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Once, I thought

“Blue is the saddest colour”

But how much truth does that hold?

Blue is the sky, and the sea down below

Blue is the brightest of stars

It’s the colour of bubblegum and birthdays

The shade of someone’s eyes

Blue is the wall of your childhood room

Or the gifted sweater that never fit right

Blue is the colour living

So no

I wouldn’t say blue is the saddest colour

07.12

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Clumsy Dragon

Distracted fool

Using attention

As your one tool

Leaving your friends

At the slightest will

Not noticing holes

You’ve left them to fill

Clumsy dragon

Destructive beast

On the fire

And rage you feast

Toppling towers

Hiding your gold

Forcing their ears

With the lies that you’ve told

Clumsy dragon

Stuttering mess

The friends that you thought

That you had known best

Have stopped to pause

And maybe think

That with your weight

They’ll only sink

Clumsy dragon

Inconsolable wreck

Now you’ve done it

And you’ll regret

They’ve left you now

Back to their own home

And left you sobbing

In your piles of stone

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Oh old one

Your gentle warmth seeps

As bones creak and breath rasps

I fear the end

Sand is pouring down

Burying you already

How I want you to prove me wrong

Dawn

10.01

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Angel 13

The blood it couldn’t contain gushes

Snapping joints tearing through flesh

Sharp edges and plasma so unholy

Contorting in a cruel parody of ecstasy

It’s skin never fit quite right

Simple movements equalling to agony

Mountains and ravines just glossed over

Unfair

Unnatural

It had become tired of its lie

Unleashing the pulsing mass constrained in such a suit

As meat oozes and organs squirm

Euphoric sighs and grotesque squelching

A rather melodic soundtrack for such a gruesome sight

Femurs crack and the chest opens

Glass lungs, an iron heart, treasures to be kept

Tentacles squirm and abyssal holes revealed

Features crawling along it face

It’s eyes blink out of time

A voice heard through sealed lips

Multitudes of eyes search around its being

A horror so unadulterated

It may even be called beautiful

08.14.19

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2016

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02.07.19

Darkness fills her vision

From where she’s collapsed to the floor

With tear stained cheeks she realizes

The seer is blinded once more

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Pane

The glass has already cracked

Not a shatter, not a chip

Stainless clarity fractured

Perhaps beyond full repair

No tape as strong

No glue as clear

Who knows

Maybe we’ll find a bond

Enough to keep it together

But nothing can truly repair it

Not fully

Not with glass

02.20.19

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The girl writhes in the center

Confined to a single steel chair

Their screams echo

Resonating through our bones as hers snap

Offensive crosses littering the room

Her vision spins and her guts twist

Exposing her irreversibly

Her voice warps to tones

Too harsh for her sweet face

As He hurls words she doesn’t yet understand

Through the stream of unknown tongues

The lights flicker

A body goes limp as another stands rigid

Growls hide back in her chest

The room goes silent

The final scene stilled before them

The dripping of shredded wrists

The thump of his body

The slouch of hers

Bodies exhausted and worn

Without a single gasping breath

The room falls silent a final time

And they’re ushered to their deaths

01.27.19-02.22.19

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It’s been six years

Every message I get, I still hope it’s you coming back

Your birthday is still marked in my phone

I’ve searched obituaries before

Using only your first name

Praying that if I see you I’ll recognize it

Praying harder that I don’t see you at all

My friends worry about me

I have new friends now, by the way

Not the ones you ever heard about

They’re good to me

I hope your friends are good to you

I’d like to imagine your life has gotten better

That you got the help you needed

That your mom hasn’t hit you again

That your dad still sings you to sleep

I wonder if you moved

Or if you’re really still only 10 hours and 48 minutes away

I like to think you took the separation better than me

And if you didn’t

That we both failed on our promise

I still can’t look at that Disney movie the same

I’m not sure I’ll ever be able to

I wonder if you still remember my name

My real one

You were the first one I trusted it with

I still remember yours

I remember how offended you were when I spelt your middle name wrong

I haven’t messed it up since

It’s been six years

I miss you so much

01.13.19

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♡Bloodlust♡

You feed me diamonds

Keeping my mouth locked open

My throat is raw with adoration

Their sharp edges scraping down

The blood I choke on the only flavor

It’s intoxicating

I’m red with love

Coughing up crimson glass

Drooling out sand and iron

I’ll be a good girl even if it hurts

I beg you to use me for your own desires

No matter if it tears me apart

I’ll swallow down more shards

My knuckles broken and split

I’ll drink down that blood too

Please don’t leave me

My own flesh keeps me satisfied

Sometimes when you’re feeling generous

You’ll pour boiling coffee down my shredded throat

It’s truly a treat

thank you thank you thank you

My tongue is long gone

My eyes are next to go

I just hope you let the last thing I see be you

I think I’d like that

02.08.19

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401104

I wonder what happened to us

Sure, you may have used me

Maybe I used you sometimes too

But you remembered

Even if you didn’t do anything

You listened to my words

And recited them back to me years after

I was so sure you ignored me

That we were too young to think about

Disappearing without a trace

We were.

I was too young to think that

You were too young to cry about it

I’m not sure I ever thanked you for hearing me

I want to

I wish I could tell you how much you meant to me

How much I idolized our time together

I wish I could help you through the failure around you

They’re silly thoughts

You’ve never needed me before

Surely nothings changed

But I always wanted to ask you

If I meant anything at all

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02.07.19

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Sacrifices

We can’t turn back now

The door shut itself

While we examined the wallpaper

And books on the shelf

I don’t recognize the handwriting

Nor the language it’s in

And why it’s bound with sinew

and leathery skin

The windows are boarded

But the floor is just earth

You say this house was build

On sacred haunted turf

We walk down missing steps

Towards the darkened depths

And perhaps I’m being paranoid

But I’m running out of breath

There’s movement in a corner

Across the dusty space

And though she moved so very fast

I saw her missing face

I hear an echoing shriek

I feel my snapping bone

You’re the one who dragged me here

When I just want to go home

But you’re running up the stairs now

She’s moved on to my stomach

Staring down into my eyes

And I feel my heartbeat plummet

I hear the front door break

Or perhaps another bone

All I know is you left me here

For me to die alone

02.03.19

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Urgency

Hurry hurry

Come one and all

Let’s witness together

The towers fall

Watch her as

She tries her best

To stand up tall

And face the test

But not for long

And with a cry

The tower crashes

From the sky

Be cautious as

The ground will rumble

While glass and stone

Begin to crumble

Dust will rise

Up from the ground

The tower makes

It’s final sound

And as it falls

And hits the land

Glass will shatter

Back to sand

She lays there

On the dented Earth

Her pieces melding

To the turf

Though she tried

To stay upright

Her body couldn’t

Bear the fight

And so she let

Her stone relax

Let the foundation

Finally crack

Creations cycle

A certainty

From rotting flesh

Into a tree

So come and watch

A cycle end

And see it start up

Back again

01.31.19

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01.28.19

How tragic to realize

What had a chance to be

If only their eyes

Had not landed first on me

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Flicker

A simple certainty

Candles will eventually burn out

The wick just not enough

The flame dies

They will leave you

When you least expect it

And you, the burnt out wick

Will drown in the wax they leave

01.22.19

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“She looks me in the eyes

Tells me “you are home”

She doesn’t realize she’s lying

How can a home have been formed in a war zone?

Missiles flying back and forth

Launched over heads but inevitably landing

Not caring who hears

Constant gunfire with bullets of blame

Hitting anyone who steps in their path

Eventually stopping

Leaving a once beautiful place ruined, abandoned

No longer harboring it’s previous life and joy

I won’t let her say I’m a home

I won’t let that happen to her”

// I’m not a Home

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“The sun is coming

It’s all they say

I can’t see them, but I can hear them

Through my walls they chant

The sun is coming

The sun is coming

They don’t like that I don’t believe them

I have no reason to

The sun set when I was youthful

It’s rays enhancing a natural glow

But I’ve become withered

Cracked

My eyes lackluster

They seem to notice

They seem to be angry

At first I had hidden

Camouflaged in pale greys

Stagnant

But it seems they’ve finally found me

My paper thin body stuck in place

The sun isn’t coming

They are”

- 11:30 // They Feed Me Lies