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This might suck to hear, but if you're a people pleaser that is motivated by praise and avoids disagreements, you are easy to manipulate.

When I was in therapy after surviving years of domestic violence, my therapist had to tell me that my personality was primed for abuse and we needed to work on that so I would be better equipped to see the red flags and respond appropriately in the future.

I'm still working on this, and it's been 8 years. If you tell someone how you want to be treated, what behaviors you don't tolerate in your life, what you're looking for in that relationship, and they react negatively, don't compromise yourself. Just move on.

This one's for all the praise-kink girlies: differentiate, self-actualize, stay sexy

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Fruit bat noises, apparently. If you care

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I WISH THINGS HAD TURNED OUT DIFFERENTLY!!!!!!!!! goes to the supermarket

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"Butoh is not something you can do casually. The body must be in a constant state of change. I want the body to be reduced to a single core of spirit, to disappear, to be beautiful - even in contortion."- Yoko Ashikawa

Butoh: Body on the Edge of Crisis

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shakespeare wasn't lying that tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow can creep in this petty pace from day to day

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They’re distracting a nervous dog during a blood draw.

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shoutout to the most unhelpful reminder ive ever put into my phone

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the year was Two Thousand and twenty-four. I took a puff of my Electronic-Cigarette, inhaling the vapours. my mobile terminal buzzed in my pocket, a flat slab of microchips and glossy touchscreen. I ignored it....... probably another Electronic-Mail

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me with my quilava

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the whole point of a zine is that it's cheap to produce, amateur and homemade. if you're being asked to apply to participate in a print project, it is not a zine. if the final product is being printed and bound professionally, it is not a zine. if you are being asked to enter into any kind of licensing agreement more complex than "my work can be reproduced as part of this publication" it is not a zine. nine times put of ten if the final product costs more than $5 you have left zine country. im so serious about this.

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Julien Baker at Webster Hall, NYC 10/5/24, photographed by Christopher Hall

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So I was writing a small paper in Microsoft Word and the program suddenly crashed (I saved a couple minutes before, thank god) and I get this message in the corner of my screen two seconds afterward

what the fuck

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please, untitled document was my father, call me untitled document (1)

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Hisashi Tenmyouya — Flying Trapeze (acrylic, gold leaf, wood board, 1989)

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Me, plunking Stinky Bastard Man’s carrier on the counter: hi he’s here for shots and a nail trim and he’ll need to be sedated

Nurse: Are you sure? We can try-

Me: he needs to be sedated

Nurse: Well, it’ll take longer-

Me: he needs to be sedated, he will try to rip your face off

Nurse: Well we’ll try without first and we’ll let you know if we need to sedate

Me, watching her carry him away: you will need to sedate him

Nurse, coming back 10 minutes later clutching her hand: so, we will need to sedate him

Me:

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Hayv Kahraman aka هايف كهرمان (Iraqi-Kurdish, b. 1981, Baghdad, Iraq, based Los Angeles, CA, USA)Female Artists - Self Portrait, 2009, Paintings: Oil on Linen