hyperfixatedbean

[hyperfixatedbean]

"mmh did you know that creator you like also posts 🔞 content? did you know that? don't you think that's weird? don't you think we should keep this space-"

no. i don't.

i booked a front row seat to the devil's sacrament and you're blocking the view

just go back to the 1660 new england hole you just crawled out of and eat barley for a week to atone for your sins or whatever

[hyperfixatedbean]

I was gonna make a post asking if other people also think Chris does the "well mom said no, so I guess I'll ask dad now" thing with Buck and Eddie but then I realized wait no, that's already established canon. When Chris was mad at Eddie he went to Buck (as opposed to say, Pepa's or abuela's) and when Eddie said they were taking a break from technology Chris asked Buck if they could go to his apartment. Even their in sync "No!" when asked if both parents can be the good cop. Buck and the Diazes have so many meaningful moments that cement them as a little three person family but nothing gets to me like that face Eddie makes at Buck after Chris asks to go to his house to play video games because that is peak "we need to he united front on this" parenting face.

[hyperfixatedbean]

Thinking about how eddie and buck were definitely bedroom kids but chris is so clearly a living room kid and that's the kind of breaking of generational trauma i love to see

[hyperfixatedbean]

Thinking about how Will was the closest thing Jonathan had to a friend for years.

[hyperfixatedbean]

I could write a dissertation about this and instead only have time for a few paragraphs but. Looking back on Psych with more knowledge about neurodiversity and how people feel about actually being around folks with neurodiversity-related traits…

I have a LOT of feelings about how Gus has so many of the autistic (and some ADHD) traits that people find annoying and grating and get pissed off about (correcting people, infodumping, dropping special interests into unrelated conversations, rigidity in folllowing rules, etc) and Shawn has so many of the ADHD (and some autistic) traits that people find annoying etc (physical and verbal hyperactivity, jumping between tasks and jobs and so forth, habitual lying, interrupting in conversation, etc), BUT

With each other they sort of… build their relationship around those things, instead of treating them as Problems. Gus corrects incorrect things and Shawn forgets correct things (or habitually lies or etc) so they build an entire recurring bit around the situation where those traits intersect (“I’ve heard it both ways”) that turns it from a source of conflict into a shared in-joke ritual. When Shawn starts up one of his elaborate lies Gus immediately swings into commit to the bit back-up mode. Shawn treats Gus’s infodumping as a social strategy.

They balance each others’ extremes without genuinely resenting each other for needing that. Gus is overly rigid about rule-following, Shawn is overly impulsive about rule-breaking, and they pull each other towards a more sustainable middle ground. Gus is overly fond of routine and risks stagnation, Shawn is overly prone to starting and then abandoning things, between them they’re able to form a life that’s interesting and includes novelty but isn’t unlivably chaotic. (We see what happens with that one when they’re not together to balance each other out! During the time they were apart, Shawn had a jillion jobs and quit all of them, while Gus became a dead-eyed pharmaceutical salesman with zero, like, Upward Mobility.)

And then of course there are the traits they share! They both clearly have echolalia and a drive to stim, for instance, and instead of policing each other they just periodically break into random dances and vocal exercises and “singing” and general sensory-seeking nonsense together, matched to each other.

I just??? The fact that they visibly display all those autistic and ADHD traits that drive other people crazy but instead of being a wedge between them that’s exactly why they’re perfect for each other… and how it’s not that it doesn’t ever cause them annoyance because they’re just like naturally soulmates who never get annoyed by anything about each other, but that they’ve worked out rituals and strategies so that what maybe bothered them in the past now instead is a shared bonding activity, or acts to balance their weaknesses against each other…

Just. Got Dam, that’s the dream

[hyperfixatedbean]

One of my (numerous) favorite Psych gags is when every character except Shawn is off participating in different unhinged behaviors and Shawn's just like "????????? Is ANYONE going to help me solve this case. What is going on. Why are you like this."

[hyperfixatedbean]

AO3 really said:

“I’ll always be there for you.”

Then disappeared mid-fic. No warning. No goodbye. Just me and 14 open tabs, staring at an unpublished draft and spiraling into emotional ruin.

I didn’t know I was in a one-sided slow burn with the website.

[hyperfixatedbean]

"Self-indulgent fic" this "Self-indulgent fic" that..

Someone out there wants to die at war for you because you wrote and published the EXACT fic they were looking for.

[hyperfixatedbean]

this is my first time experiencing ao3 going down when I was actively reading and needing fanfiction. this is HELL how have you people gone through this so many times

[hyperfixatedbean]

AO3 and Tumblr got married on Twitter days ago.

Today AO3 disappeared.

Classic newlywed behavior.

Already ghosting each other mid-honeymoon while the fanfic community is stranded on Tumblr with no refreshments.

[hyperfixatedbean]

It’s half 9 on a Sunday morning and it’s my first day off in ages and ao3 is down 😭

[hyperfixatedbean]

ao3 is down again. our wife is gone. BUT.

after our wife left us for five years (seven hours) last time, i put the fic I'm reading rn (800k words so i am not running out) on entire work view

thank you past me for allowing me to be with wifey even as she is away

[hyperfixatedbean]

AO3 NOT RIGHT NOW. BAD TIME BAD TIME

[hyperfixatedbean]

I JUST STARTED READING A 670K WORDS SLOWBURN FANFIC, AND AO3 DOES THIS TO ME, HOW DARE THEY

[hyperfixatedbean]

please ao3 not now I’m trying to read my slow burn enemies to lovers fic at 4am

[hyperfixatedbean]

When Ao3 (Tumblr's wife) is down...

[hyperfixatedbean]

When Ao3 (Tumblr's wife) is down...