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so hard to grow an online image. I don't want to "grow my online persona", "network with other people" and "rile up the engagement" man I just want to have people commission me is that too much to ask for

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Blessed Masking

Waking up in the middle of the day, I’ll brush the hair off from my carved face, Wiping off the stitches that fell away, I wonder what mask I’ll wear to enchant you today.

Which one of my masks would have your heart go Doki-Doki? What face should I put on that would make them Drop to their knees? A nice smile to hide the pain inside, Or a frown baring fangs to the outside?

You can call me brood of the Tamamo-no-Mae, If that would be enough to let me get by. I don’t feel the need to justify, My masks to someone as bland as thy!

A Living Mask that was once accursed, And always made me suffocate. Now wielded as a proper tool, Is enough to get me through the day.

Maybe I won’t remember what face I wore The night I met you. Maybe there will still come a day Your words will get through.

But until that day comes I’ll continue Putting on a play. Your doubts, like the blood from my sutures I will wipe away.

Call it wicked or manipulative personality, I’ve carved love into to my face, Just so you would fall for me. Spouse of Yog-Sothoth, Perverse Goddess of Fertility. Whatever name you want to curse me with, you’re already in love with me.

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Ten Years of Tarot

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Okay, maybe I lost count or added a year or two, but right now I feel I can safely say Tarot has been a part of nearly half my life.

If not for when I first read for someone, then the first time I was read to.

If not for the first deck I bought for myself, then for my late Grandfather's Lenormand deck my Mom gifted to me when I first showed interest.

Or the beautiful Steampunk Tarot deck (pictured above!!) that she bought for me, but assured me I shouldn't see it as her buying it but my own intent being manifested to gift it to me.

I still use that very same deck to this day.

I've read for a lot of people over the years, interestingly much more than I've read for myself. I never quite got to open up shop in a medieval fair or become the personal tarot reader of the local noble, but the experiences have been irreplaceable.

The stares of disbelief when reading to a classmate who didn't initially believe in tarot readings.

The expression someone gives you when the reading tells them something they've been desperately wanting to hear.

The expression someone gives you when the reading tells them something they already knew deep inside.

And my personal favorite:

When someone messages you months after you gave them a reading to say everything you told them had come to fruition.

It's been a long journey, and I hope I'll still be around to recount it the next ten years from now.

If you want to help out in me sticking around, you could commission me for a reading at my

Ko-fi page!

Any kind of support goes a long way. Maybe I'll never be the Princess' personal Tarot Reader with my own wing in the Royal Palace, but if I'm ever able to pay the bills and live-off from my own readings, I'll take that too.

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What's your favourite thing to draw?

Yes.

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heres a demon

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the theories/headcanons about gaster and chara chilling in the void together and occasionally driving people to madness are SO funny to me because i can only imagine

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