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Some parents will never forgive you for how they failed you

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Come on man you can’t make me read about such an emotional topic and then throw that picture into the slide

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Stephanie Foo, What My Bones Know: A Memoir of Healing from Complex Trauma

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ahhhh so the guilt is NOT supposed to be neverending and haunting and constant and persisting beyond a doubt over even the most menial of things that i would not be upset at someone else for. i understand now.

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Lost time and came back feeling headachey and tearful. Disoriented too. Feel not connected to anything, maybe small residual feelings

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getting murdered but it's so traumatic i repress the memory and only actually die years later during hypnotherapy

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Panic doesn’t always cause screaming, crying, running away or other obvious signs of distress.

It’s an extreme fear response - which may be significantly altered by many factors, such as if a person has been threatened or punished for having emotional responses or “inappropriate” facial expressions.

A person may seem calmer, or intensely submissive. They may be silent, even to the point of seeming catatonic.

It’s not your place to decide something isn’t a panic attack, when a person has told you it is.

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being chronically pain fucked is really fucking cramping my style

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no one:

my ocd at any given point:

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I cannot believe I just read “Jaqueline Wilson is problematic because she glamourised foster care” as if the foster home she wrote about wasn’t literally called The Dumping Ground and her books are some of the only child friendly books that acknowledge the trauma of the foster care system.

Idk about that person but as someone who was a deeply traumatised child in the foster care system her books were important representation and are still close to my heart ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

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I love a character raised to be a weapon as much as the next guy. But what really gets me is a character raised to be a shield. Who can’t fathom being needed—or even being wanted— beyond keeping others safe. Who believe they are alive only to insure someone doesn’t die. no matter the cost. Characters who self-sacrifice not because they think they deserve it, but because no one else does deserve it, and it’s their job to protect.

Characters who’ve been told that’s why your important. Your worth something because this other person/ thing is important, and you are here solely to keep them safe.

Bonus points if it’s not a legitimate job they’ve been given. Maybe at one point it was, but now that they are free from it, they haven’t given up that mentality. No one is forcing or asking them to do this, but they need to. They need to in order to be deserving.

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We should probably normalize not knowing information about your system like what an alter's role is, total alter count, who is fronting, etc, since that is actually very normal.

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Even if you were a difficult child, you didn't deserve to be hurt.

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this is just a bunch of text and barely a comic sorry, but i really wanted to talk about this stuff even if i don't have the energy to properly draw

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Honestly it boils down to reparenting yourself & rewiring your own neuronal pathways & telling yourself a firm “stop” when you notice your mind slipping down negative loopholes & being present in the moment & enjoying being mid task rather than waiting for it to end & not thinking of inertia as your baseline and natural way of living

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99% of "mysterious disappearances" esp of people in their 20s who start acting weird for 48 hours and then vanish are not mysterious, thats just when a lot of reality-obliterating mental illness tends to kick in and it's pretty easy to get a short circuit in your brain that makes you go family guy death pose in joshua tree national park. it's not any less tragic, it's just a documented phenomenon and not particularly predictable. its a big reason the medical advice is for people with a family history of schizophrenia to completely avoid weed and psychedelics. "people just go crazy sometimes" is a principle of human health that used to be a lot more accepted prior to the american midcentury and to a certain extent thats a healthier way to conceptualize and prepare for the risk, as opposed to the modern assertion that anyone acting weird is dangerous and broken forever.

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No, ocd isnt about this

Its about THIS