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Good morning

I miss you

ting age najud nis living together ngali diay

Im still sleepy

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bago ra tiwas record pres og bass kaon nako 2nd dinner hahahah star wars

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na “traffic”, wa pami ka record, nikaon nalng kog burger steak

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tambay ko e nihon mono, basin diri na parkingan sad mi record guitar

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Nag gihapoy sleepiness pero mas arangan nako mo function sa office, basin sda recording mi later

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ni uli ko ron para lunch. lami kaay beefsteak pinoy, nag pa cornsoup sad ko :))

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ga pugong ko maayo na dili mo chat or text ani :((((((

Oh my god naunsa ning gibati

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murag figurative and literal ang bugat sa dughan diay sa .

MEET NATA PLEASE

Please meet nata 😢

im so sorry basin lisud ni basahon

Murag mao mani pinaka mingaw nako nimo sukad sukad oy ,

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If mag meet ta , I’ll hug so tight in honest greed

kanang apil kalag ni hold

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If mag meet ta , ill hug you so tight in honest greed

Kanang hasta kalag ni hold

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Gatanaw gihapon ko sa teyo sleepover na story hahaha ako ge screen record lika stalker nya ending kay imo new black hair selfie(s)

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you had a good life (apart from the crying) without me these past two weeks diay

You needed that, this.

Long read imo recent letter,

Pero actually mas maka understand ko nimo kaysa atong sige tag meet.

Ma worry jud ko ato nig meet kung unsay maka trigger maka flip kalit sa imo mood then mada dayun ko sa imo mood then ma sayangan ko sa ato meet

Deym , murag years na ingana

Need sad jud diay tag rest atong setupa

Kini ron akoa dugay kaayo ni ma finalize suwat.

Chat pami langlang in the middle.

Obviously suya ko sa mga naka dinner na diha

But sinakitay hilak something ngali ta if last week or before ani na post ta mag meet

Of course gimingaw ko nimo.

But somehow kuyog pata aning letters blog setup.

basin pheromones or something ang kulang heeh but hopefully naka tabang jud ni na setupa.

Naka sad ni nako (other than sa mingaw og guilt), kay nag ka time nako think deeper sa akong other problems na need na hunahunaon

Work, family, kwarta , purpose mga ana

And of course i miss my ears.

My strict ears

Nya akong drive na lingaw lang mag edit, kanang dili about proving something.

Nag ka spark ko gamay ron ,

Nag headphones nako balik nya proper volumes nya ka read ko sa imo recent letter

Pero mao lagi hadlok nako musalig og kalit kalipay nya sa sunod minute or oras murag ganahan na matog forever

Basta karon relatively positive ako na feel.

If feel ko ni while it lasts

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Nakoy bago na listen na artist taga manila. LU ang name , ni play nis shtty pop pag aug 30 perp karon pako naminaw na as in judhahahah.

Ganahan ko sa iya melody

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I dont want to go home later

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dili relate jud as in nimo,

Pero gimingaw nako na colorful ang akong pananaw,

Naunsa naman ni oy

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Kapoy nako ma bogo

Kapoy nako maguol

Kapoy nako na permi katogon

Murag pwede nako dili mo mata for like 1 year

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there’s a chance that you’re not reading these entries anymore.

I don’t know how long this blog would stay alive

Last weekend and earlier today , for like minute i understood why someone would want to forget the person they love.

It’s about being at peace. So we could proceed to other things that makes us feel alive.

an initial want to hate exists to cancel out the love

but it doesnt help at all, makes me feel more dead from here.

i dont know much about your experience there though. Im sorry, as much as i take pride on being very observant, i still miss a lot of details, some of them very crucial, and when i notice them i tend to be late.

When i form songs. I almost usually have this want to make normal statements feel more than what they actually are.

i put music into my words because i want to hear my feelings

These feelings right now, I don’t want to hear them.

I feel like I didn’t feel the need to make love songs for you. I tried. They felt forced or unneeded

Songs make situations more than what they actually are

Situations and moments with you were real, they required no fabrication.

There were dry moments and there were warm ones. I tell you my love immediately when i feel our shared warmth

I didn’t need music to make you feel more than what i say in plain words.

I’m easy to read despite my blurriness and youre so good at reading people

You didn’t need me to sing to you so i could reach your mind.

And of course bati ko mo write. The grammar in this shit. Music couldn’t help me when it comes to people who notice the words first.