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Day 89 of 365

Today I set out a goal for myself that I have to write every day just so I could improve my writing skill, hopefully this could become a habit. I could write anything from daily journals, random thoughts, stories, etc. I always have random thoughts in my mind, some are confusing that seem like dead end to me. hopefully with writing them down it could help me find the answer.

I have been watching tv shows about home design and I’m fascinated by people who built their houses in nature without destructing the nature itself, they adapt their design into the nature not the other way around. I’m always interested in nature and design, although I know I’m not that good in design, not really that artistry.

Some of my friends they are starting to think about buying their first house, since the housing price keep increasing especially in urban area like Jakarta. I never really have a thought about buying one, I just want to buy a land and start build sustainable house with solar power that has quite large yard with my own garden and farm. The idea of getting fresh food materials from my own garden and farm everyday to help reduce food waste is so exciting for me. it’s quite challenging tho knowing to have the kind of  house that I want is pretty expensive and I could no longer live in a urban city like Jakarta, it just doesn’t fit the bustle busy lifestyle there.

I don’t mind leaving the hype of city life, I never really enjoy that kind of life anyway. I always feel more fulfilled and peaceful where life feels more slow, when the people are not rushing into anything. I think I always know that by heart. In fact for now I still live a life that is the opposite of what I my truly heart wants, living in urban city working in a job I don’t like. I always tell myself that I need to always explore the options, I wouldn’t know that I don’t like the kind of live I’m living now if I never jumped in the first place. There are always options I can always switch. For now I still need to save money and learn more about where I could invest them wisely, so in the future I could get the life I always want. I also need more connections, meet more people, learn about them and eventually I hope I could start my own business *break my chain from the corporate life*, having multiple sources of income *including passive income*, buy a land and start building the house and the life I always wanted. Aamiin.. hopefully it doesn’t take me too long :)

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Don’t we all deserve to be loved?

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All of the thoughts, worries they all got me again. I hate letting myself get caught in bad feelings.

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there’s a missing piece of me that i lost somewhere along the way. i’ve spent years looking for it, trying to be whole again, praying someone would come along and complete me. i forgot that i am more than what i have lost. i only focused on what is gone and forgot to notice who i’ve become.

jigsaw puzzle by shelby leigh (via nothingwithoutwords)