hyacinthcollective - Tumblr blog

hyacinthcollective · 3 days

Text

Why did I have to switch in whilst our hair dye is processing? I can't shower. I just cannot shower. Now I have to make someone else switch in, and we don't have particularly reliable front triggers, so I don't know if I can.

#the hair dye is conditioning and semi-permanent so at least I'm not frying our hair off here #but still.#system stuff #sys blog #sysblr #plural system #plural stuff #pluralpunk #endo friendly #anti anti

1 note · View note

hyacinthcollective · 7 days

Text

SEVEN DAYS

That's how long it took for us to be fake claimed

we've been aware of being plural for seven days and just got fake claimed for the first time!!

Whoo!! We really are plural!! We have strangers deciding they know more about our experiences then we do!! Fuck yeah!! /silly

1 note · View note

hyacinthcollective · 9 days

Text

Watching a documentary with False rn, and when she saw a clip of the animal she's connected to, she got so happy.

#was honestly adorable.#I'm not allowed to say what animal it was. but she got so excited to see a clip of them.#(I'm gonna choose a documentary on them next time. she got /so/ happy)#system stuff #sys blog #sysblr #plural system #plural stuff #pluralpunk

0 notes

hyacinthcollective · 9 days

Text

Love how Avian was fully planning on dragging me into front for our appointment - knowing it'd stress me out and that my emotional support headmate isn't going to join front - and didn't grab my fidget, totally hasn't pissed me off at all /sarc

#I need my fidget.#or my emotional support co-fronter.#neither are available.#I'm going to smack Avian.#system stuff #sys blog #sysblr #plural system #anti anti #plural stuff #pluralpunk

0 notes

hyacinthcollective · 10 days

Text

We're using a not directly obvious front indicator on Discord so we get to come up with jokes for each person.

Currently, in front is myself (Bradley), and False.

Our indicator is FALSEHOOD.

I am a Logan Sanders introject.

I'm very proud of myself for this joke.

#system stuff #sys blog #sysblr #plural system #anti anti #sanders sides #pluralpunk #syspunk #plural stuff #plurality

6 notes · View notes

hyacinthcollective · 11 days

Text

The Gregory House fictive is so bad at understanding subtext. Its actually hilarious.

1 note · View note

hyacinthcollective · 11 days

Text

I'm being supervised?? The fronting alone privileges have been revoked, I guess

#False is in co-con #only indicator of this is that everytime I notice anything in my room that could be a hint about me being a system I have to hide/destory it #the we/us privileges have been revoked as well #this is fair - my brother thinks I'm a system and False is freaked about that so shes doing everything she can to hide it #but also I'm being supervised and don't know how I feel about it #I'm also not allowed surety of who I am- I think I'm the host but not sure tbh #plural system #pluralpunk #sys blog #sysblr #system stuff

1 note · View note

hyacinthcollective · 12 days

Text

AC: *jokes about sharing information that isn't shared*

False: Absolutely not. *forces AC away from front as quickly as she can*

#False mostly uses he/him!! she/her is special permissions only!!#AC was glad to leave #bro was experiencing phantom limb sensations and did not want to be there #sys blog #plural system #sysblr #system stuff #endo safe #pro endo

1 note · View note

hyacinthcollective · 12 days

Text

False: *asks a question*

Whoever was asked: *gives a vague non-answer*

False, absolutely seething with rage: fair enough, thank you for trying to answer. :)

#shes doing the best she can #but hes also going to punch someone if given another non-answer /j #hope its a joke at least #(Only sys members get to use she/her for False. do not if you aren't one of us)#absolutely no idea who made this post. we were False but then the idea of this post appeared and now that its typed. we're not False.#plural system #plural stuff #plurality

1 note · View note

hyacinthcollective · 12 days

Text

I don't like feeling guilt.

#I'm withholding my trust from friends of the host #I'm not sure why I am #even less sure why I feel bad about it

1 note · View note

hyacinthcollective · 12 days

Text

Was so sure it was the host in front. Then I wrote something down

#best test to figure this shit out so far is to compare handwriting.#mine doesn't look like anyones so far.#who tf am i?#sys blog #sysblr #system stuff

0 notes

hyacinthcollective · 12 days

Text

I love our host. I promise.

(Technically I don't, I care for it, and want it to be happy and healthy, but that's because that's why the brain made me, I don't have an actual opinion on it as a person.)

#look. we still need to finish the laundry and shower and cook.#it can take over once we've done those things #I want it to front once we've cooked. I do not like eating.#but I know it won't do those things so it can't front until I'm done doing them.#plural stuff #system stuff #sys blog #sysblr #pro endo #anti anti

0 notes

hyacinthcollective · 12 days

Text

Plurality (and existing in general) is a lot more fun when you stop worrying if you’re doing it right -Party

#rbing to make sure Host sees this once I let it back in front #and to spread the message and shit. because it is important.#endo safe #pluralgang #endo friendly #inclusive plurality #plural stuff #pro endo #plural system #pluralpunk #plural community #actually plural #(yes host. we are allowed to use that tag. stop acting like we're not)

282 notes · View notes

hyacinthcollective · 12 days

Text

I don't like that my demeanour seems sad. I'm just mostly serious and monotone and talking quieter to keep our voice deeper and more masc. I'm also talking less because I know my speech patterns are different from hosts, and I'm meant to be masking as it.

I'm quite content and fairly happy. I promise. Stop asking if I'm okay and saying I seem sad.

#its mostly been our sister #who doesn't know about the system. I do recognize that I'm not great at acting like the host and shes just concerned about her brother #but still. I'm happy. stop asking.#our sibling who is aware I'm not the host also said I seem sort of depressed in comparison.#and I'm not upset about that. I know they were just explaining how I differ from the host.#but it still feels weird.#sysblr #system stuff

0 notes

hyacinthcollective · 12 days

Text

I want my facial hair and lip piercings back.

#I also feel very weird knowing that we're bodily a minor.#and all our friends are also minors (most of them are younger then us)#I'm a 24 yr old man. I shouldn't be around this many teenagers.#it feels weird.

0 notes

hyacinthcollective · 12 days

Text

Masking is strange. I wasn't doing this with our siblings, but now our mother is here, and apparently, I can act like the host. It just feels really weird to do so.

#my voice went back up to the hosts normal register I hate it so much.#give me my monotone and low voice back.#sysblr #system stuff #plural system #sys blog

0 notes

hyacinthcollective · 12 days

Text

I'm loving noticing the little differences between us actually.

One I really like is that in places where our host would say 'oh the horrors' I've been saying 'the wonders'

Example: we started doing stim our host does constantly, I was unsure if it was me or if host was nearby, I expressed this with our sibling who knows we're a system and added on to the end of the statement 'the wonders of being a newly discovered system'

Had it been our host speaking, it would've said 'oh the horrors of being a newly discovered system'

I quite like this little detail in our speech patterns

#sys blog #system stuff #plural system #I like that mine is more positive since I apparently have a more depressed seeming way of expressing myself #I'm not sad just serious and monotone (especially since emotion in our voice makes it sound more feminine then I'm comfortable with)

0 notes