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this pic from my biology textbook is way funnier than it needs to be

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I think I've started to realized in the last few months that I have a higher level of reading or like understanding stories than most people. Like, I'm sitting in my Research Paper class and we're discussing a book and the professor and some other people are talking like the ideas and meanings of the chapters aren't obvious. Maybe I just have a bit of an ego with this, but idk. Same sorta thing happened with Helluva Boss when a bunch of people started calling Stolas hypocritical, as if they skipped a number of the episodes and ignored the time that passes between the episodes.

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fear

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reading late at night is always such a gamble, at least with one certain fan fic. Its like a 50/50 whether I'm gonna finish reading it and be happy and fulfilled, or if I'll be an emotional mess worried about if I'm gonna ruin every relationship I have. Somehow, it feels like its what I need.

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Know Your Northern Cardinals.

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wtf i got out of bed and it wasn’t raining so i said “rain now!” and snapped my fingers and it immediately started raining

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do you ever have so many things you want to tell someone, things like how much they mean to you, how much you enjoy spending time with them, how you lo but its just so hard to form the sentences in a way where you feel satisfied with how they might hear it and you don't want to overstep yourself if they don't catch you because of the shock or that its just not the right time

maybe I'll just end up saying everything the next time I'm drunk and just pray that its not ruined

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its so cool seeing my friends' band Bejalvin be successful. I remember hanging out with them while they released their first album and now they have done a performance with Femtanyl in front of a huge audience. I really hope they continue to find success like that have been, even if that means they don't really talk to me anymore, they deserve it.

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its like everyone finds someone else to grab onto and then they grow wings and fly away. But I've had people grab onto me, and they grow wings, but no matter how hard I try, I can't. Something that looks so effortless and cathartic for others is impossible for me. Holding back the people I care for as they get weighed down by me, just hoping my wings will grow.

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my heart is caged in ice too cold to be thawed out no matter how hot another heart may burn my heart will always be caged in ice

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Its always nice finding a little corner of the internet that still feels like its "old internet" like a little website someone made or a web comic that's made just for the passion. It feels like most of the internet is so commercialized or open to the public now that so much of it has lost its personality, so its nice to know that there are still some parts that are just nice and cozy :3

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I think, if I ever went on a proper date with someone, no matter how much I enjoyed it, I'd have no other choice but to run away and never talk to them again

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sketches on the trails with my partner

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why does living feel so hard sometimes

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Its always nice finding a little corner of the internet that still feels like its "old internet" like a little website someone made or a web comic that's made just for the passion. It feels like most of the internet is so commercialized or open to the public now that so much of it has lost its personality, so its nice to know that there are still some parts that are just nice and cozy :3

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I watched Nimona recently and it absolutely destroyed me ;w; So much of it hits so close to home for me and just made me so heartbroken. Its so sad seeing Nimona give in after so much pain and suffering, to be so sure no one was there for her that she just wanted to end it all. Its hard for me to not break into tears just thinking about it.

Besides that, I've watched a few videos of people talking about the movie now and some of them were criticizing the art style????? I don't really understand it though because they're like "they went for a lower quality animation for ____ reason" and its like, no that's just the style and its BEAUTIFUL. I think the animation is 10/10, its so expressive and easily recognizable, not to mention the lighting in some of the scenes being sooo good.

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As I've gotten older I've started to learn a lot more about myself and, more than anything, I've learned what I'm not. Funnily enough, I am not who I was in school. Not even just from a trans perspective, but also just entirely with how I acted.

I spent so much time doing things that I didn't really care about. I played video games for 10 hours a day every day but now I spend like 3 days straight without opening any games. I've realized I enjoy creating art and exploring the outdoors more so I've been doing that instead. It really is life changing, to realize you've spent the last 5 years of your life doing things that you only pretend to enjoy and while its great now since I've been enjoying what I spend my free time on more, I can't help but feel like shit. Like I wasted 5 years of my life since I pretended to be someone else because I was too scared and depressed to try new things