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Wednesday, June 21

Love makes even the smartest of people stupid.

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11:55pm || Sunday July 30, 2023

I gave you a second chance. Like running back into a burning house to save everything I’ve ever loved.

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4:38am || Monday July 28, 2023

I will get coked out of my mind and kiss strangers & stay up all night with people who aren’t my friends.

I will break down on the bathroom floor but I will drown in my own misery before I ever reach for you again.

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February 18, 2024 || 2:41pm

Thank you for accepting who I’ve been, loving who I am, and staying to see who I am becoming.

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11:08pm || February 12, 2024

I love you.

& yes I’m drunk.

but I loved you yesterday, and the day before.

And I’ll love you when I wake up in the morning even

more.

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Thursday, June 22

Months went by. It was only June.

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Wednesday June 28th, 2023

“Where have you been my whole life?”

“Lost.”

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Friday August 11, 2023 || 8:24pm

You see people wishing on birthday candles & wishing on shooting stars that the ones they loved will come back. I wish I knew that feeling and the poetry behind it. I hold them outside of my heart and don’t wish they come back. Everyone I’ve ever loved has let go and as I grow there is no yearning for the ones that didn’t love me the same way I loved them. People like me don’t have people there for them, we are the people that are there for others.

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I used to wonder why they never stayed.

Til I grew up and realized it’s just God keeping the wolves away.

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We gave each other panic attacks and called it love.

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2:16pm || February 26, 2020

Momma warned me about drugs in the streets but never the ones with hazel-green eyes and a heart beat.

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4:52pm || February 28, 2020

& Karma said, “You’ll fall for someone who won’t love you because you didn’t love someone who fell for you.”

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12:16am || March 27, 2019

You told me watch what I eat it’ll catch up to me, so I stopped eating even when I was hungry.

You told me I need to get over it and it’s all in my head, so I just stopped talking instead.

You told me you yell out of love, which taught me to confuse anger with kindness. So I grew up to trust men who hurt me, leaving me heartless.

at least it’s something to write about.

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7:28pm || April 13, 2020

When my momma asks

what’s wrong I just tell

her I’m tired and I don’t feel well because that’s not too

far off and I don’t have the heart

to tell the beautiful human being that gave me life

that I don’t want it anymore.

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7:47pm || April 22, 2020

“You don’t ask people with knives in their stomachs what would make them happy, happiness is no longer relevant. It’s all about survival; it’s all about whether you pull the knife out and bleed to death or keep it in & wait it out....” and I wish you’d remember that when you look away and tell me to just be happy.

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4:21am || May 6, 2020

I haven’t been myself for quite a while

but nobody’s noticed.

Even the ones I hold closest.

Singing a silent eulogy

for a word wrapped coffin.

I hope you’ll think of me often.

Bury me in an unmarked grave

Because nobody cares unless

you are pretty or dead

so until then,

I’ll suffer in silence.

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11:43pm || May 20, 2023

They say no rest for the wicked,

When I close my eyes

everything is always so vivid.

Sleep is for the weak

But I’ve been sleeping for weeks

just trying to find peace.

Wake me up when April ends.