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𝗩𝗜𝗦𝗨𝗔𝗟 𝗙𝗢𝗢𝗗 𝗗𝗜𝗔𝗥𝗬 — 𝗦𝗘𝗣𝗧. 𝟭𝟴, 𝟮𝟰

Notes: I cooked my porridge in the microwave and it overflowed (that's why my bowl looks messy in the last pic 🙃). Today was a little higher in calories, but I felt a little weak and hungry, which I'm sure is due to the cardio I've been doing for the past two days. I'm well below my TDEE, and my limit is 1200 so it's okay.

𝗧𝗢𝗧𝗔𝗟 : 1162 kcal | 88.9g protein & 30.5g fiber

𝗦𝗧𝗘𝗣𝗦 : 8027

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𝗩𝗜𝗦𝗨𝗔𝗟 𝗙𝗢𝗢𝗗 𝗗𝗜𝗔𝗥𝗬 — 𝗦𝗘𝗣𝗧. 𝟭𝟵, 𝟮𝟰

𝗧𝗢𝗧𝗔𝗟: 1070 kcal | 85.1g protein & 26.9g fiber

𝗦𝗧𝗘𝗣𝗦: 7040

Notes: I haven't been very active today (or yesterday) because the more weight I lose, the less energy I have, and I need the few bits of energy I have to study, walk to and from university, and go to my mom's house on the weekends, so I need to slow down my weight loss. :(

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wieiad #3

192 c

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Tell me this plate looks anorexic?

It doesn’t right? It’s a lot, looks like a huge meal, but is only 160 calories. If you eat in volume nobody would notice that you are rexie. You just have to make better choices on your food <3

And I’m not saying I’m the best at it because I am far from it, I am just learning too, and will post some more ideas so you guys can get some ideas because I want us all to live our best skinny life <3

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WIEIAD

9/17

8:52pm. 160 calories- “pasta” with chicken and broccoli

10pm. 50 calories- Greek yogurt

Total of 210 calories

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This is the tea that my sister and mom take. They claim losing weight because this one makes you rush to the bathroom a lot. I MYSELF HAVEN’T TRY IT YET.

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4n4 Master Doc

This post is entirely devoted to tips, tricks, mental health, and other related topics to 4n0r3x!@. Do not continue reading if mention of c@l0r!3s, w3!ght gain/loss, st@rv!ng, f@st!ng, etc.

Everything will be after the cut.

Chapter 1- Symptoms

Dizziness: this is most likely caused by low iron. you can take an iron supplement to help you in the long run. these take a few months to begin working, so you won't immediately see an improvement. they don't help too much in general, if i'm being honest. this can also be caused by lack of electrolytes. the best way to absorb these is by gatorade or liquid iv. there are a number of calories in both of these, but i find that these do not affect my weight in any way. they are also low enough that your body will naturally burn it off anyways. one thing that a lot of rexxys often suffer from is extreme dizziness upon standing. everytime i would stand up, especially during a long fast, i would get so dizzy my vision would go black. a good way to help this is to slowly stand up, take as much time as you need to, even if it feels silly.

- Hair loss: hair loss is caused by a lack of nutrition in your body. when i was at my lowest weight, my hair got really thin and was falling out like crazy. i would have so much come out when i was showering, brushing my hair, or pulling it up. there isn't too much you can do to prevent this from happening. to not receive any sort of suspicion from this, pulling your hair into a bun, ponytail, or plaits is best. i found that people typically don't notice too much, but if they do you can play it off usually.

Sick/nausea: i'm not entirely sure what the cause of this is. i know that so so many people with eds suffer from almost chronic nausea. a lot of people have told me nicotine helps them with this. a lot of times after you eat anything, it's common to feel like this. a peppermint stick is very helpful in my opinion. they're little sticks with essential oils in them. you can buy them from amazon for 5-10 dollars and carry it around with you in a purse or pocket.

Brain Fog: there's truly nothing that works for this. it's the price to pay with being skinny. your brain doesn't have anything to run off of. if people begin to notice this, saying your sleep schedule has been off is super helpful. this symptom will most likely affect your grades, which is one factor to pay attention to. sleep is very important to help minimize this. getting enough sleep will do so much more than you may realize.

Fainting: at some point, you may faint. it's important to check for bruising, swelling, and other injuries after. if you feel this sensation coming up, try to sit down or lean against something to prevent as much pain as possible. often, carbs or protein bars/shakes can help reduce this too. obviously, this idea is not ideal. i see it as a small price to pay to protect this secret.

Fasting & Starving- Tips/Tricks

I usually begin my fasts around 6 or 7 pm. I have my OMAD (one meal a day) at this time. This time works best for me because I leave my house before 7am for school, which makes skipping breakfast easy. then, at school i treat my lunch period as a study hall. the real challenge is when i get home and trying not to binge.

My favorite techniques for when i feel the urge to binge are mukbangs, thinspo, meanspo, writing, nicotine, gum, water loading, and distracting my mind. mukbangs help because they make me sick to my stomach when they're eating thousands of calories and being really messy, so it takes away my appetite. i have an entire pinterest board of thinspo to remind myself why this discomfort will be worth it to look like this girls. meanspo is usually best when given to you from another person. tumblr is a great space for that, if you create a post asking for meanspo then somebody will respond. or find an anabuddy and give each other meanspo/anything else needed. writing helps because i can gather my thoughts and find the reasoning behind starving myself again. nicotine helps because it distracts your mouth. gum does the same. water loading is basically chugging a whole bunch of water. this fills me up and usually leaves me feeling a little sick. coloring or drawing, especially ed related things, helps to put my mind's attention on something other than the sensation of starvation.

If somebody notices you're not eating enough, it truly depends on the person who's asking. before recovery, i would tell my mom i just forgot or i was simply feeling sick with a headache or flu. my friends i would just tell them i already ate/am eating later. same works for most other people. now if you are supposed to be recovered, it's easiest to break whatever fast you have going and eat a regular or semi-regular meal in front of your parents. this is so much easier than being forced to gain all of the weight back.

Suggestions?

I will be making a few more parts to this. if there is any information or questions you'd like answered on the next one, comment them.

I'm also going to start an 4n4 community group chat on snapchat. i understand that this goes against the protecting identities card, but discord takes down the servers. in order to keep the chat hidden, it will be names t-rexxies and the dinosaur emoji. that is more of an esoteric and discreet name in my opinion. again, dm me or comment any suggestions for this. if you would like to be added to this, please comment or dm me. all invitations/usernames will be sent via direct messages to protect this blog as much as possible.

thank you for all the love and support. you're doing so amazing. keep going, i know you can do it.

xoxo,

skinnyvanilla1atte

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kinda wanna leave. kinda wanna ghost everyone. kinda wanna rot under a blanket. kinda wanna feel loved. kinda wanna feel wanted. kinda wanna

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Do you plan on posting more daily plan ideas?? I followed the one you posting for eating 351 one day and I loved itttt

Yes I do, I am making more plans<3

Here is the recent one that I’ve been working on. Also take suggestions on what food you guys like <3

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date idea you shoot my brains out

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4t3 so much today but also i got some l4xatives so im doing great. itll be better tomorrow, i can restrict more while my fiancee is out and my sister is gone

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realising i cant restrict tomorrow like i wanted to (going out on a double date with fiancée, sister, and her partner) but its FINE cause my step count tomorrow will also be amazingly higher than usual (all that walking around omg!!!)

killing two birds with one stone (eating in front of people which will shake off suspicion, and going out for a long walk which burns off c410ri3s)

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to all the teenagers who think an 3d is a "lose w3ight fast" hack

to all the 13-14 year olds on here asking for tips on "starting out"

to all the moms thinking "this will just be for a bit to help lose the baby w3ight"

to all the 20 somethings falling into hyper r3stricted fad di3ts

please, im begging you, get out while you still can

having an 3d is not fun. it's not dainty or beautiful, its not a "lifestyle" or an aesthetic. we romanticize it on here bc its easier than acknowledging what we're going through. but it's hell. it's losing friends and relationships. it's CONSTANTLY thinking ab f00d, w3ight, what you can e4t and what you can't. it's never being able to genuinely enjoy your favorite f00ds bc the numbers jump out as soon as you try. it's constant guilt, either w yourself for e4ting or w your loved ones for not e4ting. it's constant lying. it's wanting recovery but also being terrified of it.

if i could snap my fingers and be "normal", to be able to "e4t intuitively", to be able to enjoy f00d again, i would do it in a heartbeat.

this is a lifelong disease that will never fully go away. you absolutely can recover, but the thoughts and urges will likely never fully leave. it probably sounds so hypocritical from an 4n4 blog, from someone who posts thinspø and tips. i am not here to judge; i will never try to force recovery on anyone, esp when i'm not even ready myself. but we are stuck in this hole w the ladder just a little too far to reach.

please do not join us.

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cute bpd things!!

paranoia

*small inconvenience* BREAK UP BREAK UP BREAK UP BREAK UP

yeah im fine lol look at this meme :D

paranoia

mood depending on them

every text hurts or feels way too good

intrusive thought yeouch okay ouch thats another one yeOOUCH

the 50000+ articles on how youre abusive

paranoia

fp is bad for me but its ok i love them<3

"if i hurt someone its gonna be myself"

becoming completely obsessed with someone the moment they give you the slightest attention

never being able to cut anyone off ever. immediately go running back

cry because theyre talking to someone that IS NOT ME

oh my fp isnt here. okay. oh im dissociating okay i dont have any purpose to continue living without them okay my life literally revolves around them i want to die where are they are they safe i dont know what to do with myself

"just leave. everyone does anyways"

5 minutes later theyre the worst person ever

*looking for an identity* hmmm, where could it be?

dependent on fp like theyre a parental figure you never had

paranoia

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