hottataru

[hottataru]

DONT STOP TRY TO MAKE YOUR MARK AND MAKE YOuR MIIIIIND UP-

DONT STOP TRY TO WORK IT OUT AND MAKE IT

RAAAAAAANDYYYY

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@hottataru for my wonderful GF

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warriorsoftwiggenstein​:

“Oh! Such a thing exists? How considerate of him. I’m sorry to hear of your discomfort with the colder months, I can understand the feeling of ruing something others enjoy.” He was a very warm person, it didn’t surprise her at all that he would find it difficult to deal with the cold.

“Truth be told, I was a bit overwhelmed by the heat of Eorzea, it took me quite a while to get used to it. It felt like I was back in Thavnair, sweating nearly every second of the day. I wonder if such a ring, but in reverse, would help me. Hmm…something to look into.” 

“Oh, that’s an amazing idea if you have trouble with the heat. I think Ven got this ring commissioned in Ul’dah if you wanna look into it- though, that would be walking into the frying pan just to solve your fire.” Hottataru laughs, rubbing his scaly beard and thinking, “Probably something like a modified ice crystal of some sort. I might have the things laying around to send it in and get it for real cheap if you want me to do that for you? That way you don’t have to end up setting foot in the desert.” 

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Hottataru is frantically trying to remember how to grovel to Ven before he arrives, because good gods he's going to have to suck up for this one big time.

He doesn't think he's talented enough to re-tile floors.

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Ophiuchus says nothing, handing Hottataru a polished gemstone. “Try to break this. You may use any method you wish.” He sounded suspiciously as though he were going to be taking notes about this endeavour.

"You know, this is possibly one of the stranger things I've been asked to do. Nothing tops when Haurchefant asked me to use him like a seat as I practiced my lettering, but..."

Hottataru picks up the gemstone, holding it in the air for a moment as he inspects it. Then, cautiously, he taps it against one of his teeth. It's a hard stone! Good quality, no flaws either.

"Why would you want to break this... It's so nice. Well, whatever. Just don't cry when I really do break it." Clearly Ophiuchus didn't think Hottataru was really capable, which meant he had to go above and beyond.

So, gathering up his draconic aether, Hottataru lets it flow down into his arm. Scales flow down the length of his limb in a wave, wrapping around his hand and plating his fingers. At first, with how he squeezes the gem, it seems like he's going to try to crush it in his hand-

But no. He chucks it at the ground full strength like a child trying to break a wild apple they found laying in the grass-

And, well, granted... the gemstone shatters into a hundred pieces-

So does the floor tile.

Hottataru stands there, looking incredibly proud of himself for a moment before he pales-

"Ven is going to kill me."

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....Hottataru still eats the cookies.

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Hottataru, who is just peacefully resting on the free company's residential heated rock, sneezes. He doesn't know why, his nose hadn't tickled until that point. Maybe it's the weather?

He sits there for another few seconds before sitting up abruptly and running inside- he fucking left cookies in the oven.

They're incredibly burned. There's also a doll in there that wasn't there before? It's also very burned.

Nearby, the nutkin statue stares at him with cold, soulless eyes.

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[[Two sfw screenshots from a very lewd set i posted on twitter]]

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He solemnly places an artifact in front of Hottataru, looking as though for all the world it was bad news. “Unfortunately your cursed statue turned to ash. My wife decided that we were to gift you this in its stead.” It looked utterly unremarkable; a simple statue of a nutkin eating an acorn. Or so it would seem.

"What are you talking about? I don't have any cursed statues, let alone ones I gave you- you rejected my kind offering last time I put it in front of you." Hottataru clicks his tongue, staring at the nutkin with a very, very critical eye.

He picks it up, bringing it to his nose and sniffing it. There's a curious noise that bubbles out of Hots' throat, and then he...

He bites it. Hard. His teeth sink into the wood of the nutkin's tail, and Hottataru puts it down.

"....Does it have a neat history to it?" It seems it's passed some sort of test with him gnawing on it like a large fucking dog.

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(muffled yelling into hands) i love my awful man

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he’s just a very tibbies out kinda guy yaknow

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hhrrrgghgf 

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Voice claim video uwu

Hots’ voice claim is Varric from DA:2/I

The music isn’t my choice but it was the only video i could source for the sound bites

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[[He finally exists in game for real. The super fucker himself, Varon.]]

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❝  sometimes,  i just need the world to be beautiful.  i know how dark and ugly it can be but i just want to see something good and focus only on it for a few minutes.  ❞

Varon glances from the corner of his eye down at Griever, the night sky stretching out before him. He hums, tilting his head thoughtfully towards him and letting those words rest in the silence of the night.

A trip to get a relic had ended up taking a bit of a darker turn as the previous owners of the object had misused it, and all they found in the wake of the thing was corpses. It makes sense for someone not as... passionate to feel maybe a touch upset by it all.

Even a jaded adventurer was likely to feel unsettled by the horrors they saw of twisted flesh and agonized, frozen expressions.

Reaching out to the fire pit before him, Varon picks the pot of water from it and pours it into a cup he'd brought with him. He spends a few moments, merely taking the slow time to prepare of perfectly steeped cup of tea with honey in it.

"The world can be rather ugly- in fact, I would think that it's ugly most of the time. However, the night is clear. The air is warm, the plants in bloom with the spring season. Look to the area before us, or look to me, and you will find beauty here. Merely turning your gaze to the stars may be enough to ease your woes..."

He smirks a bit.

"Or, perhaps you're the sort of man who cannot find comfort in the ephemeral- only taking comfort in what you can touch. In that case, you're welcome to sit closer by my side. I'm not wont to turn away such small affections."

Though admittedly, that's only because it strokes his already very swollen ego.

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IT’S  ALL  ABOUT  THE  YEARNING 

❝  you need someone.  let me be that person.  let me be what you need.  ❞

❝  look,  i dunno if i’m the kind of person you need or even want right now.  but i’m looking around and i’m the only one who’s here.  ❞

❝  i never realized how much i needed you until you were the one person who wasn’t there.  ❞

❝  you asked me once,  if i would ever take a chance on us…maybe that ship sailed.  but.  ask me again?  sometime— doesn’t have to be today.  maybe tomorrow just.  ask me again.  ❞

❝  i know i can’t protect you from everything,  but i wish you’d let me protect you from the things i can control.  ❞

❝  i used to have so much faith.  maybe not in deities or something but,  in the world.  the universe.  i believed their was a purpose to it all.  i’m not sure when i lost that.  ❞

❝  have you ever had something…missing?  like something just doesn’t feel right inside you but you don’t know what it is.  ❞

❝  sometimes,  i just need the world to be beautiful.  i know how dark and ugly it can be but i just want to see something good and focus only on it for a few minutes.  ❞

❝  i was sort’ve hoping you needed me.  is that selfish?  ❞

❝  people need someone to see them for what they are and not just see it but accept it.  i want to be that person for anyone i can…but it can be so suffocating to be that person and also remain unseen.  ❞

❝  sometimes i feel i’m being crushed under the weight of everything i’ll never be.  ❞

❝  you’re looking at me but you’re not seeing me.  do you know how that feels?  just see me.  please.  ❞

❝  i want to deserve you.  i’m trying to deserve you.  ❞

❝  i know i fucked up.  i know i did but don’t shut me out anymore.  let me in.  please let in.  ❞

❝  every time you smile at me,  i memorize it.  i remember each moment that i get to be the one to bring out that light inside you.  no matter what happens between us,  that’s what i’ll remember.   ❞

❝  i can’t help but think there’s got to be something out there for me,  somewhere.  just some place where i actually feel like i belong.  ❞ 

❝  the world is so big.  why do i never feel like i fit into it?  ❞

❝  when i’m with you i feel like myself.  i feel like every side of me is present and accepted.  and i feel good about it—  i feel good about who i am when i’m with you.  ❞

❝  do you like me?  i know you love me.  i know you care about me but.  do you like who i am?  ❞

❝  i want to look in the mirror one day and not feel uncomfortable with my own reflection.  ❞

❝  just take my hand and close your eyes.  pretend we’re anywhere else but here.  ❞

❝  so,  what would you be?  if you had to power to change all the things making you unhappy,  what would your life look like?  ❞

❝  do you even know what it does to me?  every time i see you cry,  any time you’re hurt even the smallest bit it just— do you realize how deeply you’ve imbedded yourself into my heart?  ❞

❝  i don’t feel like a whole person without you anymore.  i don’t fucking care if anyone else would say about that.  you’re part of who i am now.  the most important piece of me.  ❞

❝  every time you walk away you take another piece of me with you.  ❞

❝  i’m only really living in the moments when we’re together.  the rest is just existing until you look at me again.  ❞

❝  it feels like there’s a string around my heart and it’s connected to you.  everywhere you go you’re just tugging me behind,  pulling me towards you.  ❞

❝  you’ve got me in the palm of your hands.  you could crush me and i would still thank you for touching me at all.  ❞

❝  i no longer know where i end and you begin.  you’ve wound yourself around my soul so tightly,  you’re all i feel anymore.  ❞

❝  you’ve stolen my heart,  the least you could do is tell me what you intend to do with it.  ❞

❝  i don’t have perfect words.  i’m not the kind of person who knows how to sound poetic and shit.  so all i know what to tell you is that i belong to you.  i don’t know if you want me.  but i’m yours.  and at this point however it is you need me,  i’m here.  ❞

❝  you’re the only thing that matters anymore.  i can’t eat,  i can’t sleep—  all the goddamn cliches from every stupid movie and song.  you’re all i think about.  i’m useless except when i’m yours.  ❞

❝  i haven’t stopped thinking about the way you laugh.  i’m hoping i’ll get to hear it again.  ❞

❝  when your eyes are on me,  i feel like something worth seeing.  ❞

❝  just let me look at you for a little bit.  ❞

❝  i would do anything for you.  all my lines and rules.  they mean nothing when it comes to you.  it’d cross and break them all just to make you happy.  ❞

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Hottataru is perfectly aware Estinien is not a moogle, but if he can make someone doubt reality for even a second his life is complete.