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When creators of a cartoon band of heroes run out of ideas, you can always count on a new character in the shape of a baby or a puppy to show up - that's why I introduce you to Belzebaby, whom Mara and Marout found in a cabbage that they bought on a flea market (on the flea market at Koło for eight złoty to be precise). Now every parent watching the series with their youngest can identify with the side-splitting adventures of Belzebaby.*

*Belzebaby isn't an official part of the plot of Carnality of Heart. Dolls and sets sold separately.

First artwork drawn on 24.09-11.10.24.

Second artwork drawn on 11-13.10.24.

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As mentioned previously, I have a huge artblock for the last month, which is especially burning since I'm trying to make a whole finished comic for my college diploma. It's supposed to be four little erotic stories from Carnality of Heart that are meant to be understood without knowing the whole picture, which turned out to be more damning than I thought. The first story features Scarlett as the protagonist, as it's supposed to start on Earth and then go down to Hell in subsequent chapters, but guess what! I have no Scarlett to speak of as a finished concept - she's still somewhere between me trying to make her a realistic, relatable character and not knowing what the fuck to do with her. I tried to figure out why I don't really like drawing her instead of other OCs and I came to the obvious conclusion... she's not cool enough. When I created her back in 2008 she was a half-doll, half-human, cyber-goth-uzi-akimbo-wielding-killer (as mentioned in this post), and now she's just an angry lesbian. So I though - why limit myself to what's believable in the current setting, when I can go off into the wild, like I was designing a demon or a fakemon (lol)? It won't be the actual end design, but something I can take from when thinking up the actual thing. So I did. I took from her original design and what would be fun for me to draw and went to town. Oh, and I gave her claws for some reason, don't mind that.

My first take on Scarlett was more important than it seems, as it was actually the first character created for this universe. Next followed Alexis and then Marout, so I think it would be disrespectful to just abandon her and make her boring. Thus, my journey continues.

New version drawn on 25.02-10.03.24.

Old version drawn on 26-28.07.08.

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On the eighth of February I had a vivid dream of a race of frog-like people called the dry lizards (suche jaszczurki). I tried to be mindful when asking them about their tribe, because I knew other people tended to bother them with insensitive questions. They showed me their eldest grandmother, which was buried in a tube under the sand, but she immediately crumbled in my hand. Meanwhile a new dry lizard was being born, but it turned out it looked old from the start, because the beings only lived for one day.

I've never been able to capture a dream accurately, but despite this I decided to try to illustrate it to combat my recent art block. I'm also uploading it here in case I decide to incorporate these creatures into my story later on.

First illustration drawn on 14-20.02.24.

Second illustration drawn on 27.02-05.03.24.

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On 19th of December I finished therapy. It took me and my therapist six years to sort through my borderline ass, but we finally came to an end, altough not an end to my self-improvement as a whole, obviously. If I include previous therapists, I started over ten years ago when I landed in a psych ward, so it's been a long road, but every bit as worth it as it could be. I gave my therapist, which I thank greatly, a copy of Oekaki Zine, which contained an old portrait of Marout and Mara from 2014 along with this little drawing, which (as she said) in comparison shows my maturation and peace within. I still have to take meds, but I'm beginning a new chapter of my life. I will forever be grateful for the Care, Love and Attention that I received during these past six years. Thank you.

Drawn on 18-19.12.23.

The old artwork from back when I used to draw with a mouse to hide my low self esteem (lol):

Drawn on 14.08-14.09.14.

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Ananta Ananta is a death and a member of a secret society called Hapax Legomenon, mysteriously tied to Lessex.

Drawn on 27-29.11.23.

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Last old sketch for now (bonus one on my Instagram). A younger Spica, after becoming a Centurion.

Drawn on 03-10.10.21.

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Continuing with the theme of old drawings that haven't seen the light of day yet, Mara pulling Marout's hand to show him something, I guess.

Drawn on 03-08.10.21.

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It's hard for me to believe how long ago have I finished anything related to my OCs. Unfortunately this little sketch is not new at all, I just didn't upload it anywhere before and am doing so now to fill the page with something "fresh". I hope I can show up with something good in the following months, because I'm working on serious stuff right now.

Drawn on 03.10.21.

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Marout awaiting execution for the crime of getting in contact with Nefilim.

Drawn on 26-29.03.21.

[BGM - Get You Closer]

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“Ty i ja” / “You and me” / “Du und ich”

This is an assignment I got from my painting classes professor. I did the sketches on the eighth and added colours on the 29th of January. The last two works changed meaning in an interesting way after colouring, which was a product of pure intuitiveness and not much thinking; I’ll leave the interpretation to the viewers.

Cocteau Twins’ music inpiring each piece:

1. [BGM - Those Eyes, That Mouth]

2. [BGM - Seekers Who Are Lovers]

3. [BGM - Serpentskirt]

4. [BGM - When Mama Was Moth]

5. [BGM - In Our Angelhood]

Drawn on 08-29.01.21.

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This was actually finished in a day a week ago, I just made a few tweaks here and there tonight. A typical psychedelic portrait with stupid cat mugs in the background.

Drawn on 15-23.01.21.

[BGM - Bentley]

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“Choroba” / "Sickness” / “Krankheit”

Tragedy bound to happen...

First artwork that got two main themes, but this one is very important to me. Please listen to them while looking at the full size version, then you may understand.

Drawn on 23-27.11.20.

[BGM - 絶彩] OR [BGM - Memento]

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"MÓJ WOJOWNIK” / “MY WARRIOR” / “MEIN KRIEGER”

Marout met Ammen while fleeing from persecution from Germany to England. Ammen was assigned to him to protect him from harm. At that time Marout was still slowly changing his appearance to a more demonic one - it happened subconsciously, which is possible only in Hell. Both of them instantly became attracted to each other and began their sexual relationship, which ended just as quickly as it started, as Ammen had to relocate on another mission. He was a soldier after all...

Second artwork I finished in CLIP STUDIO PAINT PRO, this time testing its oil brush. I painted it on one layer to achieve a more natural look, even though the brush is pretty primitive.

Drawn on 11-22.11.20.

[BGM - My Warrior]

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"DO WSZYSTKICH WOJOWNIKÓW!” / “TO ALL WARRIORS!” / “AN ALLE KRIEGER!”

First artwork I finished in CLIP STUDIO PAINT PRO!

Drawn on 25.10-10.11.20.

[BGM - An alle Krieger!]

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Namonaki fighting with Gnat’s bone collectors during a hunt for fallen angels. The former try to disrupt the latter and find safe hiding spots to bring suspects to.

Drawn on 10.09.20.

[BGM - Tony Williams Deathspace]

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Gnat, his howls and deep, guttural voice sending chills down everyone’s spines.

Seriously - pair this one with the music I linked, it hits much better that way, I promise.

Drawn on 18-19.08.20.

[BGM - Wolf Totem]

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I have a ton of these horny pin-up sketches with Marout lying around and I wanted to transform this one into something a little more ambitious (still kind of a horny pin-up tho), so I chose a song that has inspiring enough lyrics and didn’t care about its sound so much in relation to the artwork. It’s about stage persona and being unsure about life satisfaction related to it. I then drew Marout in his Black Viper suit which was pretty challenging! It doesn’t look perfect, but for my abilities right now it’s satisfying.

Drawn on 07.07-14.08.20.

[BGM - Are You Satisfied?]