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So.. I was thinking about hyf as usual, and I was wondering if you will get into the magic lily used to protect harry?

it will eventually be something that's discussed, im pretty sure, and i think it'll be v interesting to explore that idea of lily doing dark magic to protect her son. i love that hc sm.

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You Are Not Immune To fanart of characters who die in canon that has them alive and well, with scars from the wound that originally killed them

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nothing more disappointing than a shower with low water pressure. i don’t want to feel like a wet sad beast left out in the rain i want to be power washed.

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Mama🤲

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The most hardcore thing that Harry James Potter ever did was not, contrary to popular belief, the “there’s no need to call me ‘sir,’ Professor” incident, but instead was either the time that he

a) laid into one of the people he respected most in the world (and the only authority figure in his life offering him help in one of the most desperate situations he’d ever been in) for leaving his pregnant wife, going “man, you’re inhibited by your own self-loathing and fear? That’s rough. That really sucks. But you know what trumps that? RESPONSIBILITY. You brought a child into the world. You’re a father now. You’re scared? Walk it off. Walk it off AAAAAALLLL THE WAY BACK HOME. And say hi to Tonks for me.”

or

b) he willingly let himself be murdered, came back from the dead, walked back onto the battlefield, stared his own killer dead in the eyes completely unimpressed and called him “Tom”

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dan and phil as reductress headlines 5/?

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Chai tea bag + lil but of brown sugar + apple cider packet + 16 oz. mug of hot but not quite boiling water

it will not Fix You but like. maybe. maybe.

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Oh my god they have had the What If One Of Us Dies conversation. And Dan almost had to live it. Do you think he was sitting in that relative's room in the hospital going oh god I might have to find a way to get this bitch cryogenically frozen.

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Hey! Hope you’re doing well!

So in your notes you said “i have a lot of thoughts about cygnus and druella and also their daughters” and as a sucker for any black family lore ever I was wondering if you wanted to ramble abt it a bit more here 👀

hi iris!!!

so okay. we will obviously be seeing more of the sisters in the fic itself, and this will lend itself to seeing more of/about their parents, but. that being said. i have so many thoughts about them. gonna put them under a cut, because this gets long.

like okay, cygnus. he's the youngest sibling. he's also been with druella since he was thirteen, at the very least, because that's when druella gave birth to bellatrix. they go on to have 2 more daughters and they're married. in hyf, they've been together for 25 years so far. also in hyf, they're in love, like to the point that cygnus' sole form of "defiance" to the family was to refuse to take any other wife when druella only provided him with daughters (obviously this is not her fault or even an actual issue but the importance of heirs and the family bloodline, those fucked up beliefs, play a role in this scenario).

anyway (blanket statement now, im talking about hyf's version for all of these characters), cygnus being a girl dad is literally the best thing that ever happened to him. like, it's the only thing that made him anywhere close to a good parent in any capacity (not that he is, overall, but hear me out), bc if he had any sons??? if you think hyf walburga was bad, cygnus would have been so much worse.

cygnus wanted to be the heir. he wanted sons. he wanted to be the head of the family and, at some point, he grew to resent walburga (and orion) for having the power in the family and for also having the sons he wanted. he even resented his own daughters (bellatrix the most, as she was his first born and reminded him Very Much of walburga), but he also loved them past that resentment. like, im talking full-on spoil his girls, will kill any boy who breaks his baby girls' hearts, would die for them type of girl dad. he loves his wife and he loves his girls, this is not up for debate.

bellatrix, being the eldest, caught most of the resentment. she was not and never would have been cygnus' favorite. she's a daddy's girl in the sense that she craved her father's pride and approval and also has a strong disdain for men at the same time. she has...an immense amount of daddy issues, and honestly? in hyf, they're valid 😭

andromeda was also not cygnus' favorite. she was not a daddy's girl. she loves her father, yes, and he loves her, but andy is a mama's girl all day every day, and i will get into that in just a moment. but andromeda and cygnus are...hm. like, okay, well for one andy is the middle child, so there's a lot going on there to begin with, but specifically with her dad, she is stuck in between that midpoint of bellatrix's shortcomings and narcissa's perfection. she will never be the cygnus' eldest and she will never be cygnus' little girl. she felt this her entire life. cygnus did not know how to change this feeling for her, but he did try (druella's doing), which we have seen hints of—in that he gave her a brooch, something it's rumored that she left behind with a note asking cygnus to forgive her. and after she left, we know that cygnus was seen with his head in his hands, briefly being comforted by walburga. and we have had cygnus state quite bluntly that he never (in his eyes) abandoned her and has no issue being her family (his issue lies with ted and tonks) and it's implied that he didn't want to disown her here:

and then it's implied that he holds resentment for her leaving and he never conceptualized that she might've wanted to stay, as seen here:

and so you've got these pieces coming together of a man who does love his daughter, but also holds fast to his beliefs and doesn't know how to change his behaviors to combat his own shortcomings as a father, specifically with andromeda in mind.

then you've got narcissa. daddy's girl through and through. the youngest, the baby, and the most beloved by all (except for one). she's bella's baby sister, and andy's, and cygnus' little girl. she looks the most like her mother of them all, and she is her mother's least favorite daughter. but again, we will get to that in a moment.

cygnus adores narcissa. she's genuinely the only daughter who didn't disappoint him. she did every single thing she was supposed to do. married right, had a son, remained in the family, presented the perfect image to pureblood society etc etc. he is terribly oblivious to the fact that narcissa ever could disappoint him, and she's made it that way. he thinks she can do no wrong, and regulus popping back up and involving her in matters cygnus would not want her involved in is the first sign of possible incoming strain between them, literally for the first time ever. from birth, narcissa has never not once made a misstep, not where her father could see.

but narcissa is more than just cygnus' little girl. bc she has been nothing but perfect in his eyes, there are others who have seen her imperfections and loved her despite them. bellatrix and andromeda. they know her more and better than cygnus does or ever will, and in a way, he will never quite be enough to overcome her natural desire to be all of herself with her sisters. and im not saying that narcissa is hiding parts of her or whatever, like she's secretly very different from how she acts. no, i do genuinely just mean that narcissa has never and will never be more comfortable with anyone other than her sisters. bc before her father, she is the Perfect Daughter—and she likes this, because it's very convenient for her and also bc she gets her father's pride + approval—but before her sisters, she can be something beyond that. she is in competition with all of them in her head (and constant winning, since they make it so easy), but she also doesn't have a sister to turn to when she's out of her depth, and she certainly can't turn to her mother (we will get to that in a moment), so without bella and andy, she feels lonelier and less known. less like she has the space to fail, which adds more pressure, which makes it very easy to rely on being the Perfect Daughter, and resent the reasons she feels that she needs to. make no mistake, narcissa holds a lot of resentment for bellatrix too, not just andromeda.

anyway, so we get into druella next. she is so fun.

now, to be clear, the misogyny in these pureblood circles (and just in the wizarding world in general, in some cases) is very interesting to put under a microscope. bc on the whole, we've got women in positions of power in the government (the minister of the 80s is a woman) and we've got the same acknowledgement for talented women that we do men. yet also, in the source material there are many other cases of misogyny of varying forms. it's subtle sometimes. and then sometimes it smacks you in the face. but if we're just talking about hyf, it's woven deeply into the structure of pureblood society, even if you go back to the very first chapter where walburga says this:

now obviously walburga did go on to do something, but that doesn't retract from the truth of this statement. if u read the walburga chapter, she went to desperate lengths to essentially become the heir. and even then she was still not acknowledged as the head of the family. yes she was abrasive with orion and kind of took control where she could, but her power was thoroughly interwoven with his. it's shown again when regulus shows back up after years of being known as dead and immediately has power over everything. it's not hers. it was never hers, and it's not any woman's in these type of marriages. that's not to say they are powerless and controlled and have no autonomy whatsoever etc, but in the eyes of broad society (especially most of the pureblood men), they are Wives. they are Mothers. they are tools to further bloodlines across various pureblood families, whether they're beloved tools or not. they can be treated with respect and treated equally, but all the same, they have a duty just like the heirs do. and no, there is no woman in these pureblood circles that get around this duty, like some of the men might, if their families have more than one son to be an heir (alphard as an example), bc all daughters are married off. they either leave this duty behind (andromeda), fail to fulfill it in full (bellatrix), or accept it (narcissa). and what they get for it, well, that varies. motherhood. riches and respect and a good reputation. a happy marriage for a few. power of a different kind, depending on how they use it etc etc. some of them are happy with this. they like it. that's what they want, and there's nothing wrong with that.

for others that don't, the issue lies in that they don't get a choice. if they don't do it, they're scorned. in some cases, they're even disowned, especially if they don't do it "properly" (andy). there's no keeping their last name and carrying on the bloodlines themselves, even though that should be an option. and frankly, placing so much importance on the bloodline (above the families themselves) is just another problem connected to this one.

we don't see a lot of this from regulus' pov because he's a man and he just. doesn't even realize that it's fully there or that he himself contributes to it. not the "placing importance on outside factors above family" issue, bc nothing is more important to him than his family, whether they're women or not. he loves his mother and his father exactly the same (he might actually love his mother more lmao). like, he doesn't view the women in his family as weaker or lower or less powerful and is quite aware of the power they do have and how some of them use it, so he doesn't underestimate them either. but he is ignorant to their positions and what power they don't have, and to an extent, his place in that. he's a man, a very powerful one, and so there's a lot he doesn't see or think twice about, especially because that's just "how things are"

now, back to druella, because i did have a point to make with all of this. she's one of the women that likes her situation. she's happy. shes in love with cygnus and has been since she was 13 years old. she likes being his wife and the mother to his children. she wanted to keep trying for boys, but her health was called into question, and so they didn't. cygnus wouldn't risk her life for an heir. he cherishes her. they're happily married and have been for going on 30 years and have never had any issues. (spoiler alert, they will be having some issues Very Soon.)

she was so so so excited to be a mother. she holds no resentment to her daughters for not being sons. that is a weight of guilt she places upon herself, for not being able to carry on having children.

however, druella has varying issues with her girls all the same. because she is the way she is, she's very strict about how she thinks her daughters should be. we've seen druella described as gentle, polite, rarely dramatic, diplomatic, palatable. regulus, of course, doesn't give any thought to why she is this way, or how it might've affected her children, or even that there might be more to her beyond this.

there is more to her beyond that. she has three daughters, all of which she attempted to raise a very specific way. not all that she did was good. quite a lot of it was how she was raised, as far as how women are supposed to act etc etc. she was raising her daughters to be wives and mothers, or she was doing her absolute best to, at least.

bellatrix posed a problem. druella slapped her with "eldest daughter syndrome" so hard that bella, in turn, ripped it away and did everything she could to fight it. she was not what druella wanted her to be. she didn't act or speak right and this led to a lot of mutual resentment between them. bella was too messy, too opinionated, too loud, too defiant, too independent, too too too... yeah, you get the idea. bellatrix also has mommy issues, if that wasn't obvious by this point.

then you've got andromeda. ohhh she was druella's favorite. hands down no debate, andromeda was druella's favorite daughter. she had a soft spot for andy, because she tried, she made the effort, and she wasn't perfect. wasn't better at it than druella herself was. druella was heartbroken when andy left, and yet she knew andy would go. she knew and never said a word and still loves her to this day. she would welcome her back with open arms in a split second, and her granddaughter as well, because that's andromeda's baby. tonks would be druella's most beloved grandchild, and she has more in common with bellatrix (in her youth) than andy, something bella would resent druella for as well, bc what do u mean u will love her for who she is, but now ur own daughter, hello???

and andromeda? ha, yeah, don't think she's not got some issues in her own life (especially as a mother) as a result of being her mother's favorite. we've not even seen tonks yet, but her and andromeda? now that is a fun time. and by fun, i mean there's heaps of drama, bc u can take andromeda away from the family, but whew buddy did andromeda not take the family away from her 😭 i love andromeda and her growth as a parent throughout this fic. i think we usually see a lot of "andromeda left bc she's nothing like her family and she's a better parent than she ever had" and i say no, actually, she's more likely to have clung to some things she knew, which would definitely cause issues between her and her child, because tonks is...well, tonks. and i think the journey of her working through these issues and trying to be a better parent than she ever had is so special and so important, especially when you're considering that—in her mind—her mother and how her mother raised her wasn't wrong. (not talking about blood purity beliefs here, to be clear.)

and finally, we've got druella and narcissa. you'd think that she'd be druella's favorite, but no, in fact she is not. and this is purely bc narcissa is better at being what she was raised to be than druella is. like, you've seen those things of mothers who resent their daughters for their youth/beauty, im sure. it's kind of in that vein, in the sense that narcissa is everything druella taught her to be, and more. she's better at everything than druella is. it comes very natural to narcissa, and not only that, narcissa hardly needed druella. there is a certain distance between them, and that's not even including the fact that narcissa had a son. the one thing druella failed at (in her mind) and narcissa did it. half of her is proud. half of her is jealous. its that bitterness of secretly coveting her daughter's life, struggling with that vs the weight of her love for her daughter.

the reason narcissa is druella's least favorite is bc she's exactly what druella made her (narrative foil to walburga and regulus), and she's even better than that. bellatrix? she failed. druella isn't jealous of her in any capacity. she's disappointed, certainly, and she even holds guilt for not being a better mother to have guided bellatrix down a different path, and she grieves her and misses her, all of these things, but she is not jealous. yes, bella could best her in a duel or any form of magic, but bellatrix cannot best her in a way that matters to her. narcissa could, and did, and so she is the least favorite of them all.

make no mistake, though, druella loves her daughters. all of them. she just has her own expectations for them as women. bellatrix didn't meet them. narcissa exceeded them too much. but andromeda? she was always juuuust right.

so yeah, this got really long but i have a lot of thoughts and im so so so excited to see more of them in the fic. like. im obsessed with them.

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hi hi cygnus’s relationship with his family is so so fascinating to me

like his love for his wife? his daughters? fascinating. his brother? his SISTER? FASCINATING

i love so much how you explored yet another black sibling relationship and would i be crazy if i said he reminds me of regulus?

here's a rather long ramble i went on about that line of the family (cygnus, druella, bellatrix, andromeda, and narcissa) if you're interested in reading a little bit more about them and their dynamics!!

also no, u would not be crazy to say he reminds you of regulus. he is a little brother, so the similarities are there, at least in that regard. and cygnus, in his own way, does fiercely care for his family, so that's something they have in common as well. they're also quite grouchy lmao. they're harsh bastards. i mean, we see regulus' softer side way more than we do cygnus bc like. we see regulus a lot more and we are in his head. but cygnus adores his wife. he's the same type of devoted as regulus is, in that regard. bit of a simp tbh 😭 so yk, the family resemblance is definitely there. same with regulus and alphard, who both shared a strong devotion family. and like, sirius has similarities to them too. like walburga visiting alphard's grave and saying "my children are so much of us, yet nothing of us at all"

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divorced teen mom lily and trans snape reunion fucks so hard i love lesbian snily please save me

genuinely makes my brain go so crazy… lily would see their childhood friendship through completely different eyes..,,,

sev is this tall confident woman and lily can barely believe it’s her childhood best friend at first because sev was always this socially awkward uncomfortable in her own skin-kid, and here’s this radicalized dyke with her long hair and blazers and ties… while lily is the one who has ’’’’’’let herself go’’’’’’’ <- term i hate but i dont know how else to describe it lmao. like she married her high school sweetheart and immediately had a kid and resigned herself to a life of being the perfect mother and perfect wife. until it all fell apart and she just couldnt keep going….. and now she want to go to university and she’s raising harry in a shitty flat off campus, trying to balance everything and find her way back to herself…….. she’s an absolute MESS !!! trying her best to GET BY !!!! but sev takes one look at her after years of not seeing her or talking to her and her heart is in her throat. her childhood best friend and first love and immeditaley realising she Never Got Over It. and same with lily.. she takes one look at sev after all these years and is soooooo overcome with how much she missed her. how everything just went sooooooo wrong with them and neither of them could be HONEST with each other as they started getting older and not being able to explain to each other how they dont like the person the other one was becoming (while neither of them wanted to even BE what they were becoming!!!!!!)…. lily giving up on her dreams for this jock she claimed to HATE !!! and sev falling into the wrong crowd and feeling like she had something to prove because of her upbringing ……. what if severus is a TA in lilys class and she walks in with all her lesbian swagger and lily with her messy hair and baby food stained shirt nearly falls from her seat ……

and here they meet again…. given a second chance…

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“Harry didn’t name any of his kids after Remus because he’s saving that option for Teddy!”

Wrong. Harry didn’t name any of his kids after Remus because it wasn’t personal enough.

James Sirius is named after his two fathers; Lily Luna is named after his mother and one of his and Ginny’s best friends. Albus Severus is named after two wizards who were incredibly influential for Harry’s development and safety (I have a HC on why on earth Harry decided to name his child after Dumbledore and Snape, but that’s a separate post entirely). None of his and Ginny’s kids are named after Remus, not (just) because they wished to save the name for Teddy, but because of Teddy.

Harry looks his orphaned godson in the eyes one day, a year or two after the Battle, and realises how fucked up it was that Remus, despite technically being able to, never visited him. He can’t imagine leaving Teddy all alone like that, in a family he might know doesn’t look favourably upon magic. There’s a chance that Lily may have told Remus about Petunia and Vernon and their bigotry, their hatred. And Remus, for some reason, didn’t come look.

Harry looks that little boy in the eyes and realises how weird it was that Remus didn’t admit to having been the best of friends with James Potter until late into Harry’s third year. Harry can’t fathom that, if Teddy was Ron and Hermione’s kid and both Ron and Hermione died, he’d be able to talk to the spitting image of Ron with Hermione’s eyes (but starved, intense, broken, thirteen years old and remembering his parents’ murders) and not say, “Your parents were my best friends. Let me tell you about them; let me tell you all that you want to know.”

Harry figures he’d move mountains to keep Teddy safe and happy. Harry figures that Sirius would’ve done the same, considering he mustered up the strength to break out of Azkaban after twelve years and swim to Britain to ensure Harry’s safety at the smallest sign of danger. Sirius lived in a cave and ate rats for Harry with dementors breathing down his back: Harry knows with utmost certainty that, if Sirius had had the freedom to do so, he would’ve burnt the country down for Harry.

Remus didn’t do that for him, wouldn’t have, be it for a lack of freedom or a lack of want. Remus was ‘Lupin’ to Harry even in death, even after being named godfather to his son. Harry had to convince thirty-seven year old Remus to stay with his pregnant wife at seventeen. Harry got blown into a wall for his efforts, was given the honour of becoming godfather months later. Harry liked Remus, still loves him even, but there’s nothing Harry wouldn’t do for Teddy and there was very little Remus did for Harry, and there’s that.

Later, Harry doesn’t even suggest naming a child after Remus. Ginny doesn’t even ask. None of their children are named after Remus, because Harry is a man who is quick to anger when it’s about innocents, a man whose forgiveness only goes so far. He’s never been truly bothered by his own situation, but he’s bothered by the mere idea of Teddy ending up in a similar one and him doing nothing.

Remus did nothing. That’s the crux of it. That’s why.

(After Lily Luna is born, Teddy asks if ‘Luna’ is for his dad. Harry looks at Ginny, and Ginny looks at him, and Harry does what Remus taught him: he swallows his apprehension and lies.

“Yes,” he says, raking his fingers through Teddy’s fluffy, turquoise hair. He thinks he’ll raze cities for this child. “But we saved ‘Remus’ for you.”)

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beyond the heartbeat remus is so incredible to me as someone w chronic illness like the first scene of him when he was like “I’ve got to assert dominance over my lungs otherwise the other organs start to get cocky and fail too” is so real (I regularly joke that my lungs and pancreas are unionising against me) but then his own reflection and depression with disease and how post transplant he has both guilt and fear that he has this new bought of life and he’s not going to do anything with it,,, he is very very personal to me and I love how he loves and cares he’s my favourite <{

ooo may i know the rest of the top 3 remuses? <3

my top three favorite remuses ive written (so far):

presque vu remus

hide your fires remus

beyond the heartbeat remus

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im so much more interested in a hoo that lets Percy keep the status and power he'd left off with in the Last Olympian and explores how he grapples with that instead of immediately forcing him back into the role of the underdog at the expense of his prior development. Let the fact that he alone has the title the "Savior of Olympus" mean something. Let the fact that he is the sole survivor of the great prophecy mean something. Let the Curse of Achilles mean something. Let us see how it's a curse and how it could warp his sense of self. Let Percy be on a completely different playing field than the rest of the seven (or even the other children of the big three at this point) and show us how it alienates him.

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Your body must be rested and fed if you wish to be a pervert.

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it is genuinely bewildering to me that adult human beings do not know this but if you are mean to people they will not like you. like tbh they are probably also not going to like you if you are mean to other people but they are definitely not going to like you if you are mean to them. it doesn’t matter if you are funny or if you can use r/aita rules to prove that you are in the right. people simply so not enjoy being treated like shit.