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I wonder how it feels like to have three brilliant daughters...

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I feel like planning a wedding.

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those who have their birthday on:

1, 10, 19, 28: the sweetest people, the public adores them and it’s easy to see why, very happy and light, the most magnetic, gentle, easy to get along with, has a singular purpose, effortless, has a fresh kind of innocence, authentic, engaging, desires to learn more about the world, naturally shines brightly, slightly quirky, very popular, may seem simplistic but in actuality are quite complex, their brand of sensitivity is lovely, seductive, relatable, likeable, genuine, their charm and aura is like an electric light, very caring, very considerate, also stubborn and childish/childlike, quite fragile, needy and insecure, pioneers, beautiful souls, often iconic and legendary

2, 11, 20, 29: very sexy, tends to stand out, as calm and modest as they are fiery and intense, quietly powerful and influential, were more than likely bullied as kids, have anger issues, seems boring and are easily dismissed yet are the very ones you don’t want to sleep on, regal, machiavellian, standoffish, enigmatic, reclusive, inscrutable, hard to get to know completely, not easily understood, intellectuals, keeps to themselves, snobby, can be a bit sensitive, deep, introspective, often taken for granted, commands respect, can be totally heartless, sincere, mature and dignified, the most lovable, spontaneous, idiosyncratic, very individualistic, loyal, can be caring, doesn’t take shit from anyone, very charismatic and magnetic, can be very sweet, can be completely detached, cold, wicked, cruel, distant and aloof, very mean-spirited mainly just because they can be, funny, very mysterious and private, complex, turns their pain into something amazing, the toughest of them all

3, 12, 21, 30: very very creative, irreverent, nervous, edgy, can be quite bossy, great communicators, an original voice, exacting, their voice is often their instrument, can be loudmouths, can be a bit crazy, can come off a bit spoiled, also can be disrespectful, very deft with their words, often quite funny, demanding, distant, can get aggressive, irreverent, aggressive, controversial, super defensive, very rash and impulsive, very intelligent, private, idiosyncratic, often operates on the fringes of society, they make the shittiest bosses, always something up their sleeve, strong-willed, likes a challenge, combative, expressive, completely unsentimental, values freedom above all, imaginative, shrewd, cautious

4, 13, 22, 31: humanitarians, romantic, faithful, pragmatic, reserved, controversy always seems to surround them, critical, anxious, smart-mouthed yet very sensitive, proud, tries hard to be individualistic but in reality is just like everyone else, very shady, can be and is often very disrespectful, patronizing and egotistical, can be quite judgmental, always working, likes to one-up people, needs control and is often very self-controlled, often fake, passive-aggressive, very opportunistic and savvy, great at making friends, very contradictory and hypocritical, often very talented and hardworking, competitive, inspires others, wants to be known as kind and great in everyone’s eyes, often has hidden motives

5, 14, 23: creative, sociable, dramatic, comes off very confident and cocksure, exciting, tend to be misunderstood a lot, spoiled brats, lively, strong-willed, calculating, in your face, shady, childish, unfriendly, con artists, pretentious, likes to seem omnipotent, petty, deeply insecure, delusions of grandeur, perceptive, arrogant, touchy, a bit obnoxious, capricious, volatile, unstable, uninhibited; insincere, condescending, blunt, sharp tongued and are more often than not the biggest assholes yet funnily enough are quite sensitive (almost hypersensitive), are usually mean because they’ve been hurt, defensive, intense, very reactionary, go-getters, often very popular for whatever reason, can be sexy, tightly wound yet carefree, hypocritical, doesn’t know the meaning of boundaries, crazy, very high maintenance, lucky in life but unlucky in love

6, 15, 24: the nicest and most relatable and likeable people, fascinating, can be a bit insecure, knows how to live life well, passionate, admirable, generous, driven, not concerned with conventions, can be offensive, as laid-back as they are motivated, can be mean, things just seem to fall in place for these people, has their fingers in every pot, open- minded, great to be friends with, nothing slows them down, loves a good time, lives life to the fullest, blunt and authentic, non-judgmental, might not be the luckiest when it comes to love but hands down the absolute luckiest when it comes to life

7, 16, 25: strong, spiky, has been through a lot, hard-edged yet secretly has a heart of gold, often geniuses, talented, keeps their cool, as immature as they are mature, rebellious, fighters, not concerned with the opinion of others, marches to the best of their own drummer, also judgmental, curious, overlooked often, individualistic, adventurous, opinionated, quite realistic, has strong self-respect, poetic, likes to push people’s buttons, tough to pin down, moody, very knowing, always keeps others on their toes, no-nonsense, distrustful of others, says they don’t like drama but secretly live for it, totally respected, they ooze sex, what you see isn’t necessarily what you get

8, 17, 26: bosses, commanding, assertive, grandiose, has a very wide reach, imaginative, never boring, vain, self-confident, very very popular and well-liked and it’s easy to see why; very influential, creative, visionaries, future-minded, doesn’t have to try too hard, talented, tends to exaggerate a lot, tells great stories, selfish, excellent at their craft, widely respected, unique, brave, also very dramatic and intense but nobly so, specializes in living in a fantasy world, creates controversy, dynamic, also very iconic and legendary

9, 18, 27: very original, big humanitarians, innovative, imaginative, takes a lot of shit but is strong enough to handle it, pioneers, idealistic, soft and sensitive, often can’t control themselves, believes in love almost to the detriment of logic, moves on well, generous, can be irritating, protective, easily hurt, likes to be in everyone’s business, also very sharp-tongued, can be more than a bit corny but usually means well, complicated yet straightforward, surprisingly self-aware, entertaining, tries to do the right thing, often comes off as a martyr, very spiritual/religious, believes in things like fate and soulmates, believes that tomorrow is another day

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What exactly are you doing to keep this relationship from falling apart?

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The best place in the world is in the arms of someone who will not only hold you at your best, but will also pick you up and hug you tight at your weakest moment.

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darling, your diploma, career, and money will never wake up one day and decide to leave you.

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actual life goals

graduate with latin honors

enter stock exchange while studying

have a medical license

work with World Health Organization

establish a school with foreign curriculum

enter green energy business

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all the lines that make up you and me

song lyrics that reflect the unspoken words between you and me

1. When You Say Nothing At All. (Ronan Keating)

without saying a word, you can light up the dark; the smile on your face lets me know that you need me there’s a truth in your eyes saying you’ll never leave me

2. At the Beginning. (Christy Altomare, Derek Klena) *

no one told me, i was going to find you unexpected, what you did to my heart; i’ll be there when the world stops turning i’ll be there when the storm is through in the end i want to be standing at the beginning with you

3. Can’t Help Falling in Love. (Haley Reinhart)

wise men says only fools rush in, would it be a sin? take my hand, take my whole life too if i can’t help falling in love with you

4. The Cure. (Lady Gaga)

may not have the fancy things but i'll give you everything you could ever want, it's in my arms; i will be right by your side i’ll fix you with my love, and if you say you're okay i'm gonna heal you anyway promise i'll always be there promise i'll be the cure

5. Rewrite the Stars. (Zac Efron, Zendaya)

all i want is to fly with you all i want is to fall with you so just give me all of you; nothing can keep us apart ‘cause you are the one i was meant to find; and why don’t me rewrite the stars change this world to be ours

6. Call It What You Want. (Taylor Swift) **

my baby's fit like a daydream walking with his head down i'm the one he's walking to; all the drama queens taking swings all the jokers dressing up as kings they fade to nothing when I look at him; and i know i make the same mistakes every time bridges burn, i never learn; starry eyes sparkin' up my darkest night i want to wear his initial on a chain round my neck not because he owns me but 'cause he really knows me

7. As Long As You’re Mine. (Wicked: Laura Osnes, Aaron Tveit) *

my wildest dreamings could not foresee lying beside you, with you wanting me

8. Best Mistake. (Ariana Grande)

cause if the water dries up and the moon stops shining stars fall, and the world goes blind boy, you know i'll be saving my love for you

9. Way Back Into Love. (Hugh Grant, Haley Bennett)

i can't make it through without a way back into love and if i open my heart again i guess i'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

10. You & I. (One Direction)

we don't wanna be like them we can make it 'til the end nothing can come between you and i not even the Gods above can separate the two of us

11. Endless Love. (Lionel Richie, Diana Ross)

your eyes tell me how much you care i’ll be a fool for you, i’m sure ‘cause you mean the world to me

12. You’re The Reason. (Victoria Justice)

have i told you lately that i love you, you're the only reason that i'm not afraid to fly and it's crazy that someone could change me now no matter what it is i have to do, i'm not afraid to try and you need to know that you're the reason why

13. Half a Heart. (One Direction)

i’ve been sleeping in your shirt because i can’t stop missing you; and being here without you is like waking up to only half a blue sky kinda there but not quite walking around with just one shoe i'm half a heart without you

14. Hello. (Lea Michele, Jonathan Groff) *

i've been alone with you inside my mind and in my dreams I've kissed your lips a thousand times; sometimes i feel my heart will overflow

15. Perfect. (Ed Sheeran)

we are still kids, but we're so in love fighting against all odds; darling, just kiss me slow, your heart is all I own and in your eyes you're holding mine; dancing in the dark, with you between my arms barefoot on the grass, listening to our favorite song; and maybe i don’t deserve you, because you’re too perfect for me

16. I’d Rather. (Luther Vandross) **

i'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else i'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself i'd rather have hard times together than to have it easy apart i'd rather have the one who holds my heart

17. Infinity. (One Direction)

how many nights does it take to count the stars? that's the time it would take to fix my heart

18. When We Were Young. (Adele)

'cause you feel like home you're like a dream come true

19. Home. (Reese Lansangan)

my bones are safe and my heart can rest knowing it belongs to you

20. It Will Rain. (Bruno Mars)

there'll be no sunlight if i lose you, baby there'll be no clear skies if I lose you, baby just like the clouds, my eyes will do the same, if you walk away, everyday it will rain

21. Nothing’s Gonna Stop Us Now. (Starship) **

i'm so glad i found you, i'm not gonna lose you whatever it takes, i will stay here with you take you to the good times, see you through the bad times whatever it takes is what i'm gonna do; and we can build this dream together standing strong forever nothing's gonna stop us now and if this world runs out of lovers we'll still have each other

22. Valentine. (Jim Brickman, Martina McBride) **

even if the sun refused to shine even if romance ran out of rhyme you would still have my heart until the end of time you're all I need, my love, my valentine

23. If You’re Not the One. (Daniel Bedingfield) **

i never know what the future brings, but i know you are here with me now, we'll make it through, and i hope you are the one i share my life with

24. Sparks Fly. (Taylor Swift)

drop everything now meet me in the pouring rain kiss me on the sidewalk take away the pain 'cause i see sparks fly whenever you smile

25. Di Makatulog. (Sud)

ang panalangin ko ako sana ang iniisip mo bago pumikit ang iyong mata

* listen to this exact version, I like it and I really want you to hear it

** makes me cry every time I think of you while listening to it

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not able to accomplish everything but I guess 10 out of 18 is good enough

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Things I Will Do on my Own This Year

1. Exercise more.

2. Eat out alone.

3. Watch a movie.

4. Travel.

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Stress Triggers

1. Time

2. Being unable to express thoughts and opinions