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A big fear of mine is not engaging with art being the thing that makes me lose the status of artist. I simply do not know what to create. Other artists around me, every single one I've met seems to have this innate knowledge of what to make. I do not ever. Sometimes I wonder if I must be spoonfed a concept to engage with it.

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Hermeneutical justice

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No but seriously imagine it:

You’re seeing fall out boy on a concert. Everyone is having a great time. Fall out boy seem a little excited. “We have a surprise for you guys.” Partick says. All of a sudden P!ATD come out and start singing “this is gospel.” When Brendon gets to the chorus, someone else starts singing… “When I was a young boy my father took me into the city to see a marching band.” Lights flash everywhere, and you see FOB singing “this is gospel” along with P!ATD, while MCR is singing “Black parade”. Everyone in the crowd is going wild and crying. Then if things couldn’t get any better, Dan and Phil walk onto stage and kiss, holding the gay flag.

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I miss first year art (I absolutely don't want to go back there)

I miss the studio and how everything was new and everyone was so interesting and I had so much love in my heart for everyone I talked to.

I miss going about and talking to people about art and finally feeling challenged.

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I left university and like

I still have friends from there, but I missed a crucial step somewhere along the lines and now I'm in this weird limbo where they acknowledge my existence, but I'm not too sure whether they care about it.

And now I feel too intimidated to ask them like a fucking pussy hello could we maybe like hang out or something

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I think in uni, no one outright said it to my face, but I've reflected long enough to realise that people didn't really enjoy how hyperverbal I am and how often I used to talk about special interests.

I think people thought I was arguing a lot of the time and I wasn't aware, so I kept going. I also know now a lot of allistics thought what I was struggling with wasn't "that deep".

I somehow managed to completely isolate myself unintentionally, and I do think people used to talk behind my back. I'm not entirely sure why people didn't tell me why they disliked being around me, I guess they thought I'd realise sooner or later.

I had a really strong platonic love for my friends and a lot of them did some mean stuff to me, and I wasn't in the headspace to forgive them for a while. I kept having traumatic things happen to me and people got tired of hearing it.

It was honestly just really unfortunate that that happened to me.

But then why won't they try now? I'm not sure if other people see me as their friend.

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Rsd is stupid like omg we do not need to be upset about a random comment from a random person on the internet omg get a job.

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If you're eating naan bread and someone asks you whats going on, u can say something witty like "none of your businaans"

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autistic anger issues are So Much. i have my temper more under control now in that i rly dont yell/lash out anymore but i do regularly boil inside with incandescent uncontainable rage over something inconsequential and then it evaporates in the span of ten minutes. incomparable

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hey man can i come over and be sickly in the corner of your living room

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I got a haircut and I loved it but wasn't sure if it suited my face and then I posted some photos and every one of my art friends were immediately like "omg serveee" "omggg it suits u smmm" "Love the hair !!" Hahaha

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Posting to Tumblr for safekeeping. Wasn't sure if it would land well on LinkedIn.

A common issue I have faced when it comes to others giving me tasks is them not explaining them to me in literal terms, so when I do misinterpret a task, the feedback I get may look like:

"Well, if you have any questions, I encourage you to ask them before starting the task"

This is well intentioned, and encourages the person to reach out at the point of confusion, but it assumes that point of confusion was before the task began, when (speaking from my own perspective) it is often when the task is completed.

The thing is, I didn't have any questions. I did it exactly as it was explained to me, and yet somehow the fault is on me for not asking questions on something I genuinely thought I understood.

Taking things literally, or not seeing the implicit in explicit tasks is exactly why a reasonable accommodation would be to write the task out in a bullet point format in literal terms.

However, a lot of managers just do not know how to do this, because to them it is genuinely self explanatory. To be clear, that isn't a fault of their own.

We call this the Double Empathy Problem. a miscommunication has occured as a result of both parties being unable (or in some cases unwilling) to understand the others' perspective.

As for what a resolve for this would be, part of it will rely on your manager learning and understanding how you are interpreting tasks and recognising patterns where you often misinterpret things. You also can begin to notice patterns where your manager may not be elaborating on something that causes you to continue to get stuck. Then it is the job of you and the manager to work together to create a system that works for the both of you.

Undeniably, there are flaws in reasonable adjustments, which is why it is so important to treat it on a case by case basis.

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depthserious

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SPOILERS FOR PARANORMASIGHT IN VIDEO!

Another edit for the hyperfocus

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Literally stimulants

does anyone know how to do more than one task a day

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Song reminded me of her so I made a little edit

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oh cool that's it then we can all move on with our lives no need for any spiritual events or anything-

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