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lol so i got 43 followers here.. i wonder why i didnt start posting my other contents in this acct 

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Beidou: Yo! Whats wrong Benny bear? You keep glancing my way.

Bennett: For the last time! Its Bennett! And I'm curious on whats in your gourd. You drink it all the time. Heck, you drink it WHILE fighting. It MUST be good.

Beidou: Awe so lil Benny interested in my choice of drink eh? A little young...buuuuut. say. Everyones out hunting at the moment, how about a quick swig.

Bennett: W-what?? But I'm too young! A-and!

Beidou: Its fine, the only folks to judge you right now is me and the gods themselves. So. Going once!

Bennett: Oh! I can't! My dads would be so disappointed!

Beidou: going twi~ice.

Bennett: OK! OK! Hand it over quick before my resolves goes away!

Beidou passes the gourd to Bennett, the boy taking a quick chug.

Bennett: Its...ITS...orange juice?

Beidou: BAHAHA. Oh the look on your face. Priceless. Whenever I'm on land or the sea is calm all I drink is orange juice, I just say its sake to keep up my reputation.

Bennett: B-but why?

Beidou: Got to prevent scurvy somehow. But my oh my little Benny, you're a bad little child, I can't wait to tell the gang how much of a rebel you are!

Bennett: Awe MAN!

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alexander the great: if i were not alexander the great i would wish to be diogenes

diogenes: if i were not diogenes i would also wish to be diogenes

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“Diogenes was knee deep in a stream washing vegetables. Coming up to him, Plato said, “My good Diogenes, if you knew how to pay court to kings, you wouldn’t have to wash vegetables.” “And,” replied Diogenes, “If you knew how to wash vegetables, you wouldn’t have to pay court to kings.””

— Diogenes Laërtius,  Lives and Opinions of Eminent Philosophers

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The philosopher Diogenes was eating bread and lentils for supper. He was seen by the philosopher Aristippus, who lived comfortably by flattering the king.

Said Aristippus: “If you would learn to be subservient to the king you would not have to live on lentils.“

Said Diogenes: “Learn to live on lentils and you will not have to be subservient to the king.”

– Anthony de Mello

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It was almost 9 when we finished most of the preparations for the upcoming event. We bid our goodbyes to each other, but it was as if I was the only one saying goodbye. As we exited the gymnasium, they went to their group of friends, their partners, their companions - all except me.

I went on my way all alone.

At first, I didn't mind. But as I start to approach the dark, eerie area where there were no street lights, I began to overanalyze the situation. I got scared of whatever might happen to me. I felt so bad for myself. I thought about getting killed without being able to fight. I thought about getting raped merely because of the vulnerability caused by this unwanted isolation.

The way was very dark. the more I continue to walk, the lesser I get afraid, and the bigger my sadness became. just like this lonely road, I think I will forever be alone. with no friends willing to accompany me.

I wish I had friends, at that time. oh, I actually do: the moon that shone so bright sometimes in an attempt to lighten up the dark road I'm always forced to take; the stars that twinkle in the night sky that helps me remember that being alone is not so bad.

yes, meet my friends.

but, of course, they will never be enough. they're not even real. during that very walk, I yearned for real friendship. I want someone to accompany me as I walk through that gloomy street. I want someone to walk me home because it wasn't safe being alone. I want someone to show that they care.

maybe if I show people a bit more caring emotion, they'll do the same. just maybe.

when will I ever experience that? the feeling of belongingness. the feeling when someone really wants to be with you. the feeling that someone would miss your presence. the feeling that someone would willingly welcome you to their life. that feeling when someone really invests their time in you not because they're obligated to do so due to some favors, but because they really want to.

will I ever experience that?

when?

never?

I hope I'd know the answer soon. I can't make myself hope for something that will never come true.

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© chimtae | ◇

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i really miss devoting so much of my time on here sometimes… making friends, graphics, gifs, spamming. the whole community on here used to be so fun and having streaming parties used to be things i enjoyed the most.

i really miss it and just logging back in after a long long long time made me feel that rush of nostalgia. 

i hope my old friends are doing well – i don’t read or write fanfics no more and i haven’t made a bts graphic in so long. i still stan ot7 with my entire life though! and hope you all get tickets to their world tour :’) i’m going to the one in santa clara if any old friends will be in the area.

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MAP OF THE SOUL : 7 — ‘Outro : Ego’

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leafs

things that are Very Good about the leafs;

some make nice, warm teas

some are cronchy to step on

good blankets for worms and beetle-bugs

symbols of life and then decay

very pretty when pressed

fall decor

some can be nibbled and are delicious

knot them into crowns for your head

wear singular leafs as funny hats

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Shirley Jackson, The haunting of hill house

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this is literally older/younger sibling behaviour when you pretend you’re annoyed because your younger sibling keeps asking wyd but then you happily show them 😭💘💘

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Let’s do this #EthicalMemes

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Let’s do this #EthicalMemes