herongrcystairs

[herongrcystairs]

Kit to Ty

Election day: misery, stress, hair-pulling, at least for Americans (and a lot of other people around the world affected by our politics!) So I thought I'd post a distraction; I hope it helps and doesn't annoy!

A while ago I posted the beginning of a letter from Kit to Ty, created for a Kickstarter backer. Here's the full text:

A letter from Kit to Ty, never sent.

Ty, Ty, Ty.

Your name looks strange written out like that. Like an abbreviation. But Tiberius would be so formal. I never think of you that way. Or, I suppose I should say, I never thought of you that way. Tenses matter in these situations, I guess.

It’s late, past midnight, and I’m sitting on the windowsill in my bedroom at Cirenworth. Jem and Tessa gave me one of the best rooms. Of course they did. It has a view out over the gardens. Sometimes I see the ghost of a dog there, a golden retriever I’m pretty sure, running in and out of the flowerbeds. He seems like a pretty happy ghost. I think about how much you like animals and how much they love you, because of course they do. But it’s too late; this dog passed away a long time ago. You probably couldn’t even see him. It’s too late for a lot of things, now.  

I’m still mad at you, and I don’t feel good about that. Maybe if I could forget, I could forgive. But I can’t forget that night you brought Livvy back. I’ll suddenly remember even when I’m thinking about something else. I’ll be in the middle of helping Tessa in the garden and suddenly I’ll turn around and I’m back in Idris. 

I remember I told you I loved you. I remember I told you I would help you, but not if you raised Livvy from the dead. Not if you did necromancy. But you wanted that more than you wanted me.

And I understand that. I’m not angry about that. Here’s what I’m angry about: when you brought Livvy back, you changed yourself. You made yourself a different person than the one I loved. I don’t know the person you are now. You took yourself away from me. I can’t forgive that. And you made me someone who has to keep a secret I never wanted to keep. I was raised by someone who had so many awful secrets, and when I started my life as a Shadowhunter I wanted to do it openly, and honestly. But now I’m just someone else with secrets I can never tell. Just like my dad.

It makes me angry, so angry. I want to yell at you. I wish you were here so I could yell at you.

Kit

[herongrcystairs]

so far Cordelia and Matthew!

had to temporarily stop reading because of school work but I’m now halfway through Chain of Gold!

[herongrcystairs]

had to temporarily stop reading because of school work but I’m now halfway through Chain of Gold!

[herongrcystairs]

this illustration of jem will forever have a chokehold on me

[herongrcystairs]

letters unsent

Ty, Ty, Ty.

Your name looks strange written out like that. Like an abbreviation. But Tiberius would be so formal. I never think of you that way. Or, I suppose I should say, I never thought of you that way. Tenses matter in these situations, I guess.

It’s late, past midnight, and I’m sitting on the windowsill in my bedroom at Cirenworth....

[herongrcystairs]

(I got my previous account back but I’ll just be staying here)

Introduction Post:

•🇲🇽🇺🇸 She/Her 21

•Not new to tumblr, just coming back to talk about the Shadowhunter Chronicles

•This account will be mainly focused on the Shadowhunter Chronicles but I will occasionally post/reblog other posts related to my other interests

•I love books, here are some of my favorites: Grishaverse, Folk of the Air, Riordanverse, Villains duology (soon to be trilogy by V.E. Schwab!), AFTG, TGCF

•I also like anime/manga (jjk, csm, sakamoto days, dungeon meshi, etc)

•My current favorite characters are: Herongraystairs, Kit Herondale, Ty Blackthorn (Though I’m currently reading the Last Hours so I’m sure I’ll be adding more to my favorites!)

•I am not entirely caught up on the shadowhunter universe, I just need to finish The Last Hours trilogy and Secrets of Blackthorn Hall, so I might not be super active until I finish those

•I hope to find mutuals and make memories on this account!