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[heyimurangel]

Dear Lord, wasn't expecting this to happen. Sayod ko bay naa jud kay bout ipaabot nako which is "dili pa karun ang panahon". Pero nganu to Lord? Rag natwist man tanan :<

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civil service for May 12 lord, cutie <3

[heyimurangel]

Wag mo na sana akong pahirapan pa :'>

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Kapoyan naman kog deal sa mga tao nga magpakita og concern, care and affection tapos dili ka panindigan. You know what, okay naman ko bay I am not totally healed yet pero I am doing fine naman. Baay, wanted to have communication saimo pero dili paman tika kaya i-deal karun kay I always end up looking back sa past on how did I handle everything which is very lisod for me. Sige kog stalk saimo though giblock ko nimo and yet karun, gi unblock ko nimo nangumusta pajud ka? Para asa? HAHAHAHA Ayaw ko palisora please. Magdamgo nasad ko ani ron nimo. Again, I am doing fine na ayaw na himoang complicated if KUNG KANANG IMONG PAGBATI NIMO DILI NIMO KAYA BAROGAN!

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October, the last time I wrote something here in my journal. I've been too busy with my academics and org tasks. I kept busy to divert my attention in my current heart situation.... but here is me again, kay tungod nagparamdam ang tao nga akong gihigugma ug nagpasakit saakoa :<

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Hey girl! I know life's getting harder today, but always remember that you are precious and there's a better things ahead <3

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Karun na proved najud nako ang saying nga each one of us had a time that we based our decision if we are ready to enter a new relationship depends on a person we are dealing to...

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I just did what could bring me peace, but why does it seem like it's hard to deal with those situations that you can feel accountable for, and the worst thing is the regression? Why are there people you expect to understand but end up being the ones who'll surprise you with their responses?

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I've been telling myself to not take serious on everything, but things challenge me on handling my emotions on how will I react to different situations.

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I am wondering if you got affected with our situation...

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I will stay, if you ask for it

I am willing to take risks but you're not clear tho

And I will try as far as I could, but I guess we're not on the same page...

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Am I crazy? Why does it feel like "nawad-an ko" "magmahay ko at the end" AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

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"Walay lain",

pero sakit kaayo'ng madunggan

nga di pa diay ka andam musulod sa butang

nga imo ng gisugdan, pero wa matiwas kay lagi "dili paka ready mupadayon sa unahan"

sakit pamalandongan nganung didto ra kutob ang tanan?

human sa kalipay, miawas ang luha ug midagayday

dili nako mapugngan, apan gikinahanglan

nga mubarog nalang ug dawaton ang tanan...

[heyimurangel]

This chapter ended... See you in the future or in another life...

[heyimurangel]

I really don't understand huhuhu

I composed it already and I will just send it to him pero dili nako mabuhat. And now, reading his messages yesterday that he even called me twice but I didn't answer it melts my heart, thinking that I felt special because of his updates. Gosh! I really don't like this mixed signals ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

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Daming realization ah, so andami ring natutunan?

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#1

It's challenging to believe in love due to the trauma that the person who was once special to you has caused, not just because of the love itself. Yet there were still some who took risks after everything that had happened to them. And I salute those kinds of people because they have the power to still believe in love amidst the pain of the past.