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grown f*cking man
TW: s*xual assault, r*pe.
Hi. 2.5 years after being sexually assaulted multiple times by the same man & now 17 days away from my wedding to my best friend, I am finally allowing myself to process my trauma. God does trauma just pick the worst timing.
This is something I am terrified to talk about out loud very much. Not bc I don't think people will believe me (thankfully), but because the reaction I feel in my own body when I talk about it is just more than I can handle at the moment.
I just need to post somewhere that feels safe & semi-anonymous. Anyway, here's a poem I wrote. It's ok if no one reads this. I just need to scream into the void for a while.
Though, if you're reading this & know me irl.... it was a guy B who graduated our high school in 2012 & had a sister M who graduated with me in 2014... I am not afraid to drop names in DMs.
Went to the doctor the other day
For a pain I couldn’t explain
All that I knew
Is it felt like a fist
Was squeezing my insides
Til they split in two
She said maybe it’s this
Maybe it’s that
You could see this specialist
To rule out some disease,
But we didn’t know
That in fact.
It was just you.
You & what you chose to do
To me & my body
I never knew you could be this cruel.
My therapist sat with me in shock.
Helped me breath through the pain
I thought my heart would stop
She told me you should be in jail
When I finally said the words out loud.
I shook in fear
When she asked me to picture
How I’d feel if I saw you in a crowd.
I thought you knew better
You’re a grown fucking man
Thought your heart was soft
But instead you kept going
til I finally got the guts to push you off.
You made me hate a part of myself that I held so close.
You made my life a living hell.
You should be in a prison cell.
I don’t know why, but I still wish you well…
My boyfriend hates you
My mom fucking hates you
My dad fucking hates you
My friends fucking hate you
I fucking hate you
I fucking hate you
I fucking hate you
So why does it make me feel guilty?
I thought you knew better
You’re a grown fucking man
Oh god, do I hate you
You & what you chose to do
As soon as I was alone with you
I swear to God I’ll fucking sue
You’ll always be that person who
Tore my body into two
You
perverted
selfish
disgusting
scum
Ripped me to shreds
just so you could cum
You nasty motherfucker
I thought you’d be a lover
Not a devil undercover
I fucking hate you
I fucking hate you
I fucking hate you
.....
No thanks to you,
I’m healing.
No thanks to you,
I’ll be ok.
I wrote you a letter
Putting this shit on blast
Unsure if I’ll send it
But it gave me release that will last.
At the end of the day
All I really have to say
Is I hope you never experience this kind of pain.
And also.
My boyfriend hates you
My mom fucking hates you
My dad fucking hates you
My friends fucking hate you
I fucking hate you
I fucking hate you
I fucking hate you
Fuck you fuck you fuck you.
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(1) cut ties with board members profiting from Israeli bombardment + occupation of Palestine
(2) support an immediate + permanent ceasefire
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