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It’s so ironic how I used to hate sleeping as a child and now I only want to sleep

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In Armenian, when we want to say “damn you” or “go to hell”, we use the expressions "գրողը քեզ տանի" [groxy qez tani] or "գնա գրողի ծոցը" [gna (kori) groxi tsocy], which translate to “may the writer take you away” or “go and get lost in the writer’s embrace” in English. You might wonder, “Who is this writer-person?” and “Why is it considered a curse?”

According to traditional Armenian belief, Grox (the writer) is a spirit who records a person's deeds during their lifetime, determining the purity of their soul. This concept may be linked to Tir, the god of writing and literature in Armenian mythology. In some interpretations, it was believed that anyone whose name Tir wrote in his notebook would die. This is where the curse "may the writer take you" originates.

During the Christian era, Grox was mistakenly represented as a Christian spirit who no longer recorded human deeds but instead determined each person's fate, inscribing it on their foreheads. Over time, Grox came to be depicted as an evil spirit, sometimes identified with Satan. Thus, the curse "get lost in Grox’s embrace," which originally signified death, took on a more negative connotation. However, this was not originally characteristic of Grox in Armenian traditional beliefs.

So, if you want to get creative with your curses, instead of saying “go to hell,” you can use the phrase “get lost in the writer’s embrace”.

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be busy. busy not checking messages. busy reading those books you never started or finished. busy having a good night of sleep. busy taking care of yourself and your skin. busy moving your body. busy helping your community. busy reflecting on your life and what you can improve. busy doing things aside from the capitalistic viewpoint of “productivity.” busy slowing down.

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U know how a laptop gets really slow and struggles if you haven’t shut it down in a while, or have too many programs open, and just closing down some unnecessary things or turning it off overnight can really give it a lease of life?

You’re kind of like that too. It’s okay if you’re feeling burned out to give yourself some time to just shut down and do nothing for a little while. It’s okay to need to put some things on the backburner if you’re juggling too much at once.

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Clarice Lispector, A Breath of Life

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someone who understands the silence

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Guys hashahahaha may muntik akong maka momol sa party na blockmate ko buti hindi natuloy omg 😭

So for context lang mej close ko naman tong si guy kahit papaano, tapos tipsy narin kami but yung mga ihahatid naming friends lasing na lasing so kami dapat yung sober kaya hindi na sya uminom pa since need nya idrive car ng friend namin, naiwan kami sa baba ng club since need magcr nung mga wasted hahahah then ayon pero wait before this, nagchichikahan na kami sa loob ng club and nag sorry sya and nagsabing he'll try na wag ako landiin on our way home. Then back to the staircase, as in sobrang lapit na pero hinarangan ko gatorade mukha nya HAHAHAHAH tapos sakto dumating yung isang senior at chinika kami, buti di natuloy kasi diko alam pano ako papasok araw araw if that happened ayun lang skl bye 😭😂

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Putangina nakaka overwhelm

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So much has happened the past weeks and months, I'm happy that I'm able to make time for myself and the people around me before my schedule gets busy again. Second year na ako sa august grabe, this time last year I was so anxious for the law school entrance exam and interview! ^^

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obsessed w this ("Dostoevsky as lover", Henrik Karlsson)

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There's a lid for every pot

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2:15 am — everyday feels the same, drowning and suffocating. I want to go out and stay indoors at the same time. My social anxiety has gotten worse, I'm not excited making new friends anymore. I don't even know what to do, I need to always have something going on so my mind doesn't wander elsewhere.

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I've always thought I had so much love to give. Now I'm barely even getting an ounce for myself of what I used to pour out for other people. I think I've drained myself too much, going around loving people. One wrong man after another, always thinking "this could be it" but failing just as when I've given it all. I don't think I want to love again, when all these people only know how to take, leaving nothing for me.

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23 – twenty three in a few minutes

I didn't think too far ahead for my plans and dreams back when I was younger, sometimes I'd just go with whatever is more convenient to answer when people ask the most cliché question, "what do you want to be when you grow up?" As far as I can remember, it went from being a doctor, a lawyer, chef and even a news anchor. I knew I liked a lot of things, probably why I did not want to indulge on fixating myself on one single dream. But for most parts, the dream of becoming a lawyer has been silently sitting in my heart for years, not wanting to admit that I still want to be one.

I took a gap year after college while working and now, who would have thought I'm in law school for almost a year already. I'll be a second year student this August! I don't know where I'm getting at for typing this, but maybe I just needed to acknowledge myself for one, for making it here. I still have a long way to go, but thank you Lord for giving me the strength to make that huge leap of faith. I'm doing my best to be worthy of the dreams that I pray for, and I hope to not lose myself along the way.

I kept my passion for cooking, and food blogging. I like how I have other things going on in my life aside from studying because it's what keeps me sane. I'm still contemplating if I'll apply for a part time job since now I just do freelance content creation. I'm still praying for my plans, and the ideas that constanly fill my mind lately makes me excited and hopeful for what is yet to come.

This year I promised myself to be more intentional with everything that I do. And so far, I'm happy to know that I've been doing it consistently. :)

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Taking it day by day

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God has always been and always will be faithful. I pray to never forget that, most especially in times where I get impatient of when things will finally work out for me.