i-cantbelieve-you-lied

[i-cantbelieve-you-lied]

to billy / cringetopia music

i really thought you were my soulmate. words can't fully express the shock, sadness and emptiness i feel now. a whole month of dating someone who i (22) believed to be turning 20 years old. we had everything in common, we had so much chemistry, you said you were going to propose to me... you lied about everything. your age, the supposed abuse from your family, the "adult guardianship court order" never existed - you were simply a minor, and you lied at every corner.

we were going to meet. i was going to "rescue you" from your "abusive household" by letting you move in with me. there's GPS tracking on your phone because you have tried to run away before. the police tracked you down and before you could get to me they took you to the station for questioning. the entire time you would say to me, "im a full grown man, im almost 20, i just want freedom!"

...of course they dragged you home, not because of any "court order" but because you are LITERALLY 14 !!! you're turning 15, not 20! you sent ILLEGAL images and videos to me and other adults in the 18+ discord server we met in! you clearly don't have any sort of fucking grip on reality if you can't see how you have endangered others and yourself. stop lying about your age, kevin/billy. im hoping your mother continues to be a good parent and never returns your devices. you should NOT be allowed on the internet AT ALL until you turn 18, you have proven time and time again that being online is making you worse and now you're actually endangering people with your web of lies.

the utter shock and disbelief i felt when i contacted your mother for clarity and she told me everything. all the proof of your real age, it shattered me. and shes so nice too, she was totally understanding of everything. the entire time we were together you made me believe she was a villain... you are a compulsive liar and manipulator.

i don't know if anything can soothe the dull pain i feel. i truly believed everything you told me, i cared about you so so much. i genuinely loved you, the person you pretended to be. i would have done anything for you billy. i spent SO much time and money on you, like more than £200 total which is a lot for someone like me who is disabled and on disability income. you exploited me and my generosity and love for you. im traumatised.

why did you do it? do you not understand the pain and grief you have caused me and your parents? all because you lied about your age and family life. if you were honest i would have never spoken to you at all. if a 14 year old tried to message me, i would block them instantly. i feel sick remembering the messages we sent eachother, many of them romantic and some of them very explicit in nature. i have unwillingly and unknowingly committed a crime because of you, billy. i feel disgusting, i hate myself and my trust issues are even worse. im usually really good at telling when people are lying about their age but you managed to fool me, especially since your interests aligned so well with someone born in the early 2000s. i genuinely can't believe someone could lie so much. i haven't been this shocked and horrified since my dad suddenly died years ago. i want you to know how much you hurt me and the damage you have done. i can't bear to look at the art and animations you made for me, or listen to your music or voice messages. you are incredibly talented for your age indeed. it hurts so bad... i had been single for 2 years and truly believed i had finally found "the one". im so fucking sad and disappointed.

please never come back to the internet again. if you do, i know who to contact to get your devices taken away. please get better. i still care about you, i want you to be happy and healthy but i cannot love you and i never want to be in contact with you again.

goodbye... 😭