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“I Am That One Friend Who Cant Let Go.

I still laugh at screenshots and snapchat flashbacks of us from 4 years ago.

You will get bored of me, before i ever get bored of you,

Everytime.

If it was possible, i'd rather sit in discord calls playing roblox with you instead of working.

The Party ended 5 years ago and I'm still here.”

-@kurnt2 on tiktok

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last of us season 2 is me when i make a show and choose to forget about ‘show don’t tell’ x

one example that made me audibly groan bc SHOWED AND TOLD;

“because you’re selfish” “because i love you”

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i will pay ppl to watch this movie, then read this one review

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“it was a speedrun of the most important pieces of context we get”

THANK YOU

tlou season 2 episode 6 thoughts PART 2

this is in 2 parts bc tumblr hates me. part 1 here

this post is...the bad stuff. :)

spoilers for tlou hbo and tlou part ii below

EPISODE 6: THE PRICE

BAD -some folks call this a gee tar. my god I'm so sorry but this "southern accent" kills me like christ above -the more i think about joel making her the guitar instead of him finding it and giving it to her, the more it bothers me. yes, him making it is really nice. but in the game, he finds the guitar and fixes it up, but it already has the moth inlay on the fretboard. to me, the moth starts there. on something he finds and gives to her. and then she finds herself attached to it -- drawing it, getting it as a tattoo, etc. (i think there is some story about how they decided to have the tattoo and the guitar match later in the process but don't quote me there). in this way it's something joel brings into her life and she makes it her own but then it also is attached to him -- a symbol of death. poetic, right? but here, joel sees the moth in her drawings and then puts it on the guitar. it no longer has anything to do with him. it means death and he's worried about it. i just -- i don't like this. i think it undermines the entire symbol. -let's talk about the 17th birthday flashback. i hated every single second of this. every single second. i have imagined how we get from ellie living with joel to her living in the garage a million times. she suggests it, he doesn't know how to ask her to stay so he lets her go, etc. i did not imagine it as a punishment (this fits with the HBO version of ellie this season tbf but still). punishment for...joel being kind of homophobic???? like, okay, being a parent is hard or whatever, and she was smoking weed and getting a tattoo and fooling around, but. come ON. was that NECESSARY. and the way he doesn't apologize? i just. man, idk who this man is. the only thing i did like is how he will let her go into the garage if he fixes it up. i have written that myself in a fic, lol. but, christ! i hated all of this. how angry he is, how much distance is between them but about other things. -too many flashbacks in general??? why??? 15th birthday, 16th birthday, 17th birthday, 19th birthday, 19 and 9 months for the Night Before. the pacing of this episode was wack as fuck and frankly, after watching s2 of andor and seeing how they did a flashback heavy episode (210 if you're curious) successfully? its like, how did you make this so choppy! -ellie going on her first patrol at 19 does explain why she's a fucking idiot most of the time this season -eugene flashback...okay. i've written scenes like this -- what happens when someone is infected, what happens if they come back, how does the community handle it. the progression of infection being more rapid in the show makes this harder, obviously, but i just do not get what we are showing here. is this meant to remind us that joel is cruel? or that he has a capacity for mercy that is a little warped? (very look at the flowers coded iykwim). obviously this is meant to tie us back to salt lake and joel's choice and we're meant to question his choices and who he is doing them for. but he's following rules. his mistake is lying again to ellie. in the strings flashback (which is the closest one to this content-wise) he lies to her again but about the same thing. and he has the whole i know you wish things were different. i wish things were different. but they ain't. but here he is just lying again about more stuff. and frankly? i get why he lies to gail - he was laying it on a little thick, but. and then. GOD. ELLIE throwing a TANTRUM and making eugene's death ABOUT HERSELF. insane timing, insane use of i swore. also tommy being there -- is this meant to parallel the cold open? other people seeing what joel is capable of and calling him on it? just like. ugh ugh ugh ugh

-okay, deep breath. the porch scene. the promised porch scene. they had me in the first half, i can't lie. her reapproach, the way it starts, the coffee convo. and then. then it goes fucking off the rails. first of all, it felt like it was from joel's pov? which is a weird choice to me -- the framing and the focusing really put us with him emotionally rather than ellie. which i get, since the flashback starts in his pov. but this scene is about ellie. so the way they rewrote this -- they're combining the salt lake city flashback from the game where she cuts off their relationship two years ago and the porch scene in the game, where they finally come back together.

obviously that has to change since they've changed the timeline here. but instead we get joel crying out of guilt? for what? i know this joel is softer than game!joel but come on. all of his emotions and his dialogue in this scene are just so...manipulative parent? crying cause he's upset that he's hurt her, saying I'll pay the price because you're gonna turn away from me. and then all that shit about him loving her -- saying that he loves her in a way she can't understand. and making this about parents and kids -- and then quoting his dad???? i just don't get what this was doing.

i don't see how THIS ellie can possibly move from i don't need your fucking help to i was supposed to die to i want to try. to have the reveal of the hospital in the same conversation as her forgiveness -- or the hope of it. it's just such WEIRD PACING. and then for her to say the stuff she does the next morning about her and joel being her and joel, and all of that. it's such uneven emotional processing and while it retains the tragedy it's like. just not working for me.

So, overall, i see that a lot of the things i don't like do actually work in the context of the writing and characterization we've been given for the show. however i don't like either of those things most of the time, so! :) the immaturity, the explosive anger, joel's worry and helicopter parenting. i just -- i was so ready to be on board but like. why are critics saying this is one of the best episodes. it was like a speedrun of the most important pieces of context we get. so, yeah. man, fuck. I'm so mad i hated it so much. UGH.

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alan meken and howard ashman i love u

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missing the old garden centre on the edge of my village, it has all now been replaced with a housing estate. i try very hard not to be bitter about it every time i drive past.

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the last of us, ep5,

just some thoughts i had about the removal/change of the flashback;

i really loved this episode, despite the changes that i’m not a huge fan of. but i’m starting to see the directions they’re taking now, which is instilling even more trust in said changes.

although, one change i really didn’t understand, was the removal/change of the ‘future days’ flashback (yes i know i can’t say anything definitive because the seasons only halfway out).

for me, because of the 3 month time time jump, the heavier focus on the love story, the difference in how they decide to leave Jackson, etc, Ellie isn’t as angry (visibly) or ruthless or merciless or vindictive. (which wouldn’t necessarily be a bad thing but back to my point).

obviously we see it shipping through, like when Dina asks about what they do if they encounter Wlf soldiers that weren’t in Jackson (and Ellie gives a look implying to kill them regardless), for example.

but i just felt that because of this change, it makes the scene with Nora, for lack of a better phrase, not hit as hard as it should have. maybe i’m biased because of how perfectly it was set up in the game, maybe it’s a bit of both.

anyway, i just can’t help but think that if they’d have kept the ‘future days’ flashback, or had flashes of it instead of the full scene, or just something, anything, of Joel in any way that sticks out, then made that reminder of Joel the match that lights/relights the fire of desperate revenge in Ellie, it just would’ve made all the decisions Ellie makes and the events that occur all hit perfectly, such as;

Dina’s short ‘monologue’ after seeing the dead Seraphites, the decision to keep going with Dina, the desperation of the scene with the Stalkers, Ellie saying ‘No.’ to going back to Jackson, and then the tip of the many icebergs would be Dina getting shot, then almost immediately after, seeing the hospital where Nora is, and being one step closer to the ‘way out’ of her grief and anger, (finding Abby).

All these things happening in such a quick succession would’ve been perfect if they’d have lit the flame and then fuelled it, instead it felt like they fuelled an unlit fire? idk i just think that the inclusion of the flashback or part of it, would’ve tied it all together.

once again i say all of this with full self awareness that i’m speaking too soon, i have been proved wrong before and i will be again. also i’ve trusted changes they’ve made that did, in fact, work out. that’s the nature of sharing opinions on an unfinished piece of work. so anyways yes i have full and complete trust that it will all work out x

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the actress who played Nora was INCREDIBLE.

the flicker of fear in her face when Ellie said her name

the delivery of ‘Oh.. oh.’ , when realising exactly what type of person Ellie is after explaining what Joel did to ‘deserve’ his death

how the whole part in the basement, u could see all the spite, anger and almost disgust (and anything revenge cycle related) spinning around her mind like clockwork

and her realising the virulence of the spores and turning it quickly onto Ellie before realising

uggghhhhh it was just perfect.

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walkies

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i went for a walk round the village i’ve always lived in but all i could think about was how everyone i know is leaving the village that we’ve all always lived in to go to uni except me and how we have one last summer in the village we’ve always spent summer in before they leave and now i’m feeling emo x

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and if i said i prefer the last of us season 1 over game 1 would i be hunted down in the streets..?

it’s not a difference in quality because they’re different you can’t compare them but in terms of like enjoyment and the characters i do prefer the show (don’t shoot me), but, as of right now, i prefer game 2, over season 2, but it’s not even halfway done yet so can’t exactly comment (realistically i’d still prefer game 2) x

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the mornings after

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issy’s birthday, 8th of may

i didn’t miss the bus for once bruised the inside of my ankle found my new favourite pitcher got glitter in my eye which made it red + swollen got 24 total missed calls from my evil ex bf and went outside without a bra for the first time in 7 yrs x

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i’m interested to see at which point ellie’s need for revenge, no matter the cost, will start slipping through in the show (in terms of prioritising it over her relationships) since they altered the pregnancy reveal scene but i have full trust !!!

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issy’s birthday presents!!

(would usually be more but #jobless), plus a silver ‘18’ tiara i’m lending her for the day (since my mum bought for my 18th), bouquet of flowers and a drink of choice at spoons later x

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charity shopping, 6th of may