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fish and lures

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national treasure Christopher Diaz

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and what if they pull a janine and gregory in the finale of season 2 on buck and eddie? what if they know they like each other but then just decide they are "not ready for it" yet? then what? who is gonna pine more and who will be unnecessarily reckless because life has no meaning without everything of the other?

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Ermmm more little guys!

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3 minutes and 17 seconds

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personally i’m a fan of when a story is like. the love was there. unfortunately. this all could have actually gone a lot easier for everyone if the love hadn’t been there but here we are

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it would be soooo funny if at some point they had an emergency at the abc studios. just let some random actors get cameos as themselves. have someone mention that athena reminds them of someone they know but they can't quite put their finger on it. imagine all the possibilities. make the whole thing very meta, let them see the set of the fire station and be like wait i know this place. it would be soooo cool, trust me. i honestly just need a reason to see "amelia shepherd" and buck on my screen together like give me an emergency at the set of grey's with them being all like we know how to act like doctors but we surely are not real doctors. anything, please

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buck and eddie should get to cage match each others’ parents it would be so cathartic to them. helena and ramon do their over the top dramatics and yelling and instead of doing them at eddie, who shuts down, buck puffs himself up and yells back. and eddie is doing cunt bitch fake polite insults with buck’s parents, in a way buck never could, and is destroying their souls that way. it really would be so perfect

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ok so here is my pitch for my dream buddie catalyst:

eddie and maddie are trapped in some sort of likely-fatal time sensitive situation together (drowning related probably because it's Them) (have they overused it yes is it still thematically appropriate YES) where one person could potentially sacrifice themselves for the other to survive. i want eddie and maddie using their combined experience and ingenuity to survive together and discussing who should be prioritized which means they talk about parenthood and how they both feel they've failed their children by "running," how their lives have been so defined by trauma and they don't want to scar their children any further by leaving them again. of course they're doing everything they can to get out together, but as the situation deteriorates throughout the episode(s) (c'mon something like this could be at LEAST a two-parter) they can't help returning periodically to the world's most morbid debate.

i want buck and chim on the outside both going out of their goddamn minds. they know that eddie and maddie are stuck (wherever), know that they're probably alive, but aren't sure in what condition and if they'll stay that way. rescue operations begin as everybody walks on eggshells around buck and tries to comfort chim, who wants absolutely none of it. time is running out.

eddie says that he couldn't possibly let maddie sacrifice herself for him and look buck and chim in the eye afterwards. maddie says that she couldn't do that either. she says that at least jee-yun would still have her father, and eddie says that christopher would still have buck. maddie says that of course none of them would just abandon christopher if something were to happen to him but—

and eddie cuts her off and says it's in my will. if i die, christopher will have buck. buck will have christopher.

they just look at each other for a weighted moment. maddie makes a decision. she says ...i meant it, you know. that i couldn't let you die down here (wherever here is i don't KNOW okay i'm not here to think up convoluted emergencies i'm here for drama) and look my baby brother in the eye knowing that i could have changed it. eddie says i know, okay, but it's different, you're his sister, and maddie says, yeah, but you're his... and she pauses. and eddie says what? best friend? partner? that doesn't—

and maddie says you're his. eddie, you're his.

and eddie... i want to see something slot into place. i want to watch him understand as maddie spills everything she's been suspecting since the day that buck came out to her and maybe since before she and eddie even met. maddie says you know, when i first came to california, you were all he talked about? you're still all he talks about. you and christopher. you're his. i couldn't... eddie, you're out of your mind if you really don't think that losing you would break him just as much as losing me. he would forgive us both, because he's buck, but i couldn't... i'm no saint, eddie, i want to survive. i don't want my daughter to grow up without me. but i can't do that to him. i don't know if he'd survive it. even if he did, the guilt would eat me alive.

meanwhile. buck is barely holding on to his sanity as rescue efforts are underway and time is running out. chimney is keeping it together as best he can but there isn't much that he and buck can do. he can't let himself fall apart because buck is already a stiff breeze away from clawing his own skin off and somebody has to keep their cool. something goes wrong—suddenly, their short amount of time has gotten shorter, and they may only have enough of a window to get one out before it's too late for the other. buck, who has been ranting and arguing and screaming this whole time... is silent. he is silent, and he stares straight ahead at nothing in particular, and we know that no matter which way the scales tip, his soul will be destroyed all the same.

eddie regards maddie for a moment. grief, heartbreak, anger, all flicker over him, but what settles is determination. he says that neither of them are going to leave again. that they'll survive together, or not at all, or leave it to the universe to decide.

of course they make it out. by the skin of their teeth, they make it out, working together, clawing their way back to life and love and possibility. maddie makes it out first, and eddie sees buck as she falls into chim's waiting arms. he watches as buck sees his sister, and reaches out to take her hand with trembling fingers and white knuckles, but there is no relief, no happiness in his red-rimmed eyes. just a deep, unspeakable grief, until his eyes slide past maddie and meet eddie's.

finally: relief. and then he is in buck's arms, a perfect parallel to chim and maddie, and we see eddie's face over buck's shoulder, and we know. he is in love, and buck is in love, and eddie knows, and he sinks into his partner's embrace with joy and acceptance.

after that, who knows? maybe a grand confession. a moment of quiet understanding. a passionate post-rescue kiss. a chaste, tender kiss in some kitchen or other. maybe eddie panics later, or maybe he's found peace for once. maybe buck has realized something and he makes the first move. maybe it happens immediately. maybe it takes a while, takes discussions about how it'll affect work and christopher and whether it's worth risking all that they have for all that they want.

and maybe they'll ask whether it's even a risk at all.

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if buck realized he was in love with eddie he would white knuckle it through one shift with him while acting So Weird the whole time and then throw up from guilt, cry on maddie’s couch and show up to eddie’s house unannounced an hour later to confess to him in his kitchen

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when your mutual reblogs something with a full page of tags its like. girl (gender neutral) i am filling my mug with coffee and reading this like the morning paper. i am so interested in your thoughts on this post. i love you.

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It’s so cute when people u love give u a nickname that only they use

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whats fascinating about the buckeddie coming out scene is that unlike with maddie eddie asks like. no follow up questions. crucially he doesn’t ask if this is new for buck? which is wild. because that implies eddie thinks (knows) buck has been attracted to men and this is just the first time they’re openly discussing it. there’s awkwardness and fumbling but there’s no surprise. he’s literally more surprised that tommy is gay than buck. in buck’s eyes he’s telling him new information and in eddie’s eyes he’s just finally bringing up something eddie thought they’d agreed not to talk about.

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me (an adult): yeah I’m thinking about running away

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TAYLOR SWIFT THE ERAS TOUR - Munich, Germany Night 1 (July 27th, 2024)

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"stop speaking like you're superior" do you know how much more agile your brain is when you're bisexual?