hueslostinblues

[hueslostinblues]

Ages ago, I wrote out of spite

Pit-filled with rage, hands drenched

Screamed and i roared,

As i clenched my sins.

The rain poured, and it flowed

Drenching the pages, smudging the ink.

Words were on the pyre, the sword in the seath

As the ink bleeds black, on burning sheet.

The flame slowly died, the ashes dispersed

With the anger and the sorrows

and the wallows i preserved

Since they left, I remain but a hollow

The flames long gone,

A trail now lost.

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I thought i was creating a home, instead I built myself a cage.

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Self esteem so low, that when someone compliments me or my body, I feel like they are mocking me. (I am cooked)

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Is life even worth living, if you can't have tea?

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— fatima aamer bilal, from being unwanted is a language

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The fear of not giving back enough, of only taking and not returning anything of value.

The fear of being-

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Do not ask me about my wars,

Do not ask me about my scars.

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Ye kaisi diwali?

Jab sab hai khali khali?

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I sleep everyday to dream of people i left one day.

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Egyptians called cats 'mau'.

So demure, oh so very mindful.

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I scammed the scammers.

For tips and tricks contact me personally.

And i just got scammed.

(diwali ki mithai mil gayi)

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I bleed needlessly.

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And i just got scammed.

(diwali ki mithai mil gayi)

[hueslostinblues]

Saying "You're beautiful" is an understatement. You look divine. A Goddess for sure ✨️

Ah only if you knew what a lovecraft monster i am.

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I want a cat, i am sorry i meant cats.

I want a bunch of cats.

I want a murderous, villainous, scheming car.

I want an elderly sleepy feline.

I want 4 of those tiny balls of pure rage.

I want one loving little kitten and its 'out to kill' twin.

I need them all in my life.

I also want a danger noodle.🎀