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aight y’know what FINE. I’m gonna make the damn post.

since roe got overturned y’all motherfuckers have done nothing but screech about “WELL WHAT IF YOU WERE RAPED WHAT THEN” & other equally shitty scenarios.

I was raped, and I got an abortion. I am part of that 1% of cases y’all love to use to prop up your bullshit arguments.

I did it without anesthesia. I drove myself home. I was numb for probably another two years after. when it finally did hit me, I was the most suicidal I had ever been and I stayed that way until probably last year. all total it’s been eight years since it happened.

the clinic I went to didn’t offer me help. they didn’t give me options. they didn’t have a post-op checkup. no one gave a shit. no one stopped my trafficker, no one found out, even my closest family didn’t even know until I finally escaped. it was just me, alone, throwing up in a trash can and sitting in post op until the dizziness went away enough for me to drive.

the fact that it was so easy for me to get an abortion by myself (even in a red state, no questions asked) made it easier for my trafficker to slide under the radar. because no one asked questions about why I wanted to end my pregnancy, he got away with what he had done. because no one cared enough to step in and stop me, he went on to abuse me for almost another two years. if someone had just given a shit, maybe I would have escaped that much earlier. maybe he would have faced more severe consequences. maybe I wouldn’t be so fucked up.

don’t you fuckers ever pretend you give a shit about people like me. if you did, you would have been supporting crisis centers, pro-life pregnancy centers, and places that actually care about the situations that women are in when they deal with unexpected or traumatic pregnancies. you would be encouraging pregnant women and telling them that they ARE strong enough, they ARE brave enough, that they are loved and they will be okay and supported and that having a kid will not kill their career or end their school life. you would be telling them that a disabled child, an adopted child, an unexpected child is not unworthy of life itself just because that life will be difficult.

on that note, fuck you, life will ALWAYS be difficult. but you can make it an enjoyable fight, or a miserable truce. you can spit the blood out of your mouth and stick a roll of dimes in your hand and hit back harder or you can lay down and let shit curbstomp you and swallow your own broken teeth. the difference is in how you step outside of yourself and into the lives of the people around you. the difference is in how you love, and if you actually love people, you will never advocate for their death.

stop using situations like mine to excuse your own cognitive dissonance. I’m sick of y’all’s shit.

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People when they learn you follow your church’s doctrine

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We have to criticize the nihilistic chaos brought about by liberalism with the teachings of the Catholic Church that possess the fullness of truth because other non-Christian philosophies though conservative, will only lead us to different flavors of heresies.

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Its sad to see many Catholics pontificate on issues that are morally non-negotiable and has been clarified time and time again by the Popes, bishops, encyclicals and theologians. A simple google search will flesh out the dogmas of the Church, as clear as day. The worse thing is, some still purport to be Catholics while essentially rejecting fundamental doctrines of the Church. At that point, these "catholics" might as well just join other churches/denominations that support the error. The Catholic Faith is bound to separate true believers and false heretics who only follow the latest trends. This is NOT debatable; never was, never will be.

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This sculpture is called Miscarriage 

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For you were heretofore darkness, but now light in the Lord. Walk then as children of the light.

For the fruit of the light is in all goodness, and justice, and truth; Proving what is well pleasing to God:

And have no fellowship with the unfruitful works of darkness, but rather reprove them. For the things that are done by them in secret, it is a shame even to speak of.

Ephesians 5: 8-12

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I think that’s the most romantic thing about a relationship with Jesus, He chooses us everyday. Even in our seasons of spiritual dryness, even when we feel most distant, He draws nearer. He waits for us every moment of every day & He never stops choosing to love our undeserving, unworthy selves.

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Put not your trust in princes: In the children of men, in whom there is no salvation. 

His spirit shall go forth, and he shall return into his earth: in that day all their thoughts shall perish. 

Blessed is he who hath the God of Jacob for his helper, whose hope is in the Lord his God:

Psalms 145: 2-5 Douay Rheims Bible

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this wonderful world of purchase power

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Rebuke me not, O Lord, in thy indignation; nor chastise me in thy wrath.

For thy arrows are fastened in me: and thy hand hath been strong upon me.

There is no health in my flesh, because of thy wrath: there is no peace for my bones, because of my sins.

For my iniquities are gone over my head: and as a heavy burden are become heavy upon me.

My sores are putrified and corrupted, because of my foolishness.

I am become miserable, and am bowed down even to the end: I walked sorrowful all the day long.

For my loins are filled with illusions; and there is no health in my flesh.

I am afflicted and humbled exceedingly: I roared with the groaning of my heart.

Lord, all my desire is before thee, and my groaning is not hidden from thee.

My heart is troubled, my strength hath left me, and the light of my eyes itself is not with me.

My friends and my neighbours have drawn near, and stood against me. And they that were near me stood afar off:

And they that sought my soul used violence. And they that sought evils to me spoke vain things, and studied deceits all the day long.

But I, as a deaf man, heard not: and as a dumb man not opening his mouth.

And I became as a man that heareth not: and that hath no reproofs in his mouth.

For in thee, O Lord, have I hoped: thou wilt hear me, O Lord my God.

For I said: Lest at any time my enemies rejoice over me: and whilst my feet are moved, they speak great things against me.

For I am ready for scourges: and my sorrow is continually before me.

For I will declare my iniquity: and I will think for my sin.

But my enemies live, and are stronger that I: and they hate me wrongfully are multiplied.

They that render evil for good, have detracted me, because I followed goodness.

Forsake me not, O Lord my God: do not thou depart from me.

Attend unto my help, O Lord, the God of my salvation.

- Psalms 37:2-23 DRC1752

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As the modern world gets worse, you find yourself grasping at things of the old world

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I love being Catholic

I don't don't ever want to be anything other than a devoted Catholic

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I make like 1 friend every 6 years

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anyone who says “the bible is clear” about an issue, is 100% of the time wrong. the bible wasnt clear once. the bible couldnt be clear about how to make a table if it came in an ikea box