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Museum dates where she stares at the art and I stare at her.

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"The Brothers Karamazov", Fyodor Dostoevsky (translated by Constance Garnett)

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— honestly don't know how i went from always being afraid of losing people so i'd usually be the one to adjust or make amends, to easily cutting people off. i ask myself those questions too but lately, whenever my gut feel tells me something's off with a person, it's either i'd take a few steps back and observe more or just walk away. i think park of it stems from the fact that i am so at peace with where i am as of the moment so as much as i can, i want to protect that.

thing is, i can easily cut off people. it’s all a matter of asking myself the ff questions: a) do i see a future connection with this person? b) do my values align with this person’s values? or c) do i feel comfortable still keeping a connection?

if the answer to any of these questions is no, then bye bye agad. bye!

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It’s so ironic how I used to hate sleeping as a child and now I only want to sleep

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In Armenian, when we want to say “damn you” or “go to hell”, we use the expressions "գրողը քեզ տանի" [groxy qez tani] or "գնա գրողի ծոցը" [gna (kori) groxi tsocy], which translate to “may the writer take you away” or “go and get lost in the writer’s embrace” in English. You might wonder, “Who is this writer-person?” and “Why is it considered a curse?”

According to traditional Armenian belief, Grox (the writer) is a spirit who records a person's deeds during their lifetime, determining the purity of their soul. This concept may be linked to Tir, the god of writing and literature in Armenian mythology. In some interpretations, it was believed that anyone whose name Tir wrote in his notebook would die. This is where the curse "may the writer take you" originates.

During the Christian era, Grox was mistakenly represented as a Christian spirit who no longer recorded human deeds but instead determined each person's fate, inscribing it on their foreheads. Over time, Grox came to be depicted as an evil spirit, sometimes identified with Satan. Thus, the curse "get lost in Grox’s embrace," which originally signified death, took on a more negative connotation. However, this was not originally characteristic of Grox in Armenian traditional beliefs.

So, if you want to get creative with your curses, instead of saying “go to hell,” you can use the phrase “get lost in the writer’s embrace”.

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be busy. busy not checking messages. busy reading those books you never started or finished. busy having a good night of sleep. busy taking care of yourself and your skin. busy moving your body. busy helping your community. busy reflecting on your life and what you can improve. busy doing things aside from the capitalistic viewpoint of “productivity.” busy slowing down.

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U know how a laptop gets really slow and struggles if you haven’t shut it down in a while, or have too many programs open, and just closing down some unnecessary things or turning it off overnight can really give it a lease of life?

You’re kind of like that too. It’s okay if you’re feeling burned out to give yourself some time to just shut down and do nothing for a little while. It’s okay to need to put some things on the backburner if you’re juggling too much at once.

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Clarice Lispector, A Breath of Life

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someone who understands the silence

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Guys hashahahaha may muntik akong maka momol sa party na blockmate ko buti hindi natuloy omg 😭

So for context lang mej close ko naman tong si guy kahit papaano, tapos tipsy narin kami but yung mga ihahatid naming friends lasing na lasing so kami dapat yung sober kaya hindi na sya uminom pa since need nya idrive car ng friend namin, naiwan kami sa baba ng club since need magcr nung mga wasted hahahah then ayon pero wait before this, nagchichikahan na kami sa loob ng club and nag sorry sya and nagsabing he'll try na wag ako landiin on our way home. Then back to the staircase, as in sobrang lapit na pero hinarangan ko gatorade mukha nya HAHAHAHAH tapos sakto dumating yung isang senior at chinika kami, buti di natuloy kasi diko alam pano ako papasok araw araw if that happened ayun lang skl bye 😭😂

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Putangina nakaka overwhelm

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So much has happened the past weeks and months, I'm happy that I'm able to make time for myself and the people around me before my schedule gets busy again. Second year na ako sa august grabe, this time last year I was so anxious for the law school entrance exam and interview! ^^

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obsessed w this ("Dostoevsky as lover", Henrik Karlsson)

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There's a lid for every pot