Feeling introspective tonight
Sometimes it takes a rejected gift from your father and an evening of brooming in a quiet snowfall...
The mistakes i have made in my life have stayed with me every day
I am grateful for the painfully constant reminder of the type of person i never want to be again
Forgiveness isnt something i believe is for me
i guess im ok with that
However
For what its worth
I choose to learn these lessons in life
Be granted a little bit of wisdom
To CHOOSE to be a forge of positivity and a shining light that offers safety, comfort, peace, and joy
I like being reminded of the footsteps in the night
Even a raging storm is calm....in its center
#introspection
#Peace is a choice
#Sending love to all of the people who continue to touch my soul wherever they are in their own journey these days...
Lyrics below:
You don't know, you don't know, know
Your eyes glow in the dark, they glow
You got friends all around, around
But it's just you and me, you and me are going down
Baby if you follow me home, I'll follow you forever
If you're not going out in the cold, I'll wait for better weather
If you're tired of walking alone, I'll walk with you and watch the sky
No matter where you are, no matter where you are, I wanna be
Your footsteps in the night
Your footsteps in the night
Your footsteps in the night
Baby if you follow me home, I'll follow you forever
If you're not going out in the cold, I'll wait for better weather
If you're tired of walking alone, I'll walk with you and watch the sky
No matter where you are, no matter where you are, I wanna be
Your footsteps in the night
Your footsteps in the night
Your footsteps in the night
Your footsteps in the night
Your footsteps in the night
You're so close, you're so close, ooh
Your footsteps in the night
Encore performance:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4pXPTUP-VZU&list=PLuKqEm8Ubu_0ZQbXbrpUPQTANs6pE_XpE&index=83
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i guess its time for bed
i wonder what tomorrow will bring
i am going to manifest something really wonderful to happen
an unexpected meeting that will cheer me up
ill see you soon then
thank you for listening
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Its Nov 10 2022
I spent last night at my parents
Cleaning out my old room and learning to let go of old things
I didnt realize how painful childhood can be
Toys, games
2 graduation caps. high school. college
i hated seeing them
an unpleasant reminder of failures and wasted years waiting for a life that i burned to the ground
Gifts from old friends
A note from someone i loved
Words cant do it justice - words are meaningless to express how i feel
I wish i could say how i really feel but i cant
Ive been listening to old music from high school and college shared with me by people that helped shaped me
It was so cold last night i was chilled to the bone...but i kind of liked it
I took a hot bath and remembered so many years ago now
Looking at my hands as i lay there i could actually feel the sand pouring from my hourglass of time
It has been so many years
What am i still doing here
It is a strange feeling to realize that you are completely forgotten
I still think of you every day
Its weird how we spend so many days and years making and breaking ourselves becoming many someone else’s yet in the same skin, grow old then die
I still feel a gaping hole in my heart
Im sorry for all the trouble ive caused
I can never be sorry enough
Like being cropped out of a family photograph
Clocks dont turn back
I guess this is good enough to say for now
Im writing this for me - but sometimes hope someone else would read it too
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Listen to this at the same time
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bgm4N4OnHsQ
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Another Leaf Fallen
And how quickly time passes and flies by
My feet still hurt from being lost in the city
I am still tired from sleeping all day
I am still worn out from fighting aliens
The warmth of a comrade is all i need to get me through
What is more powerful than friendship?
You have helped me face some of the hardest battles i have ever had to fight in my life
You knew a desperate man
Broken
Shattered Pieces
You were my witness and guide
Of the loss of something most precious and dear
My path was intertwined with someone very special
Maybe it was fated to take you on that journey with me
And be bonded to it as well...i suppose
You gave me comfort when life tore me apart
We went on so many adventures
Plenty of journeys in the spirit world anyway
“I have nothing left to teach you” he said
I remember that day very well
“He is my best friend” you said
And why shouldnt it be
Good company deserves to be Merry and Kind
The fireplace of the Hearth
...
.....
What adventures have you been on these days my friend?
What lost souls have found their way to you since then?
Guided by your soft lantern’s glow
In a deep forest
In a little hut someplace so deep and green
In a place I no longer know
I think of you often
I wish for you that
Silence was not louder than words
As this portal comes to another year passed and closed
Into a window of a path you no longer chose
A single leaf on water
Ripples echo and fade away
I wish you werent so stubborn as I
But maybe thats one reason why we got along
Before i go
Just know that this pain in my heart is an eternal reminder
Never to forget the type who can transform your entire life
Thank you from the bottom of my soul Ochiba
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To an old friend
Happy Bday
This past year has been...well..something
i dont know how you have changed or grown since...how many years has it been?
Sometimes i wonder if i ever made a positive lasting impression on you
If our journey together has become a faded memory lost to time
Or if i have left only the taste of bitterness - for the strain i had forced you to endure
If nothing else, i hope at least this one day a year might be a window into a former life
A few worn out pages
From a couple torn out chapters
If you ever wanna catch up
ill be honest
I wont count on it
But if there is anything else you think you could learn from a run down old fool
That our paths might cross again
You know where to find me - hit me up if it feels right
I hope youve made some killer memories this year
And that many more good things come your way
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The echoes
of a life I know longer have continue to haunt me
Why am i so thankful for these painful memories?
Why do i long for those dreams every night?
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Well fuck
Im still losing from saying protean hulk too many times.
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Have you ever wondered what it feels like to have no heart and no soul yet still live?
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