honestjaybird

[honestjaybird]

Not the same

It's a bitter pill to swallow when you realise no one loves you quite as much as you love them. They dont hate you, they just dont love you quit as much as you love them.

I would want to feel as loved as I hope I make others feel.

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August- The Novel

I may be very late to the game but has anyone formed a novel or series of aroud the teenage love triangle on folklore?

My literal dream

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Adult Friendships

Is it just me that finds friendships hard to maintain during adulthood? Babies, jobs, life it seems to get in the way.

I guess I am just lonely

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Pornstar falls in love - part 2

I volunteered myself. I dont know why or how but I couldnt see all the work put in by my colleagues and now friends, go to waste. I doubt they would say yes but apparently I would do anything to save production. Sure I was nervous Im not that expereienced but I had seen how the performers looked out for each other. How it all was consensual and you could set your own limits of what you would accept.

"I'll step in if you think that will work" My voice came out all shakey even though I felt confident and safe. The male performer was someone I had seen before, he was attentive and fucking gorgeous. Wouldnt excatly be a hard time for me.

The crew looked at me, I could see them checking over my body making sure it wouldnt bring the ratings down. I think they approved.

"Lets call the boss and see what she thinks" I hadnt know that the boss of this particualr production company was female. I guess you just assume this is a male dominated profession. With that I waited to hear what they would say.

He came over to me while we waited, just in his boxers. Tight black boxers. I could see his impressive bulge as he walked over. His powerful thighs taught with every step. The rock hard abs he sported looked unreal and frankly I didnt feel like this was going to be the worst day of my life.

"Hi I'm Jake" He ran his hand through his short dak hair, almost looking shy. "I've seen you around set before, did you really just volunteer to fuck me on film?"

My eyes bretayed the shock I was feeling. Ok maybe he was some chauvnistic pervy porn star.

"Oh I was just joking. Sorry I get nervouse speaking to anyone really. " He did that nervous laugh, the quiet chuckle kind.

"That's Ok. I think." I wasnt sure about him now. Was I even doing the right thing?

"Looks like we are ready to go. Runner you need to just speak to legal on the phone"

Looks like it was too late. I guess I had to do it now.

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Jealousy

I see how so many people hate on TS for being at TK games. I see how people say its become all about her.

I see the love between to young, beutiful, famous people. I see the jealousy from others. I see how happy they make each other.

I don't really see why anyone is bothered. Just let them be. Neither one is hurting anyone.

Let them be happy. Let people love. Without your comment.

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Porn Star Falls in Love

**work of fiction**

I didn't grow up wanting to be a porn star, I'm not entirely sure anyone has that ambition when they're young? Can you imagine your grade school teacher asking little Suzie what she wants to be and she says " The best at sucking cock". No it doesn't happen like that. I was in college, struggling to pay bills. I come from a middle class family, enough money to not qualify for too much finaincial aid, but not rich enough for my parents to pay my way through college. I was majoring in English Literature hoping to write, or at the least work in one of those huge library. Books and words have always been my comfort zone, making me a "nerd". I still love books and words but they don't pay my bills.

There was an advert on a school forum for a job within the film industry., felixble hours to fit around classes etc. It felt like a scam but I was willing to at least find out more. I called the number just for more information, and spoke to Jez - my now agent. He was open and upfront that this was the adult industry and they needed an assistant to do some minor jobs on set like coffee runs. I have read my fair share of smut so wasn't overly phased by the thought of seeing people have sex. I wasn't an overly sexual girl but I also was not a virgin. I was also blessed with a pornstars body, I just didn't really know it at the time. I have big tits that still sit pert without a bra. They're all natural. I have a curvacious body, which thanks to my student lifestyle was on the slimmer side. I have always prided myself on my long dark hair, and light green eyes.

I worked on sets for around two weeks meeting some of the industrys top names. It isn't quite as seedy as you think when porn is done right. Two (or more) consenting adults, with clean STI screens enjoying their bodies. If someone needs a break they have it. The crew are respectful and there are minimal people on set. I would often be waiting in a room off set for my next job.

After around two weeks had passed I went to set to find out that the female performer set to star that day was not able to make it in. I forget why. As I arrived I saw the guys packing up their kit.

"What'sgoing on?"

"Marissa isn't able to make it today. We have to close down production"

**more later**

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What's missing

Once you have been married, or in a long term monogamous relationship with someone there is something missing. It's the anticipation. The build up and excitment in meeting someone new. The tension. The butterflies. Exhilaration. That'swhat's missing and I can see why people cheat. Don't rush to be commited, enjoy your life. Explore your interests.