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depression tips™

shower. not a bath, a shower. use water as hot or cold as u like. u dont even need to wash. just get in under the water and let it run over you for a while. sit on the floor if you gotta.

moisturize everything. use whatever lotion u like. unscented? dollar store lotion? fancy ass 48 hour lotion that makes u smell like a field of wildflowers? use whatever you want, and use it all over. 

put on clean, comfortable clothes. 

put on ur favorite underwear. cute black lacy panties? those ridiculous boxers u bought last christmas with candy cane hearts on the butt? put em on.

drink cold water. use ice. if u want, add some mint or lemon for an extra boost.

clean something. doesn’t have to be anything big. organize one drawer of ur desk. wash five dirty dishes. do a load of laundry. scrub the bathroom sink. 

blast music. listen to something upbeat and dancey and loud, something that’s got lots of energy. sing to it, dance to it, even if you suck at both.

make food. don’t just grab a granola bar to munch. take the time and make food. even if it’s ramen. add something special to it, like a hard boiled egg or some veggies. prepare food, it tastes way better, and you’ll feel like you accomplished something. 

make something. write a short story or a poem, draw a picture, color a picture, fold origami, crochet or knit, sculpt something out of clay, anything artistic. even if you don’t think you’re good at it.

go outside. take a walk. sit in the grass. look at the clouds. smell flowers. put your hands in the dirt and feel the soil against your skin.

call someone. call a loved one, a friend, a family member, call a chat service if you have no one else to call. talk to a stranger on the street. have a conversation and listen to someone’s voice. if you can’t, text or email or whatever, just have some social interaction with another person. even if you don’t say much, listen to them.

cuddle your pets if you have them/can cuddle them. take pictures of them. talk to them. tell them how u feel, about your favorite movie, a new game coming out.

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hey jsyk while hellofresh is dummy expensive and i wouldn’t reccomend it if you already know how to cook (if you’re a beginner like i was when i had it for 3 months, then it’s worth it), you should know that ALL OF THEIR RECIPES are free on their website and they all fuck hard

i will say that all the cooking instructions for veggies are pretty much the same (season with salt + pepper and roast on the top oven rack at 425F), but if it ain’t broke don’t fix it.

that being said, it also introduced me to methods i wasn’t at all expecting. i would have never thought to use cream cheese in my meat sauce, and now all my friends are constantly asking me to make my special rigatoni.

happy cheffin! :)

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a tale of two cities

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Wolfwood + Text Posts

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Heres your semiregular reminder that opal is one of the worst possible gemstones for engagement rings and tumblr posts about how pretty opals are and how diamonds are bullshit and we should all wear opal rings are not actually well informed or your friends

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tactics ogre villain writing: every named boss you encounter is as much a person as yourself, no matter how despicable. they will be mourned when they die; perhaps more than you. never forget that you pave the road to your dream with the bones and broken hopes of others. final fantasy tactics villain writing: you stand before the monstrous, twisted ruin of a good man who dreamed of a better world, who longed only for the strength to bring it about. also, argath is back again. he hates poor people even more now. fire emblem: awakening villain writing: this is Villageburner the Bandit and in exactly three turns frederick will insert his entire foot into his ass

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Final Fantasy XIV

Haurchefant

Emet-selch

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Thinking about my latest AU [It’s a Good Day to Die (But Not as Good as Other Days)], in which Nolofinwe’s oath to follow Feanor becomes just as binding as Feanor’s Oath to retrieve the Silmarils, and it has occurred to me, more slowly than it probably should have, that this would have interesting effects on everyone’s prioritization of retrieving the Silmarils.

Because suddenly it isn’t just the Feanorians going, “Must retrieve precious or we’re all going to suffer for eternity,” it’s also the Nolofinweans going, “Must get them back the precious, or Dad’s going to suffer for all eternity.”

Technically, of course, that element always would have been there on behalf of their cousins and uncle, but either (a) they were taking their cues from their cousins, who were mostly willing to delay until most of their immediate cousins were dead/out of the picture, (b) they didn’t really believe that part of the Oath would be enforced, or © family tensions kept them from feeling driven to intervene.

But suddenly this is a lot closer to home. This isn’t just the Feanorians’ risk to weigh anymore.

I’m not exactly sure how this would go - enough has changed in that AU that you could plausibly spin any number of scenarios - but I just. Hm. Kind of want a scene where Feanor and Fingolfin are once again dead, and Thingol once again has a Silmaril, except this time, Nolofinwe’s kids are also involved in the debate over whether or not we’re going to kinslay over this, and at least some of them are arguing in favor of the kinslaying.

Because I think it would drive home the idea that the Feanorians were never … inherently worse than their cousins. They definitely made choices. Frequently bad choices! But they also made them in a world where their equivalent to the sun had gone out, and their world upended. In a world where they were fighting a war they eventually had to concede they were losing - a world where they realized they almost certainly were going to die, and so was everyone they knew, and the only question was how they were going to go, and what was going to happen after.

And they were wrong! And that’s part of the tragedy, that they were wrong, that there was still hope, and they should have just held on. And it doesn’t make it right that this is what they decided, no matter what the circumstances. 

But it does occasionally make me want to shove the problem into other characters’ laps and go, “Okay. You try it.” Just to see what happens.

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here's ur reminder that axolotl is NOT pronounced like "ak-suh-laa-tl" (or lot-ul), it is in fact a nahuatl word (that most commonly translates to "water dog" actually, very cute!) and is pronounced "ah-SHOW-lowtch" !!!!

i think abt this every time i see a post abt axolotls coz i just know there r so many ppl mispronouncing it and the thought bothers me. if ppl, esp white ppl, reblogged this to spread the word to those who may not be aware, i'd be very grateful. thank u!!

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The Law is the height of God’s accommodation of broken humanity. 

It is true that Grace does not destroy nature but rather perfects it; however if the nature is gravely fallen and confused about what “it” is. 

Then perfection and destruction will not be easily ascertained. 

You know this, if you have ever had to relinquish an illusion about yourself. 

There is freedom in truth, yet there is a deep truth hidden in the etymological accident that revelation, understanding, the unveiling of the self, can also be referred to as an Apocalypse.

Indeed, perfection renders one unable to truly survive in a fallen world except by miracles; the one truly human person was constantly threatened by murder (and indeed, the second he stopped calling for protection, we crucified him). 

This is also the story of the Saints, the closer they draw to God the more invariably the powers of this world murder them. 

(How much should I fear that nothing seeks my death except my own soul?) 

So to give full perfection before the end of all things-is to condemn someone to death. 

But the end of all things is just that: an end of the present world. This present world that God loved so much that he broke himself upon the Cross. 

The Law is a middle road, an accommodation, a grace.

God wished to dwell among us before his death, so we could understand his death when it came. 

(and indeed, insofar as we have not fully embraced his death and resurrection in us, God stays with us in this manner, tabernacling in us until the fullness of death and resurrection permeates our bodies).

But, for God’s presence to be accommodated and truly understood, some kinds of human evil need to be exiled; otherwise God’s presence will be a curse for us

(If God does not judge us, we will think he approves of our evil and fall into ever deeper confusion and corruption. If God does judge us, then we are undone). The law serves to mediate this dilemma; that until we are truly unfallen (as Lewis says, until we have faces, or as Revelation might put it, until we truly have names), we cannot totally internalize God’s grace. Yet, the giving of that Grace is experienced as judgment to the extent that we are wicked, and to the extent that we are truly transformed, makes us even more enemies of the entire present Order of Things.  The Law is the middle road, what can be walked without the indwelling Spirit. It is prudence, the true wisdom of one who must love God but still live within the present order of the age. 

Of course, the offer of Christ is more than this; we are called to not just be faithful servants in the present order but transformed anticipations of the new. 

And to an extent, all who are called do this; but in this middle state we are a mixture of both.  

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So was anybody going to tell me that the Phantom Thieves went into Sae’s Palace on 11/20 and beat up her cognitive version of Akechi to make sure the real Akechi didn’t bump into him and realise he’d been tricked or was I just supposed to find that out by talking to Futaba like five times on 11/21??

Oh, sorry, small correction: the Phantom Thieves went into Sae’s Palace on 11/20 and Makoto beat the shit out of Cognitive!Akechi, who was just an ordinary schoolboy with no powers.

YOU CANNOT TELL ME SHE DID NOT ENJOY EVERY FUCKING SECOND OF IT EITHER.

God I want fanart of cognitive!Akechi tied up and wiggling furiously in a closet somewhere.

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P5A: The Chess Thing

Oh my god I am so slow on the uptake apparently but I just realised that the anime version of the engine room scene means that Akechi was carrying that damn chess piece around with him everywhere he went after the interrogation room.

Context, if you haven’t watched the anime: it was released several years pre-Royal but the writers clearly had the same realisation that they could have done more with the relationship between Akechi and Joker. Their chosen way of addressing this, rather than billiards and naked bathing, was to have Akechi and Ren play a lot of chess, with Akechi always playing white and Ren always playing black.

After their last game before stealing Sae’s heart (i.e. the last one before the betrayal and interrogation room), Akechi wins, and as he’s leaving Leblanc, Ren throws him the black king and tells him to hang onto it as a promise of a rematch.

… and then, weeks later, in the engine room, Akechi shoots the bulkhead switch and at the last second throws the black king back to Ren before making him promise to change Shido’s heart.

Ren then clearly carries it with him everywhere he goes, because in the final battle against Yaldabaoth, after a similar sequence to the game with all Ren’s confidants cheering him on, the last voice he hears is Akechi’s and we see what he’s holding in his hand…

“What’s wrong? Get up! It’s far too early for checkmate.”

(Side note: did… did it get bigger? WHAT IS DRAWING ON-MODEL ANYWAY)

So yeah, it’s the equivalent of The Glove, but up until now I had somehow not properly thought through the implications of Akechi having the king with him in the engine room.

It’s the equivalent of The Glove but they both took turns carrying it around sadly after the other one died oh my god can we please have a canon version of this storyline that ends with them both definitively alive already

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buying books and reading books are two separate obsessions

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i thank You God for most this amazing day:for the leaping greenly spirits of trees and a blue true dream of sky;and for everything which is natural which is infinite which is yes

(i who have died am alive again today, and this is the sun’s birthday;this is the birth day of life and of love and wings:and of the gay great happening illimitably earth)

how should tasting touching hearing seeing breathing any—lifted from the no of all nothing—human merely being doubt unimaginable You?

(now the ears of my ears awake and now the eyes of my eyes are opened)

e e cummings, ‘i thank You God for most this amazing’, in XAIPE: Seventy-One Poems

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peter retaliating against “baby monitor protocol” by changing the names of Tony’s Iron Man protocols

“hey FRIDAY, zoom in on that building over there”

“Old Man Bifocals protocol activated, Boss”

“what the fuck did you just say to me”