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At this point I'm not spiraling the drain, I'm a tub full of mud , draining alternately with sinkholes and bursts that get shit in your eye. Maybe from the outside I look like I'm not going anywhere. You see me and say, "That's a lot of mud."

But in the right conditions I can be dirt. Maybe if I'm alone long enough, I'll be the water, evaporating. No matter what, ideally, gone

if they wld just schedule my therapy at 1:35AM like I asked maybe I could stop lying to my therapist so much, hmm?

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if they wld just schedule my therapy at 1:35AM like I asked maybe I could stop lying to my therapist so much, hmm?

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hello I'm spiraling so just a fun reminder that "mental health issues" aren't just the socially palatable versions of anxiety and depression you see in the media (although those are valid and challenging issues). Sometimes regular normal people have "scary" mental illnesses, or just random symptoms w/o any diagnosis.

Sometimes for example you, a normal person who seems fine, might be ualnable to close your eyes without seeing nightmarish corpse faces screaming 2 inches from your face and the sleep deprivation resulting from that might lead to menacing auditory hallucinations and maybe you'll feel sudden uncontrollable rage for no reason and it will be so scary because you can't make it stop and you feel inhuman and incapable of becoming human and like your skin isn't right but you can't explain it to anyone because then you'll be the wrong kind of mentally ill even though you are a normal person who seems fine until they are not fine.

I know this isn't the place for this and I'm sorry but I'm at the end of my rope and have this driving urge to delete everything from the internet and cease existing and hopefully I'll delete this tomorrow and it'll still have been cathartic

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you know how sometimes you've been reading too much fanfiction and you're getting desperate and you seriously wonder "have I read every good thing?"??? but then you find another good thing and your gut untwists and you remember what it's like to feel joy

anyway shout out to reachingforthestardust on Ao3 thank fuck

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Never not true

my current favorite mha fanfic is definitely the manga, honestly it hits all my fave tropes

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me before I catch up on the manga: wow literally how dare anyone on social media post about something that happened six chapters ago I am the victim of a crime

me after catching up on the manga: *vomiting spoilers*

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good GOD I desperately want to write a follow-up fic to my delicious vigilante Izuku chat fic but I simply cannot decide sequel or prequel or rewrite from Izu's perspective

Or I could just start over and write a brand new vigilante izu chatfic????

Time to write two million pages of outlines and zero actual fics! ∑d(°∀°d)

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ok so I genuinely adore technologically illiterate Todoroki, but what if HEAR ME OUT what if he spent literally every free moment on the internet

Endeavor spends a lot of time out of the house burning down hospitals or w/e and Shoto's just at home being ostracized by his siblings. What's he supposed to do, study? Sounds like the perfect excuse to go down a wikipedia hole

This boy knows every meme from the last 15 years but has never had a single casual conversation in his life. He spends hours researching everything he buys online and leaves thorough product reviews. This child is a regular contributor on r/conspiracy and r/NoStupidQuestions. This lil kiddo writes "Endeavor dies a gruesome death" fanfiction (it's not great). Sometimes he just spends hours on Google Earth, pretending he's somewhere else

He's still socially inept because he has no actual individual human friends, even online, but knows an exceptional amount about the triangle shirtwaist factory fire

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okayy but like honestly it makes me so happy to see fanfic writers having fun?? when writing??? as a writer myself, i get so much joy out of writing something that i genuinely think is a good idea or want to see fleshed out. i dont get a lot of notes or hits on ao3, so it does make me kind of sad that people aren't having as much fun as i am, but hey, im enjoying myself so maybe it was worth it? (your formatting was really well done btw!! i enjoyed reading it!!!)

YES writing is so much fun!!! (Sometimes.) I quit writing for years because it started to feel like a chore and I thought I would never be good enough. Fanfiction got me back into it simply because I had too many ideas and no one had written them yet. And now I'm starting to figure out how to balance how much energy I want to put in to my writing with what I want to get out of it. Getting reader feedback is amazing and I live for it, of course, but with this fic I honestly didn't expect much--it was just that much fun to write.

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Here's an epistolary fic that no one asked for! A continuation of my "Izuku got OFA but that was the last time anything went his way" series.

I spent way too much time on formatting, but hey, it was literally the most fun I've had in months, and it got me writing again. I'm a fan of epistolary and social media fics (and books) in general, but of course I have to shout out the incomparable Q.A.B., by jihnari, which I re-read for the 3rd or 4th time while working on this.

This is maybe not the most exciting update, but it genuinely was a lot of fun and really helped my momentum, which is always a good thing. And I had fun showing the media/public reaction to All Might just...going dark. I'm not sure how realistic it is for his agency to be so evasive, but I'm imagining that they genuinely don't know what's going on. I'm sure there are some people at his agency who know his name, and of course there's Tsukauchi, but communication is slow and decision-making is slower.

And Nighteye...does it merit a "Sasaki Mirai | Sir Nighteye Being An Asshole" tag if it's just his agency's autoreply?

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I am SO bogged down in writing this story right now, I hate the way my brain is treating it. I just get so muddled up trying to remember details and decide whether to include this part or just get straight to the action and trying to be sure I'm keeping everyone in character and ARGHHH but at least I'm working on it.

It's so hard to find the balance between making writing feel like homework and keeping myself motivated

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Help I need to go to sleep bc I need to be out the door for work exactly 8 hrs from now but I got caught up making a spreadsheet of my favorite fics with a multi-factor rating and tagging system and it's so fun

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soooooooooo I've been working on my latest chapter of When Believing is Hard and somehow the outline for this chapter is now big enough to be like two or three chapters???

I totally wanted to speed up the action a little bit, but then I decided it really would be best to squeeze in this one other little moment I'd thought of a while ago, because it will absolutely pay off when the conclusion of the fic finally rolls around, but now I have a million page outline.

I have been trying to be better about planning ahead in my writing, but this is frustrating. I just want to post the chapter!!! But I'm glad I reworked it. It will be better for it

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i have a folder full of outline screenshots called "congrats you're clever." some highlights:

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was scrolling through old manga chapters and found my new favorite Izuku reaction

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The second installment in my "Izuku gets OFA but things go terribly wrong right away" AU! (aka I Have Nothing)

The entrance exam! We've got some more answers about how this will play out for Izuku, and they ain't good. Poor kid.

I initially started writing the physical exam scene as a linear narrative, but I kind of wanted to try jumping in mid-action (or tbh post-action in this case). I liked it so much, I scrapped the original narrative and ran from there. It meant I ended up with some time jumps, but hopefully they aren't too confusing.

I mentioned this on AO3 as well, but this installment is still in the "pre-plot" section of my AU outline. The seed for this AU was the idea of who Izuku will become AFTER this fic. I wasn't sure whether I'd write the night of the building collapse or the entrance exam at all—but I had so much fun fleshing out the details, I just had to! And I think reading the rest of the AU will be a smoother experience if you have all the facts going in.

Anyway, all that is to say that there's a vibe switch on the horizon. Thanks for reading!