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out of all fandoms i been in orv had the best fics. its the 'kdj being pathetic wet man' i am aware i cannot get enough of it even though its been years.

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orv bookmark draws, pt. 4: conversations - chps 216 and 370 [parts 1 - 2 - 3]

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Love that there were times when kdj was like "hm this thing yjh did doesn't make sense with his character UNLESS he cares about me or something which I would not believe " but then it turns out there wasn't any special reason bro really just do care.

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do you all see my vision here

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^^^how Future Shin Yoosung looks in Little Shin Yoosung's mind. She is correct

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Doomed by the narrative.

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I love it when the unreliable narrator begins to trip and reveal the flaws in their story and themself. I cannot explain how much I adore them. The moment you realize that "wait, something is not right" and start to rethink the whole book is the absolute best thing to happen to you while reading. You just know the reread will be even better.

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49%

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my silly dokja and yjh used car salesman AU (for @jdlogbook ...!)

can't believe i drew this two years ago already... anyway i can finally post it cus leftovers are finally open etc yay..

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[[Warning! ORV Novel Spoilers up to Ch. 371 ahead.]]

some of kdj’s true voice novel moments

(chapter citations in alt)

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kdj shenanigans 😋

i drew that meme a while ago

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Hey, you know who dreamt of their boss getting tentacle'd by a monster and then getting mpreg?

Kim Dokja.

Kim Dokja did.

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The thing about Kim Dokja is that his 'salaryman normal guy' appearance is just as much a false persona as 'monstorous Demon King of Salvation' or 'calm and cool leader of kimcom'.

Despite what he tells us at the beginning (and since when do we take his narration as trustworthy?), he wasn't ever just a normal, boring person, despite his best efforts. He tells us the 'genre of his life' was 'Realism', but if a life could be said to have a genre, his was definitely 'True Crime'.

It's so interesting that even pre-scenarios, he thought of the world in the terms of 'genres' and the people around him as 'characters' (like Yoo Sangah) because of course he would! Even if we discount the way he spends all his time reading and how that shapes how he sees the world, he himself has been a character in his mother's novel and 'a character' is how people see him too. He says he read that novel a thousand times to try and understand his memories until he didn't know what was true anymore. He knows the character Kim Dokja too.

And everyone knew about his past.

Everywhere he went, he was 'the son of a murderer', someone to be gawked at and whispered about.

No one has ever seen him as 'just an average guy' because Underground Killer haunted him every step of the way. Reporters. At school. Even years later at the company he and Yoo Sangah worked at, the rumours of his past had spread (Yoo Sangah was one of the few people who didn't know).

The lack of privacy and stigma that has followed him everywhere is part of why he resents his mother for writing that novel.

Pre-scenarios, he is less similar to you and me than to the families of 'famous serial killers' that get podcasts and documentaries and books written about them and who's private lives are torn apart by media. I'm not naming names, but you already know them.

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I've said this before but I'll say it again: One of the best things about orv is how it shows you 'love'. Joonghyuk was the first one who cracked but ALL of them were capable of becoming insane just to bring dokja back. They love him in different ways, but with the same intensity. Thinking of eurydice and orpheus, actually, and how orpheus 'looked back'. They kept looking back. All of them. Because they love him, and having him even for a split second is better than nothing at all.

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There are three ways to survive in a ruined world. I have forgotten some of them now. However, one thing is certain:

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dance for the constellations

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Well, i finished it , it takes 8 hours of work and i really love it , hope you enjoy