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My angel baby up above what id give for one last hug. To watch you smile and hear ypu snore. In heavens garden now free to play grow and explore 💙💙 mummys misses you so much more than you will ever no 💔💔

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Arrrrrrrrhhhhhh 🤬🤬🤬

Walking on eggshells.. Brave faces.. Emptiness inside that fills every inch... A childhood trying to please always ended in fear and despair. Yet into my home you walk. Brazen without a care. Were here t do what u cant do🤔🤔 funni not sure when i failed you. I walked your line i sang your tune. I jumped everytime before your sentences end. Trying to prove im not a failure in your eyes.

Yet when i needed you. Nowhere to be found you turned you back and passed me around. I begged for help,, teachers mentors counsellers too. Yet your response was u need t go home.

Home is what i ran from the pain the never ending lack of care. From pillar t post while u stood and watched. Noone knows whats really underneath the pain that fake brave face conceals.Hiding in my room or runnin away seemed better than how u wanted me t spend my day.

When i needed you depended on you u let me down and now instead of helping again u got it all wrong. U took my babies sed i wasnt enuff and id done wrong yet put them in the same situation u complained about but worse. No answers no communication.

You took my world my only reason for carrying on. I buried my baby and then said goodbye to the rest. And watched on the sidelines while u tore my life my world apart and seemed t enjoy the destruction u created. U played your game u got it your way. But i guarantee this isnt goin to work how u invisioned or hope it will do. My babys will be back ill prove once more ill jump ur hoops u havent got a clue whats instore.

U think ur doin urself a favour time t clear it up get shit in place to keep them there 🙄🤔 while u ignore me and leave me out the loop the stronger i become. I never needed ur hwlp i asled cuz u told me to a workin relationship was better than not but u turnt the tables. Told ypur lies worked ur magic and nearly broke me frm the inside. A low place a low blow just goes t show ill rise up ill pass the test and each of u can go fuk off that ledge.

I thought id made it threw the worse universe had other plans positive thinking positive goals positive endings are in my control

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Beautiful too look at and even more spectacular to smell 😍😍😍

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Mummys little angel.

So little and so perfect, So fragile yet so strong. Your time on earth was oh so short, But a million memories will live on. 15 months we watched you grow. Watched you struggle but always make it threw. after everything that you overcame this position stopped being a reality and we were gunna bring you home.

My little man, A Legend. A rock star threw and threw, if only God could have understood how much I needed you. i feel so selfish for missing you the way i do, silly i guess oh course i do but you suffered for so long it was never fair and never seemed to turn in your favour. But still you smiled that amazing smile and fought with every ounce. You made it threw the impossible and tried so hard every day, and for every second minute and hour spent with you were so so grateful in every way. 

So man hearts were touched by your presence, Hundreds of prayers along the way. Encouragement at every turn. Always determined to have it your way right until the end. 

So many people love you, Faces you know and so many you never got to see. The hole thats being left here is so much bigger than just you and me. Your brothers, sisters, family and friends. God parents and soon to be childhood friends. Every post they followed a million messages to see how you were doing. a trillion prayers every day to help and guide you threw.

God took the strongest solider, to run in the heavens above. Arms wide to welcome you to shine among the stars and guide us from up above. Our little man we are so so proud of you. what id give to hold your hand, laughing to moana so now at peace and free from pain, you sleep easy with the best. I love you darling baby boy now and forever.