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I need another job

I'm a little stressed out at the moment. My current job is event based and at the moment my next shift is in a month. I desperately need another job and want more financial freedom. The only issue is I'm not really qualified to do much. I have a certificate for animal studies but in my area they only seem to be hiring vets and not any kennel hands etc. I also have to consider what is right for me and what won't burn me out etc. I consider myself a creative person and it would be cool to work a hands on job. Even small stuff like putting things together i enjoy, maybe I'll learn about computers/ technology or something :/

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The Last Dinner Party

Alright so I just found the band 'The Last Dinner Party' about an hour ago and yes I may be head over heels for them. Like look.

Are you kidding? I've only listened to a few of their songs (all of which were amazing), but their attitude and aesthetic I just love love love it. and yes I want to marry Abigail Morris. I encourage everyone to check them out !

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Here we go...

My best friend keeps on telling me to hurry up and make a blog, so here we go.

My name will be a secret, but you can call me bunny, I like bunnies. I am 19 and I'm an aspiring screenwriter.

This blog will be for random personal notes as well as sharing my travels and hobbies.

The first thing I'll get off my chest? I'm upset.

I think it's most definitely a part of my Autism, but I get upset and frustrated very very easily. So much so that I can have bad thoughts at the slightest change of something that can cause my moods to plummet. Last week, I met a woman at a club and we hooked up that night, we got each other's Instagram earlier that night and we have been casually texting each other each day. She told me she wanted to see me again and I made it clear that I wasn't looking for a relationship, but I would be okay with a 'casual' one.

I think I made her upset tonight because she said that we could always see if we wanted to take things further and while I understand that we only met once and we may build a connection, I just don't want to. The night was nice but I'm a very very shy and different person than I am when I go out with friends and party. I often feel ashamed and guilty after a night out because I feel like I'm putting on a mask that doesn't reflect the true me. I don't mean to, I just can't help it. Drinking helps me come out of my shell but It's not really how I am, I'm only really that confident when I'm mucking around with my friends, even then I'm always overthinking every single thing I do and say, Its exhausting. Now I feel like I've made her upset but I don't want to pretend and lead her on.

Anyway, that was my first post. Not very thrilling or interesting, but hopefully it helps with my silly little thoughts.

I'm probably going to pay for a Disney+ Subscription now so I can watch Criminal Minds legally without x-rated tabs popping up.

If anyone sees this, I hope you're well and I'd love for you to interact <3