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Happy 5th Anniversary!

Hi,

Another celebration apart from each other haha but we can always celebrate any other day NBD.

This year has truly been one big fucking roller coaster of a ride.

First off, I welcomed 2019 with a bing bada bang bang boom. Can you believe it though, hapit na pud mag 1 yr. Time flies so fucking fast and slow at the same time.

Second, I think most heartbreaking sa imoha ani na year, tong pagkamatay ni Doopie. Hayyyyyyyyy (lol, naforward pa jud nako ang pic sa imoha accidentally, sorry luh yah)

:’‘( rip Doopie we love you <3

Third, I healed quite fast so naka Singapore and Malaysia ta. Your first out of the country and OUR first out of the country.

Japan, next, pleasus!

Fourth, we celebrated my Birthday together!!! Weewoo! 

Fifth, laag with our fams :)

Sixth, first hike together!!!! At Mt. Loay.

Seventh, the dumbest decision I made which led to my broke and depressed ass right now, resign og ahak (wala ka sa pics pero iapil nako kay shet)

but hey you know what no regrets no more (hangtod sturya rako but im trying my best haha)

Eight, your employment sa CEBU!!!!! Road to #sugardaddy (despedida)

Ninth, the fucking highlight of the year tho lets be REAL!!!!! Second concert together (after Tom Misch) fuck yeah!

Tenth, side trips ofc. From mnl to baguio to la union to vigan to paoay. What a fucking ride tbh no wonder gisakit haha but hey no regrets DAPAT

Eleventh, nagkita ta usab when I went w my barkada to Cebu yahu

Twelfth, our last/latest kita. When I went to Cebu for CCNA Bootcamp training.

WEW daghan na jud nahitabo but i always feel like this year has been so fucking fast but so slow at the same time. Idk daghan kaayo big decisions nahitabo which led to another to another and then to another etc. BUT we stayed by each other’s side no matter what! i think that is they key to a ~successful relationhip~; genuine support and trust and constant choice of being together nawmsayn.

this yr, although not rly a test for our relationship, has been tough for me. when i resigned i was so fucking lost i cry everytime. so much has been going on but at the same time, nothing literally is happening to me. BUT you are my constant reminder to keep on going and that this is nothing compared to what is coming ahead of me. thank you for always supporting me! mentally emotionally and most of all financially, $$$my sugar daddy 4 life$$$ srsly tho i couldnt be more grateful for you and your money HAHAHAHA imma repay you when i get a job :(

lastly Y know what LDR is not rly bad as I thought it would be. There was a lot of ~miss yous’s~ in between those moments (ever since you started working in Cebu), but every time we see each other again,, its like nothing has fucking changed and i like that a lot hehe no pressure always. now i dont understand why ppl give so much fuss about ldr.

Anyways, i love you with all of my heart ++ temporal lobe (?)

-lagomski<:

11/28/2019

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opportunity: i hope it comes

if only i had the guts and the money to get out of here i would've been somewhere far away. im tired of relying my happiness to other people. I want to start fresh. I want to start somewhere. i clearly don't deserve this.

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I Hope it will get better i just hope

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Honestly speaking i don’t know what im doing and who i am anymore. I wake up everyday doing the same shit every single day and i feel so empty inside. Certain things have sucked the life out of me. When im alone i feel alone when im with somebody i still feel alone. Im tired of feeling this way. Pls give me back my sunshine

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Nothing hurts more than words it will never stop haunting you until you are emotionally numb

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I domt know him angmore

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NO ONE will ever understand.

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I hope i can be away from this fucking sick of a place NOOOOW FUCKING NOW NOW FUCKIG KOW

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INSENSIITIVE MOTHERUCKKER

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Worsr fucking person worst fucking lerosknperosnnn

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FUCK YOU ALL ALL ALL ALL ALL ALL ALL ALL OF YOU ALL FOYOU

ALL A-L-L

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During birth, if i were to choose whether i live or not, i choose not

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TERRIBLE PEOPLE TERRIBLE TERRIBLE TERRIBLE TERRIBLE TERRIBLE PEOPPLEEBENSJSJAHSK i hope i die

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I hate ALL OF YOU

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I wish i was strong

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im sleepig wht summer right now just so i could hug someone i rly need a hug