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“Once Upon a Time, I Chose You”

From me, Alaia. To my dearest, Julian.

Dear the keeper of my heart, Kak Julian,

Thank you—a gratitude so immense it could rival the countless stars scattered across the night sky or the endless foam upon the ocean waves. From the depths of my heart, I am profoundly thankful for you.

You have become the vivid hue that colors my once-monochrome days. With a heart as gentle as a soft breeze and a love as pure as morning dew, you stepped into my life, bringing warmth and light. You are the sun to my moon—without your radiance, my light would cease to shine.

Fate has been kinder than I deserve, blessing me with your presence. With you, I’ve discovered what it truly means to be cherished. Every emotion I feel is met with understanding, and for the first time, I can be unapologetically myself without fear of judgment. You make me believe that my existence matters, and for that, I am endlessly grateful.

Without you, I might still be wandering through life, caught in a cycle of dull repetition. You are the spark that reignited my heart, the serendipity I didn’t know I was waiting for. Falling in love with you is the sweetest chapter in my story—a tale I never want to end.

I adore the fluttering butterflies that awaken in me whenever I’m with you or even when your name crosses my mind. I relish those stolen moments of smiling to myself at the thought of you, the way I stumble over my words when I’m flustered, and even the way I feel that pang of jealousy—it’s all proof of how much you mean to me. You’ve turned my ordinary world into something extraordinary.

I want to be someone you can always lean on, someone who brings joy to your days and a reason for your brightest smiles. I want to be your home—a haven as warm and inviting as the one you’ve given me. Your love has shown me how to be better.

I know I’m far from perfect. I’ve had my moments of sulking, jealousy, and temper. But you handle it all with the patience of a saint and the kindness of a heart full of love. I want to grow with you, to learn from you, and to be the partner you deserve. Teach me to love you the way you love me—with tenderness, understanding, and unwavering strength.

Thank you, my sunshine, for painting my life with colors I never knew existed. Loving you is my greatest joy, and I hope to spend every day proving that to you.

Kak Julian, I have chosen you, and I will always choose you. Among thousands of stars offering their best light, I would still choose you. Over every season, each with its own beauty, I would still choose you. Over the sun, which gives its brilliance and warmth, I would still choose you. Out of everything in this vast universe, you remain my choice—always and forever.

I love you with every beat of my heart.

With all the love my heart can hold,

Alaia.

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“When Fate Spoke Love in the Quiet of the Night.”

It happened in the early hours of November 2024, precisely at 12:03 AM on November 7, 2024.

On the evening of November 6, 2024, Ayaya and Juyie were watching Drawing Closer together online. They started watching at 8:52 PM and finished at 11:52 PM. After the show, Juyie disappeared for a while. Ayaya thought maybe Juyie was chatting with friends on GDM or doing something else. Then, at 11:59 PM, Juyie reappeared, but this time Ayaya vanished. That night, Ayaya was on Secreto, planning to take a screenshot of their past conversations.

At 12:02 AM, Ayaya returned to their chat room.

As usual, Juyie greeted Ayaya warmly and then asked a favor—could Ayaya click on a link Juyie sent? Without suspicion, Ayaya opened the link, thinking it was just a regular one. Click, click, click... and then, DEG! Ayaya's heart raced as the page loaded. It was Juyie's confession, asking Ayaya to be in a relationship. Ayaya froze, heart pounding, sweat running cold. Shock and excitement flooded in all at once.

For a while, Ayaya couldn’t respond—her mind went blank. But soon, Ayaya replied, saying that she wanted to be Juyie's partner.

Ayaya had liked Juyie since their conversations in October. So, how could she say no to that proposal? That night marked the true beginning of Ayaya and Juyie's love story.

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“The Dawn of It All”

The story of Ayaya and Juyie’s relationship began in a way that seemed almost casual at first, but little did they know, it would spark something truly special.

Ayaya and Kak Juyie had known each other for some time, but their interactions were limited to passing encounters. It wasn't until the end of September, specifically on September 30, 2024, that they had their first real conversation. It started innocently enough—through BA. Ayaya couldn’t help but laugh at how cute she thought Juyie was, but their chats were light, playful, and far from deep.

However, as the days of October unfolded, things began to shift. In the early days of the month, Ayaya found herself in a longer conversation with Juyie for the first time. Though it wasn't an extensive exchange, it felt significant. Every message Juyie sent made Ayaya’s heart flutter. She couldn’t help but blush, like a schoolgirl experiencing the early stages of a crush. The chats continued on Ayaya’s SC, adding a layer of excitement to their interactions.

At that point, Ayaya had no idea who the adorable guy behind the 🧏🏻 emoji was—the one who made her heart race with every text. She found herself eagerly anticipating his messages each day, but she was still in the dark about his true identity. Who was he? And why did every message from him feel like a small rush of happiness?

As time passed, Ayaya’s curiosity grew. Day by day, her desire to know who the mysterious guy behind the 🧏🏻 emoji was became almost overwhelming. Juyie had dropped a few clues here and there, but Ayaya, being a bit clueless, couldn’t piece them together. She kept wondering: which "Mark Lee" could it be?

Then one day, the mystery began to unravel. Someone revealed the username of a Mark Lee RP account, and Ayaya felt an immediate surge of panic. Could it be him? With no hesitation, Ayaya deleted that message on her SC, but not without first deciding to investigate the account further.

What happened next was almost surreal. As Ayaya stalked the account, it was as if everything clicked into place. The jokes, the typing style, the overall vibe—it was all too familiar. She felt a rush of realization. Wait, hold on… THIS IS HIM, ISN’T IT?! There was no denying it now.

Feeling a mix of excitement and nervousness, Ayaya finally gathered the courage to confront Juyie. Through SC, she confessed that she knew who he was—the Mark Lee behind the 🧏🏻 emoji. She teased that she’d show up in his Mentab to prove it.

And then, the moment of truth arrived. Ayaya was right!

Finally, on October 5, 2024, Ayaya and Juyie began their more meaningful, deeper conversations—this time, through direct messages. What had started as light and casual had now evolved into something that would lay the foundation for the beautiful journey they would embark on together.

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Being a part of your life is something I’m truly grateful for.

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[homeinhim]

I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU

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— I love you terribly.

Vladimir Mayakovsky, from a letter featured in "Love in the Heart of Everything; The Correspondence between Vladimir Mayakovsky & Lili Brik, 1915-1930,"

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my fav person is:

julian. julian. julian. julian.

julian. julian. julian.

julian. julian. julian. julian.

julian. julian. julian.

julian. julian. julian. julian.

julian. julian. julian.

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literally kak julian and i, every satnight.