humming-m00n

[humming-m00n]

I've been working on my writing lately, whether they're stories (wips at least) or poetry. I notice that my poems are somewhat dark or to word it differently, that I'm not really using happy topics to write about, rather more depressive ones..... I mean it is good to get my feelings out, else I'd probably drown in them....However, I still feel a little weird posting it on here, since it's something I don't really feel comfortable talking about. About myself....

I wish the world out there wouldn't need me, I wish I could just vegetate in my comforting room in my comfy and inviting bed, write my silly little stories from my silly little mind, make myself and ppl around me happy with my stories and just live from that. Only silly me and my silly thoughts to make the best of the situation of me actually not wanting to be here and looking for an escape through writing/reading. To escape this world of order, that wants us to be silly little factory workers. Just live how I would want it, not how others force me too, just because it's society's norm. Geez I probably sound so stuck up.

Instead I get told to fix my sleep schedule and get my shit together. Fuck that, honestly......

(probably gonna delete this soon)

[humming-m00n]

I wrote an awesome Dean Winchester x Reader oneshot, back in middle school (at least I had a rough idea for it) fast forward some years later when I found it again, on a crumbled up piece of paper, when I wanted to write a whole nice oneshot about it and I did. Back in 2020 I had it ready to upload on wattpad with over 3.700 words...... Yet my dumbass wanted to delete a chapter of the same book, and I ended up deleting the whole book...... I only had that one oneshot written anyway, but deleting this will forever be heavy on my heart lol, cause I just know I'll never get it as good as I did when I frist wrote it :(

[humming-m00n]

Eddie taking Reader to a milkshake - french fry date, acting like complete fools, then taking them to an open field concert after, just having the time of their lifes, just to end up tangled together in Reader's bed in their trailer late at night/early in the morning. ♡

I hope I get the motivation to write this oneshot eventually, on my main account :')