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" " existed in a sterile bluish-black darkness. there was no up or down, backward or forward. even the flow of time was ambiguous. " " had no idea who it was or why it was there.

- fifteen phase xx + translation

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“The most merciful thing in the world, I think, is the inability of the human mind to correlate all its contents. We live on a placid island of ignorance in the midst of black seas of infinity, and it was not meant that we should voyage far. The sciences, each straining in its own direction, have hitherto harmed us little; but some day the piecing together of dissociated knowledge will open up such terrifying vistas of reality, and of our frightful position therein, that we shall either go mad from the revelation or flee from the light into the peace and safety of a new dark age.”

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H.P. Lovecraft, The Call of Cthulhu

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“Grown-ups are lonely people. Even if we love each other, we must be careful not to show it publicly. And why all this caution? The answer is simple: because people are too often betrayed and put to public shame. The discovery that you cannot trust people is the first lesson young people learn as they grow up into adults. Adults are adolescents who have been betrayed.”

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Dazai Osamu, Tsugaru

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Chuuya is the only one who can predict anf understand Dazai's true motives.

-Kafka Asagiri

Dazai using the words "Good Bye" after a long ass pseudo confession speech instead of just saying bye like a normal dude when we KNOW skk's plans are named after their books. Chuuya's distinctly vampiric eyes, eye socket markings and fangs not being visible since the drowning scene when it was so prominently on display the entire time before.

(Yo considering Good Bye was Dazai's last unfinished work, what if its a code word for a potential worst case scenario where Dazai ends up dying and Chuuya has to complete the mission himself since Dazai is currently dying. Small brain moment here but what if????)

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bsd anthology’s u will forever be famous

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I feel like Dazai putting Chuuya's head in his lap is much more intimate than people are saying it is and like I get that Dazai putting Chuuya's face essentially in his crotch was a lot in itself but I think it's actually sweet.

Think back to like the start of BSD and Atsushi landed on Dazai but he was quick to push him off. Dazai could have let chuuya lie on the floor and put his hand on top of him but he didnt. He could have put Chuuya's head in his lap and left it but he didn't. He slowly put his hand down on top of Chuuya's head and sat with him there and I think it's so lovely that Dazai sat there with Chuuya's head in his lap.

But just look at Chuuya's face. He looks like he's at bliss and this is the calmest chuuya ever looks. Not when he's asleep and snoring like he does but when he's sleeping on Dazais lap because I think Dazai is the only place where Arahabaki is quiet and Chuuya is truly at peace.

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currently drinking red wine alone in an airport hotel, the people do not know that I feel like chuuya lowkey living my main character moment right now

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13 days kinds of kisses up to the 14th of February✨ (\\\^з^\\\)(⁎⁍̴̆Ɛ⁍̴̆⁎)

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Soukoku Headcannons!

this was longer than expected so i just made a separate post;; (special thanks to @chuuyakun​ for helping me out with some of these!)

1. celebrating is important to chuuya!! -he saved that expensive 1964 monopole to celebrate the end of the war against the guild (ch37) -he was probably saving that 1989 pétrus (ch31) to celebrate something big with dazai (becoming mafia leader one day??) but dazai left the mafia, so there was no point in having that anymore ): so he drank it aLL HIMSELF bc he was so hurt

2. when and how did they find out about their powers? did they always know? did chuuya suddenly wake up one day on the ceiling? did dazai come running and tell him “i’ll get you down!!” ?? did he try to pull chuuya down but the moment he touched him, chuuya just FELL??

3. when they were partners and seen walking around together, the enemy organization people would all go “it’S thEm it’S THEM IT’S THE-”

4. dazai has recorded footage of drunk chuuya on his phone and he group texted it to everyone in the mafia. he also has pictures

5. one of the things that happened when they first met probably went down like this: “what’s with those bandages?” “what’s with that hat?”

6. chuuya can dance well and dazai can play piano and/or violin look at those piano fingers!!

7. when chuuya first used corruption, dazai wanted to stop him early, but mori told him: “no, he can keep going”

8. they both can sing well!! i mean just look

chuuya from ch22

dazai from ch33

9. chuuya knows how much dazai sucks at driving so he never let him drive his car. if they went anywhere with a car, chuuya drives

10. they always drink together after a job to forget the bad things they did and they probably sang karaoke together too

11. chuuya probably tried to help dazai through some dark times by tickling his fancy -like in ch11 when chuuya did the whole “feet turned inwards” thing -chuuya was struggling, but dazai was anticipating…AND HE DID IT -it made dazai laugh and dazai’s face looked so happy omg -why did chuuya do this i need some answers

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“When a parent, a child, or a friend dies, the average person is greatly moved by it for some time, but the memory begins to fade. The reason for this, I believe, is that the mind only retains the memory of the person as he was alive, so that every time we think of the dead person, we can see him as he was alive. Every time we recall them they appear with a smile on their faces.”

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Kunikida Doppo, “Death”

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regarding this subject, if there's any english native speaker here who would like to beta read the next chapters feel free to message meeee (it's a red dead redemption AU eheh)

i started posting a skk fic on ao3 bc I'm deeply obsessed right now, but each time i'm posting anything online i'm convinced my english is shit

being able to write anything in english isn't enough i'm still convinced i forgot how to speak or write it every single time i'm clicking on the post button ughhh

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i started posting a skk fic on ao3 bc I'm deeply obsessed right now, but each time i'm posting anything online i'm convinced my english is shit

being able to write anything in english isn't enough i'm still convinced i forgot how to speak or write it every single time i'm clicking on the post button ughhh

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dead apple (and now fifteen)

light novel: wow, this is pretty gay. there’s no way they could make this gayer in the anime adaptation.

anime adaptation: woah, this is even gayer, i don’t know what they could do to make it gayer in the manga adaptation. its probably impossible.

manga adaptation: okay seriously what the fuck

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idk if this is interesting anyone but i may translate some of the french Isayama's itw one day or another

there's probably things he already said in NYC last November but his masterclass in France was very interesting imo, i think it's always nice to see new questions in each itw

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“We who choose suicide know what our true reasons are … The decision to take one’s life (like the decision to commit any act) is bound to stem from complex motives. Yet, in my case, I can pinpoint the cause as a feeling of vague uneasiness. A vague uneasiness over what the future may hold in store for me.”

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Akutagawa Ryūnosuke, “Letter to an Old Friend” included in The Oxford Book of Japanese Short Stories

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Whether you choose... Or don't... Just about everything, including this moment, will change. Even the path that led you here won't ever return to how it was.

Ugetsu Murata

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just decided to reinstall tumblr for anime content after I forgot about it for 8 years.

i feel like a boomer rn why does this looks like twitter now