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I want to touch you. But not your skin. I want to see your eyes. I want you to look at me as if you’re trying hard to figure out something. I want to see you smile, the kind of smile that you never show to anyone. The kind of smile that reveals who you really are. I want you. The good and the bad. The confuse and sad. The jolly and silly. I want each and every single part of you —from your body to your soul— from your mind to your heart. I want to hold you and break everything that hurts you. Let me see you. Let me pass through that high wall of yours. Please let me, just let me see you. I just want to know that you’re truly happy.

ma.c.a // Let me feel you (via vomitingwords)

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“She felt lonely. Like nobody cared. She cried and cried. Nobody was there. She kept on sobbing, until her eyes were red. Just wanting to be able to go to bed. She overthought and cried herself to sleep. All night long, all she did was weep.”

-A small poem. ~Me (via xameliax66)

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THE FIRST SIN: The first sin you commit is when you meet his eyes for the first time and your heart falls to your stomach. Your hands and lips fall loose, blood rushes to your cheeks. The devil stares back at you in all of his glory and you are parched for a taste of his religion. THE SECOND SIN: The second sin you commit is when you talk about him with all of your friends. You’re going to try and convince them that he’s good for you and they won’t agree, but you were never going to listen to them anyways. He’s sitting inside your head with his fingers plunged inside your brain. THE THIRD SIN: The third sin you commit is when you stand in front of the mirror and scold yourself for what you ate for dinner. You’re never going to fit into that dress that you brought specifically for him to like now, are you? THE FOURTH SIN: The fourth sin you commit is when you sacrifice your standards to meet his. You like the attention that he makes you beg for, because you have convinced yourself that nobody is going to want you like him. You are a victim of desperation and loneliness and he acts like he has never felt either of those things. THE FIFTH SIN: The fifth sin you commit is when you become an addict. All you ever think about is him. You’ll wonder if he thinks about you too, already knowing the answer. You’ll try to master the art of analyzing his behavior because he works like a cycle. The thought is going to bother you, but of course, you’re going to ignore it because your addiction will blind you. THE SIXTH SIN: The sixth sin you commit is when you say that you love him. You don’t. What you feel is not love. What you feel is toxic. What you feel will lead you to break, because love is not meant to bruise you more than it is meant to treat you with care. Sharp edges of his teeth are piercing apart your skin and you’re still begging for him to kiss you, don’t you get it? THE SEVENTH SIN: The seventh sin you commit is when you admit to yourself that you were never going to be enough for him anyways. You’ll belittle yourself by calling yourself naive and it’ll drive you insane. You’ll count your flaws and suffocate. He’s going to sit back and watch you drown. You’re still madly going to hope that he’ll save you. He won’t.

THE SEVEN DEADLY SINS THAT CAUSE A BLACK HEART (via aawordthings)

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I’m that person who falls apart but tries to keep everyone else together.

(via lomasdope)

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Me: I’m fine Also me: IS ALEX GOING TO BE OKAY? WHY DID JEFF HAD TO DIE? WHY DOES TYLER HAVE GUNS? WHAT WILL JUSTIN DO? WILL BRYCE GO TO JAIL? I THINK I’M LOSING MY MIND

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Piece of a puzzle

Have you ever felt lost in a crowd? Have you ever felt like you could vanish one day and no one would notice? Do you know how it feels to be alone in a room filled with familiar faces? I have. And I can describe the feeling by a hollow like sensation, like you're drowning and no one dives in the ocean of your sorrows to pull you out. I've felt the gaze of a friend, knowing I'm trying hard to survive, to satisfy everyone, to be the piece of the puzzle, to finally fit in. The funny thing is, I've always been a popular girl who people think has a lot of friends? But most of us have that thirst to fit in everywhere we go, we also have a fear that we'll never be good enough, never be liked or people can leave at any moment. Maybe it's just me but what I've learnt from that is- to never stop trying to be the piece of the puzzle, never back down and always come back stronger, learn from the mistakes of the past. You see, people will always judge you, always try to knock you down, always try to fill you with negative thoughts but it's up to you if you just pull the switch or try harder. Because who knows what the world might have in store for you, maybe a puzzle with a missing piece longing to be completed by its last piece- by YOU.  

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Am I the only one who's sad about Jlo and drake tho.... riri and drake were my OTP

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http://iglovequotes.net/

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Let's tessellate

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Full credit to mel-an-cho-ly

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there is something so real about holding hands, some kind of complex simplicity, saying so much by doing so little.

I love it.

http://iglovequotes.net/

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it’s funny how I relate to cigarettes with you. I remember how beautiful your body looked inside the room filled with smoke, how relaxed I felt when I smoked in your absence to fill the void. It’s funny how you always could look so calm with death clutched between your fingers. what’s funnier is how you left and they never did. 

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awkward

ever felt like your whole life is messed and you can never get a hold of it? ever felt like the word awkward defines your life? I’m not one those depressed kids who just wants to rant or push away people and find their escape, no. I don’t know what I want. when life is going smoothly but you just know something is missing what do you do? 

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I get that you’re scared and that you’ve been hurt. But doing what is easy and safe is no way to live, and a life without passion and love is so far beneath what you deserve.

Kiersten White, The Chaos of Stars

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