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There's a moment I think about every now and then. It was a month or two ago when I joined in a vrchat meetup where most of the people were new to me. Obviously, some people made sex jokes and things of the sort throughout the day. Specifically though, one person made a joke about jacking off, I don't remember what it was, but I just remember they looked over at me and said something about "or whatever girls do." Now, me being a trans girl, some random person gendering me correctly without any second thought has just stuck with me ever since.

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I've literally had this same thing happen to me. There's been times where I'm home alone and feeling kinda sad and just slumping around. Then my birds start being more talkative than usual(we have 5 birds) which actually helps raise my mood a bit every time!

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You know you've got a gold friend when they message you at 9am with pictures of birds, just making fun of how long their legs are

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Sitting here on my campus between classes with a small cup of microwave mac n cheese. Crying while i read through all of the news and posts for the 4th straight hour.

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this pic from my biology textbook is way funnier than it needs to be

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I think I've started to realized in the last few months that I have a higher level of reading or like understanding stories than most people. Like, I'm sitting in my Research Paper class and we're discussing a book and the professor and some other people are talking like the ideas and meanings of the chapters aren't obvious. Maybe I just have a bit of an ego with this, but idk. Same sorta thing happened with Helluva Boss when a bunch of people started calling Stolas hypocritical, as if they skipped a number of the episodes and ignored the time that passes between the episodes.

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fear

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reading late at night is always such a gamble, at least with one certain fan fic. Its like a 50/50 whether I'm gonna finish reading it and be happy and fulfilled, or if I'll be an emotional mess worried about if I'm gonna ruin every relationship I have. Somehow, it feels like its what I need.

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Know Your Northern Cardinals.

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wtf i got out of bed and it wasn’t raining so i said “rain now!” and snapped my fingers and it immediately started raining

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do you ever have so many things you want to tell someone, things like how much they mean to you, how much you enjoy spending time with them, how you lo but its just so hard to form the sentences in a way where you feel satisfied with how they might hear it and you don't want to overstep yourself if they don't catch you because of the shock or that its just not the right time

maybe I'll just end up saying everything the next time I'm drunk and just pray that its not ruined

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its so cool seeing my friends' band Bejalvin be successful. I remember hanging out with them while they released their first album and now they have done a performance with Femtanyl in front of a huge audience. I really hope they continue to find success like that have been, even if that means they don't really talk to me anymore, they deserve it.

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its like everyone finds someone else to grab onto and then they grow wings and fly away. But I've had people grab onto me, and they grow wings, but no matter how hard I try, I can't. Something that looks so effortless and cathartic for others is impossible for me. Holding back the people I care for as they get weighed down by me, just hoping my wings will grow.

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my heart is caged in ice too cold to be thawed out no matter how hot another heart may burn my heart will always be caged in ice

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Its always nice finding a little corner of the internet that still feels like its "old internet" like a little website someone made or a web comic that's made just for the passion. It feels like most of the internet is so commercialized or open to the public now that so much of it has lost its personality, so its nice to know that there are still some parts that are just nice and cozy :3

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I think, if I ever went on a proper date with someone, no matter how much I enjoyed it, I'd have no other choice but to run away and never talk to them again

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sketches on the trails with my partner