

so these moments where they have him acting goofy regarding food are no longer character driven and only exist as a joke which is why they come across as cringy and out of character compared to similar earlier moments

a lot of my issues with dean's characterisation started when they introduced the bunker. the argument can and is made that the reason these jokes happen is bc he feels safe in the bunker, that bc he now has a home he can relax and unmask but that still doesn't feel sufficient. they crank up these sillier moments for both of them, giving them a sort of playing house comedy vibe of two roommates with completely different personalities but it doesn't feel like an authentic progression. it feels forced; an attempt at humour for humour's sake

food stopped being an informed part of their characters and their trauma and instead became flanderised; sam is the judgy vegetarian health nut and dean is his borderline slovenly carnivore counterpart

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does anyone want a wincest community?

there technically is one but as of posting it’s private and it has like 12 people in it.

so is that something anyone wants? im thinking about making one but does anyone want in, and if so, what do you want added/restricted?

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closeups of the ptolemaea collage

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Supernatural S7E21 Reading Is Fundamental