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I'm cold. I've been cold for a long time. And I know that one cut and I could feel those beautiful red tears of warmth again.

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I know a lot of people love me. I know I'm important to them. But still, I feel like an outsider. An impostor.

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Viktor, is that you?

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I'm crying my eyes out, but still my body is numb, I can't feel the pain. I want to feel it, I want to know it why can't I have the pain if I can't have her?

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Sometimes you see a trans headcanon that's just like...

I can buy the character transitioning, but I cannot in a million years imagine them willingly choosing that name.

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liking someone platonically is so embarrassing like. yeah i admire you. yeah i think about you all the time. yeah i look forward to every time i see you even if it's only for a minute. yeah it's all platonic and yeah i couldn't explain this because it'd sound romantic. fucking hell

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So I started Lost. And oh god, Evangeline Lilly is so beautiful, I can't..

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I visited the opera last night. I'm already deeply in love with Verdi's work, but this arrangement, the costumes, the scenery was exceptional

I had the luck to watch "A masked ball" for the first time, and other than the fact that it was beautiful, the choreography, especially Oscar's constantly moving character just blow me away. I can't imagine how hard it must be to sing those playful melodies clearly while jumping and running around.

This was probably one of my best experiences in the opera, and wouldn't mind sitting through it again

Not a good picture, but good enough to demonstrate the beautiful work they've done with the set

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I still love how the "speaking evil" in Wynonna Earp just means speaking Hungarian.

And as a Hungarian, I'm pleasantly surprised how good their pronunciation is.

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I have nothing against people who enjoyed Milly's performance better but one thing I noticed and the reason why i absolutely adore Emma is because they like...move like a dragon?? Just the way they sometimes cock their head to the side and move their neck and shoulders is so animalistic in a way that honestly makes me feral. And I noticed that this behaviour is particularly present in the scenes between Rhaenyra and Daemon, like they truly awake the dragon in eachother.

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Daemon you need to come home your girlfriends are unionizing.

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scale of 1-10 how badly do you think alicent's eye is gonna twitch when she finds out rhaenyra kissed a dark haired girl best friend and it WASN'T her

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Lost and delirious

I had a writers block and even I was surprised that there are some lesbian moves with such beautiful writing and story that they inspired me to continue writing poems.

Some of the movies that were the most inspiring:

Vita & Virginia

Portrait of a lady on fire

Elisa y Marcela

The world to come

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I'm tired of waiting. Of spending vast amounts of time on nothing that could've been something worth living.

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Just a lil something I cooked up last night

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You know that feeling when you start to be comfortable with your name, the name you choose for yourself, and then someone you love makes fun of it? And then it doesn't feel right to use that name? Well fuck them. I won't give them the satisfaction of changing it just for them. That's me. That name is me. And you won't make me change my mind

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I Miss the kid me. The one with only happiness in their heart. The one who didn't yet care about what or who they are, and was just happy to be.

I miss the me I was before it all.