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think he knows i post about him on here. gonna die of shame

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Why do I miss you so much? Our relationship had so much bad. It had so much good too. So much passion. We were both the one that got away. Why didn’t you just get help sooner? Six years of begging you to get help. Why wasn’t I enough for you to get help? You fixed everything supposedly now. Why wasn’t I enough to do it with me? I can’t miss you. This hurts so bad. I miss you. I wish you could come back and we both get to restart. I’d fall in love with you millions of times over. I’m still in love with you. I can’t tell anybody. I can’t talk about it. You abused me. You broke my heart over and over. And I still want you. I still miss you. My body feels like it’s missing layers. I miss you. It’ll never get easier. You were supposed to be my forever.

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fear me, because you will never know peace like my embrace

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Open file ⟿ Life

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I love when nobody is there for me, I love when people leave when I need help, I love taking care of everyone and then having nobody care for me, I love barely making it through, I love rocking and shaking and desperately scrambling for distraction, I love how the loneliness makes the pit just grow deeper, I love feeling like the only person on earth, I love feeling like even God has abandoned me, I love feeling like a broken little discarded toy, I love being worth nothing to people who mean everything to me, I love how the only consistent thing is pain

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I accept your absence, my love, but my soul cannot fathom a world without you. That is my confession.

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I used to think a little naivety was good

But now I know all it does it cause pain

Why am I naive enough to think someone would love me the way I am?

Why am I naive enough to think that good comes to people who work hard?

Why am I naive enough to believe that I deserve a single good thing to happen to me?

Why am I naive enough to think that this is all worth the pain?

I'm tired of feeling embarrassed. Shameful. Of loathing myself inside and out. I'm tired of wishing I was different. I'm tired of wishing I was better.

Really starting to feel like I should just give up. Idk.

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And suddenly, I didn‘t care if somebody left or isn‘t in my life anymore..

Which is weeird..

Because the old me would‘ve done anything for somebody to stay.

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All I need you to do is stay.

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I miss him

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all i have to say is that the hardest thing i’ve ever had to face was that i exist after spending my whole life trying to be nonexistent.

lone-pine-poetry

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reblog this if you want a LONG (or short) anonymous message saying what they think of you.

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“I don’t want to be a sweetheart. I want to be the fucking love of your life.”

— Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie

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— Warsan Shire

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Stephanie Foo, What My Bones Know: A Memoir of Healing from Complex Trauma

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— Jenny Slate, Little Weirds