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eating disorders are so fucking unserious like yeah this week i'm doing the jesse pinkman diet. yeah from breaking bad. this could kill me one day btw

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When you feed yourself, you're also feeding the demon in your head. The one that tells you how gross and disgusting you are. It absorbs the candy and Junk you shove down your throat.

When you ⭐️ve yourself, that's when your fuel you're inner beauty. All the water you drink instead of food. She will tell you how good you're doing and that you're so close to being perfect.

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it’s not fair that you’re competing with me you fucking cunt you’re taller and already skinnier than me and your bmi is already underweight and i ONLY JUST stopped being overweight you don’t understand what it’s fucking like to ACTUALLY struggle with food all you do is take your dogs out for walks and skip lunch when i skip and you get to be skinnier from that cause you already have a PERFECT FUCKING METABOLISM that acts EXACTLY the way you need it to and if you ate 800 cals every day for a week you’d drop a clothes size while ID GO UP and it’s NOT FUCKING FAIR THAT YOURE COMPETING WITH ME!!!!!! WHY ARENT YOU HAPPY ENOUGH WITH ALREADY BEING THIN YOU STUPID FUCKING CUNT

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Sometimes I think I can only be healthy when I have ana, like I'm trying to practice self love saying nice things about myself, journaling, going for walks, and taking more time for myself like it's only food and my body that I dislike and I don't hate my body I just hate the fat coating it I'm doing this so I can shine not rot 🩷🩷

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Reblog if you’re looking for 3d moots this February!!!

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I am my own worst enemy. My biggest saboteur. I need to be on my own team for once.

Why do I always sabotage myself once I start seeing results???

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Me too

I’ll take the pain of starving over the pain of pure regret and shame I feel for gaining back weight and binging so much.

I could have been at or almost at my ugw by now but no, I decided to be a fat greedy pig and get in my own way.

Not one calorie I’ve consumed entered my body without consent.

This time I am not stopping until I reach my ugw. No matter what/how long it takes.

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thin is in.

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WHY CANT I EVER FUCKKNG REMEMBER THIS

Staying under my limit >>>> short term gratification from a binge

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ED movies & tv shows to watch⭐️🫶🏼⭐️🫶🏼⭐️

MOVIES:

• For The Love of Nancy (1994)

• When friendship kills (1996)

• The Perfect Body (1997)

• Girl Interrupted (1999)

• Sharing the Secret (2000)

• Huger Point (2004)

• Emma Wants to Live (2004)

• Maledimiele (2004) about mia

• Thin (2006)

• Feed (2007)

• Starving in Suburbia (2014) *called Thinspiration on Tubi!!*

• God Help the Girl (2014)

• My Skinny Sister (2015)

• To the Bone (2017)

• Feed (2017)

• The Brief Life of Catherine (2019)

TV SHOWS:

• Everything Now

• Heartstopper

• Pretty Little Liars

• Red Band Society

• Skins UK

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Repost if you're locking in and getting serious this February 💌.ᡣ𐭩˚ྀིྀིྀིྀིྀིྀིྀིྀི

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New ED achievement unlocked: just shit my pants. Thanks laxatives

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kind of thinking of not restricting so hard. i just fear another binge episode. undid all my progress and i don't wanna yoyo forever. i don't know if i wanna be sick

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Little miss expects to b 45kgs after a week of restriction 🥲

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Food log:

Breakfast

2 eggs, low cal toast, smart balance =218

Lunch

Shrimp and konjac noodles =196

Dinner

Protein muffin =200

Snacks

Apple =78

yasso bar =100

Total =792

45 min elliptical

15000 steps

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i love the feeling of drinking diet coke on a completely empty stomach. it's so filling idk.

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next time i wanna binge i'm gonna make myself write a pro con list so i have to stop and actually think. my problem is my impulsivity. but right now i'm 7 days without binging so yay me